Long Lost
Castaway Lyrics


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I never thought I'd have the heart to tell you every truth I've locked away, but now these fears won't cease to ache inside my brain.
You brought me up and hid me from the torment of this cruel world and now, like a son without his mother, I face this hell with nowhere to turn.
I face this hell with nowhere to turn.
How could I ever forget the way you suffered?
The way you showed me love you'd never felt from another.
Yet I had the nerve to curse your name when all you did was show me comfort.
Looking back, how did you ever have the will to keep a loving heart when everything you held onto had left you in the dark?
From your stolen youth to your crooked lovers.
Living in one state, moving to another.
You somehow have the room in your heart to love somebody like me.
Now I'm setting the record straight.
Letting it all come through, I'm putting ink to the page.
I realize that this was never your fault and I'm sorry.
As hard as I've tried to frame you as the cause of all the mistakes I've tangled myself in, bridges I've burned at both ends, and my own self-loathing…I cannot paint such a picture any longer.
I've spent so long holding in this bitter taste and now all I want is to remember your sweetness.




But I know that through coffins, beds, love, and regret we've made for ourselves…this life is ours, so we live it.
If this is the last thing I say to you, just know that I'm learning to love myself and I've learned to love you too.

Overall Meaning

The Castaway's song Long Lost is an emotional journey of acceptance, gratitude, and regret. The lyrics reflect a strained relationship between two people, possibly a parent and child or a mentor and mentee. In the song, the singer expresses how they had locked away their true feelings and now can't help but feel the weight of their unexpressed emotions. They narrate how the person had brought them up and protected them from the cruel world, something they will always be grateful for. However, they are also facing a hell of their own and have nowhere to turn, feeling abandoned and alone.


The singer then reflects on how they had cursed the person, who loved them unconditionally, and how they now regret their behavior. They understand that the person had lived a difficult life and yet still managed to love them. The lyrics reflect on the complexities of life, with its ups and downs, regrets, love, and loss. The singer accepts their mistakes and takes responsibility for their actions while expressing their newfound love for themselves and the person.


Long Lost is a beautiful reflection of the human condition and touches on the themes of love, loss, and redemption. The lyrics connect with anyone who has ever felt regret and alienation from someone they love. The song reminds us of the importance of expressing our true feelings, even though it may be tough, and accepting our mistakes.


Line by Line Meaning

I never thought I'd have the heart to tell you every truth I've locked away, but now these fears won't cease to ache inside my brain.
I was afraid to be honest with you about my innermost thoughts and feelings, but now I can't keep them bottled up any longer and they're causing me pain.


You brought me up and hid me from the torment of this cruel world and now, like a son without his mother, I face this hell with nowhere to turn.
You protected me from the harsh realities of life, but now that I'm faced with them, I feel lost and alone without your guidance and support.


I face this hell with nowhere to turn.
I feel like I'm stuck in a difficult situation with no way out.


How could I ever forget the way you suffered?
I can't forget the pain you went through and how it affected you.


The way you showed me love you'd never felt from another.
You loved me in a way that you had never experienced yourself.


Yet I had the nerve to curse your name when all you did was show me comfort.
I was angry with you even though you were only trying to make me feel better.


Looking back, how did you ever have the will to keep a loving heart when everything you held onto had left you in the dark?
I don't know how you were able to continue to love and be kind to others despite the hardships you faced in your own life.


From your stolen youth to your crooked lovers.
You've had to deal with difficult and painful experiences throughout your life, from losing your youth to being in relationships with people who didn't treat you well.


Living in one state, moving to another.
You've had to move around a lot throughout your life.


You somehow have the room in your heart to love somebody like me.
Despite everything you've been through, you still have the capacity to love someone like me.


Now I'm setting the record straight.
I'm finally being honest and upfront about my feelings and my past behavior.


Letting it all come through, I'm putting ink to the page.
I'm expressing myself through writing.


I realize that this was never your fault and I'm sorry.
I understand that the mistakes I've made were my own and not your fault, and I'm apologizing for blaming you.


As hard as I've tried to frame you as the cause of all the mistakes I've tangled myself in, bridges I've burned at both ends, and my own self-loathing…I cannot paint such a picture any longer.
Even though I've previously tried to blame you for my own mistakes, I can no longer continue to do so because it's not fair or accurate.


I've spent so long holding in this bitter taste and now all I want is to remember your sweetness.
I've had negative emotions and thoughts for a long time, but now I want to focus on the positive memories and experiences I've had with you.


But I know that through coffins, beds, love, and regret we've made for ourselves…this life is ours, so we live it.
Life is full of good and bad experiences, but it's up to us to make the most of it and live it to the fullest.


If this is the last thing I say to you, just know that I'm learning to love myself and I've learned to love you too.
Even if I never get to say anything else to you, I want you to know that I'm working on loving myself and that I have come to love you as well.




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