When I'm Alone
Carbon Leaf Lyrics


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I opened up the music box
I wish you would have changed the locks
To keep me from replaying
All the feelings I've been saving
I did not keep them locked up inside
I did not take my steps in stride
Thought you were bluffing, trampled on you
Went from friends to nothing
Radio turns to gold
And paves the way
To find my home
When I'm alone

Overeager and underway
I risked it all, I had to say
What opened me up for the beating
But the heart is for bleeding
With scraps of songs I paste along
The seams of my clumsy tongue
In hopes of creating the golden notes
That might bring you back to me

Radio turns to gold
And paves the way
To find my home
When I'm alone

Like phantoms on the highway
After holiday, gritting their teeth
Racing to find a place for their soul
Or at least a place... that's less familiar
We offer up our heart before
The heart's invited or asked for
Oh no, here I go my friend, I'm repeating
But the heart is for bleeding...
And I've said all I can say
I am retreating, on my way
Music box, play my song I'll sing along




To that bitterly sweet tone
When I'm alone...

Overall Meaning

The song When I'm Alone by Carbon Leaf speaks of heartbreak, longing, and regret. The singer in the song has opened up an old music box and wishes that the locks had been changed to prevent them from replaying and reliving the emotions they have been repressing. The lyrics suggest that the singer did not hide their feelings or take measured steps but instead acted rashly, which led to a fallout and the disintegration of the relationship. The singer finds solace in music, something that seems to be a constant source of comfort, and refuge in being alone, in a way reconciling with their own thoughts and emotions.


The lyrics suggest that the singer sought redemption but could not find it, and in the process, they ended up revealing too much too soon. They make a reference to other people on the highway who too seem to be running, searching for something that is less familiar. The words, "Oh no, here I go my friend, I'm repeating, but the heart is for bleeding..." imply that the singer has been down this path before and is going through the same feeling of heartbreak.


This song touches on the nature of relationships, how people put themselves out there and open themselves up to be hurt. It highlights the importance of music and how it can serve as a companion during hard times.


Line by Line Meaning

I opened up the music box
I revisited and reminisced about past memories and feelings


I wish you would have changed the locks
I regret that I still have access to those memories and feelings


To keep me from replaying
To stop me from repeatedly dwelling on these old emotions


All the feelings I've been saving
All of the emotions I've been holding onto for so long


I did not keep them locked up inside
I did not suppress or ignore these emotions, but instead aired them out


I did not take my steps in stride
I did not move forward with ease and grace in regards to these emotions


Thought you were bluffing, trampled on you
I underestimated your feelings and hurt you in the process


Went from friends to nothing
Our relationship went from being close acquaintances to strangers


Radio turns to gold
Music can be transformative and healing


And paves the way
Music can help guide the way through difficult emotions


To find my home
To find a peaceful and comfortable state of mind


When I'm alone
When I'm left to my own thoughts and feelings without distraction


Overeager and underway
Hastily and impulsively moving forward with my emotions


I risked it all, I had to say
I took a chance and expressed my emotions, even though it was risky


What opened me up for the beating
What left me vulnerable to emotional pain


But the heart is for bleeding
But the heart is meant to express and feel emotions, even if it's painful


With scraps of songs I paste along
I try to express myself through music and lyrics that resonate with me


The seams of my clumsy tongue
Even though I struggle to articulate my emotions, I still try my best


In hopes of creating the golden notes
In hopes of creating something meaningful and impactful


That might bring you back to me
That might help repair our relationship and bring us closer


Like phantoms on the highway
Like lost souls searching aimlessly


After holiday, gritting their teeth
Amidst the chaos and stress of the world


Racing to find a place for their soul
Desperately searching for meaning and comfort


Or at least a place... that's less familiar
Or even just a temporary escape from the struggles of life


We offer up our heart before
We offer our emotions and feelings before we're even asked to


The heart's invited or asked for
Before we're given permission or encouragement to express our emotional self


Oh no, here I go my friend, I'm repeating
I find myself falling back into old habits and emotions


And I've said all I can say
I feel like I've expressed every emotion I can


I am retreating, on my way
I'm stepping back from expressing my emotions now


Music box, play my song I'll sing along
I'll turn to music to cope with my emotions instead of expressing them further


To that bitterly sweet tone
To that emotionally complex and resonant melody


When I'm alone...
When I'm left to my own emotional devices




Lyrics © BMG RIGHTS MANAGEMENT US, LLC
Written by: BARRY THOMAS PRIVETT, CARTER GRAVATT, SCOTT ANDREW MILSTEAD, TERRELL H. CLARK

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