Tears
Carroll Jason Michael Lyrics
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I don't know why I even carried in this old bed of mines
Its not like I ever sleep
All I do is think of her, and wonder how I'm gonna make things work
Cause I know as a dad I got a lot of responsibility
Even tho God gave this gift to the both of us
Some how every other weekend is how it ended up
When the telephone rings, I drop everything
Cause when all you got is that 8 o'clock, night night dad I miss you a lot
I stop in my tracks, I try to act strong when she calls
And I thank God she cant hear tears, when they fall
Now its her Dr. Seuss and me and shes learning how to read
And I cant see those pictures, but I can hear those pages turn
And her mother says it bath time, as she blows a kiss through the line
I don't know whats worse saying goodbye, or talking to her
Cause I'm the one that should be there tucking her in the bed
But since her voice is all I have I'm thankful for what I get
[Chorus]
If she knew I was crying she might think its her fault,
Oh but that's just me missing her
Every time we talk
Every time we talk
[Chorus]
In Carroll Jason Michael's song "Tears," the singer expresses the pain of being a father who only gets to see his daughter every other weekend. The lyrics convey a deep sense of longing and regret as the singer navigates his responsibilities as a father while also struggling with being away from his child. The opening lines of the song describe the singer's new living arrangement, having just paid first and last month's rent and carrying in an old bed. However, he laments that he doesn't even sleep well in it because all he can do is think of his daughter and wonder how he'll make things work.
The chorus of the song centers around the importance of phone calls between father and daughter, even if they're difficult. The singer drops everything when the phone rings, knowing that it's his chance to connect with his little girl. She speaks to him in a child's language, telling him "night night dad" and saying that she misses him. The singer tries to act strong and hold back his tears so that his daughter won't hear his pain. His daughter is learning how to read, and her mother tells him when it's bath time so that he can say goodnight. But the singer is acutely aware that these moments are not the same as being there in person, tucking his daughter into bed and kissing her goodnight.
The final verse of the song is particularly poignant, as the singer worries that his daughter might think his tears are her fault. But he knows that it's simply the pain of missing her every time they talk. The song is a heartfelt tribute to the sacrifices that fathers make to be a part of their children's lives, even when circumstances prevent them from being physically present.
Line by Line Meaning
Paid first and last month's rent,
I am at a new place, but it feels like I am carrying around old baggage from the past.
I don't know why I even carried in this old bed of mines
I find it hard to sleep because I can't take my mind off my daughter and my responsibilities as a father.
Its not like I ever sleep
I have a lot of things to think about and worry about, which keeps me up all night.
All I do is think of her, and wonder how I'm gonna make things work
My priority is my child, and I am constantly thinking about how to be the best dad I can be.
Cause I know as a dad I got a lot of responsibility
Being a dad means I need to be responsible and accountable for my actions and decisions.
Even tho God gave this gift to the both of us
My child is a blessing, and I am grateful to have her in my life.
Some how every other weekend is how it ended up
My time with my daughter is limited due to circumstances beyond my control.
When the telephone rings, I drop everything
My daughter is my priority, and I will drop everything else to talk to her.
Cause when all you got is that 8 o'clock, night night dad I miss you a lot
My daughter's simple phone call means the world to me, and I cherish every moment I get to talk to her.
I stop in my tracks, I try to act strong when she calls
I want to be a strong father figure for my daughter, but it is hard when I miss her so much.
And I thank God she cant hear tears, when they fall
I cry because I miss my daughter, and I am grateful that she cannot see or hear me cry.
Now its her Dr. Seuss and me and shes learning how to read
I am proud of my daughter's progress, and I am happy that we can share the joy of reading together.
And I cant see those pictures, but I can hear those pages turn
I may not physically be there, but I am grateful to be able to listen to my daughter grow and learn.
And her mother says it bath time, as she blows a kiss through the line
I may not be physically present, but I am grateful to hear my daughter's voice and to be involved in her daily routine.
I don't know whats worse saying goodbye, or talking to her
Saying goodbye is hard, but not being able to talk to my daughter regularly is even harder.
Cause I'm the one that should be there tucking her in the bed
I feel like I am failing as a father because I am not there to do the simple things like tuck my daughter in at night.
But since her voice is all I have I'm thankful for what I get
I am grateful for every moment I get to talk to my daughter and to be part of her life.
If she knew I was crying she might think its her fault,
I do not want my daughter to worry or feel responsible for my emotions.
Oh but that's just me missing her
I cry because I miss my daughter and I wish I could be with her more often.
Every time we talk
Every moment with my daughter is precious, and I cherish every opportunity to talk to her.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: BRYCE P. WILSON, MAKEDA DAVIS
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