Sarah
Cary T. Brown Lyrics

I can't rest I'm always vibrant
I am constantly restless and full of energy, unable to find peace and relaxation.

I came to speak my mind so can we
I have come here to express my thoughts and opinions, so can we please have a conversation?

Talk about it
Let's discuss the issue at hand and have an open dialogue.

I'm so sick of being silent
I am tired of keeping quiet and not being able to express myself.

I'm trying
I am making an effort to change and improve the situation.

They say your future brighter than some diamonds
People claim that your future is incredibly bright, like shining diamonds.

So I'm taking off above the clouds but I ain't no pilot
I am metaphorically rising above the challenges and obstacles in my life, even though I don't have the skills of a pilot to navigate through it.

They always quick to spill ya secrets
Others are always eager to reveal your secrets and personal information.

So I keep it private
Therefore, I choose to keep my thoughts and experiences to myself.

That's a no-no 'round here
Sharing personal information is frowned upon in this environment.

Gotta keep it silent. Kno the truth
I must remain silent and keep quiet, knowing the truth about certain situations.

It be ya own homies that gon envy you
Ironically, it is often your closest friends who become jealous of your success.

Look at ya on top and they jealous so they gon eat you food
When they see you at the top and become envious, they will try to undermine you and take advantage of your success.

Know I'm still dreaming believe it
Know that I am still holding onto my dreams and believe in them despite the challenges.

They told be closer to God but I've been
People told me to be closer to God and seek guidance, but instead,

Speaking with the demons
I find myself engaging in conversations with my inner demons or negative influences.

Ain't nobody helped when I was going off the deep end
No one offered help when I was spiraling out of control and facing personal struggles.

Ain't nobody care till I start eating
Nobody showed care or concern until I achieved success or started receiving recognition.

Nowadays I'm just doin what I can do
Currently, I am simply doing my best and making the most of my abilities.

Music helps me cope with all the stress that I've been thru
Music serves as a coping mechanism for me, helping me deal with the stress I have experienced.

Everybody hot until that shit gon the fan tho
Everyone appears supportive until difficult situations or challenges arise.

Said i make no sense but you don't really understand tho
People claim that my thoughts or actions are senseless, but in reality, they fail to truly comprehend my situation.

Why everything so complicated
I wonder why everything in life seems to be so complicated and difficult.

Sometimes I just look at the stars
During moments of contemplation, I find solace in looking at the stars.

They always tell me that it'll be okay
The stars seem to reassure me that everything will be alright.

I just hope it goes away
I fervently hope that the overwhelming challenges I am facing will eventually disappear.

They told me to ease the pain
Others advised me to find ways to alleviate my emotional or physical pain.

You said you love you know
You claimed to love me, but

That's a lie
It was nothing more than a lie.

You don't understand what I feel Inside
You fail to comprehend the emotions and struggles I am experiencing internally.

I can't go back the dirt unless I'm buried
I cannot return to a state of ignorance or blissful unawareness unless I am dead and buried in the ground.

In a hearse that's where I'm carried
When I do pass away, it will be in a hearse that carries my body to the graveyard.

But until then you kno ima ride
But until that time comes, you know I will continue to persevere and face the challenges head-on.

Neva cry for the fam kno ima provide
I will never shed tears for my family because I know I will always provide for them.

I pour some liquor for my brothers who up in the sky
I pay tribute to my deceased brothers by pouring some alcohol as a symbol of remembrance.

Can rarely keep a smile on my face
It is challenging for me to maintain a cheerful expression on my face.

I really tried
I have made genuine efforts to maintain a positive attitude.

But it's tough to smile while these haters wanna steal ya shine
However, it is difficult to smile when there are people who want to undermine my success and steal my spotlight.

Or that shit won't go away
Otherwise, the pain or difficulties I am facing will not disappear.

They don't wanna see the picture
They don't want to understand the situation or empathize with me.

Unless they in the frame tho
Unless they are directly involved or affected by it.

Heard they wanna end me so I'm working on my aim bro
I have heard that there are people who want to harm or destroy me, so I am focusing on improving my skills.

You gon think I'm tweaking
You might think I am acting strangely or going crazy.

But you'll speak the same shit
However, you will eventually express the same concerns or opinions.

When they suck ya pockets like leaches
When they exploit you for your resources or drain your financial well-being like leeches.

Swear that shit gon leave ya speechless
I promise you, that situation will leave you shocked and unable to speak.

That's why I gotta vent
That is precisely why I need to express my frustrations and emotions.

I just might lose my sense
I may lose my rationality or sanity.

Come ease the pain this shits a mess
Please help me alleviate the pain and chaos in my life.

I don't wanna feel the same
I have no desire to experience the same emotions or situations.

Woah-o-o
Expressing surprise or astonishment.

I might lose my cool
I may lose control of my emotions and composure.

I might go insane
I might become mentally unstable or lose my sanity.

Even though they told me
Despite what others have told me,

That It will be okay
That everything will turn out fine.

I just need a shoulder
I simply need someone to lean on and support me.

All this weight it feels like a boulder
The burden I am carrying feels incredibly heavy, like a large rock.

Just wake up n smell the roses
I need to open my eyes and appreciate the beauty and positivity around me.

You think I ain't noticed
You may think that I haven't noticed or recognized certain things,

I need to stay focus
But I need to remain determined and maintain my focus.

Why everything so complicated
I still wonder why everything in life is so complex and challenging.

Sometimes I just look at the stars
During moments of contemplation, I find solace in looking at the stars.

They always tell me that it'll be okay
The stars seem to reassure me that everything will be alright.

I just hope it goes away
I fervently hope that the overwhelming challenges I am facing will eventually disappear.

They told me to ease the pain
Others advised me to find ways to alleviate my emotional or physical pain.