The band signed with US record label Wind-up Records, which released the band's first album: 2003's So Far From Real. The album included the song "Something Beautiful", which was turned into a music video. The singles "Choke" and "Killing Me" were featured in Nintendo GameCube game 1080° Avalanche.
They left Wind-Up Records citing creative differences after the album, not pleased with the direction being forced upon them. On July 22nd of 2005, Cauterize released their second album, Paper Wings, without a label.
Their manager during Paper Wings, Darrin Pfeiffer of Goldfinger, started the label High 4 Records.
As one of the first two bands to be signed to High 4 Records, they released their last album, Disguises, on 12 June 2007. This is mainly a re-release since they’ve re-used most of the songs that were already present on Paper Wings. However, they remastered the tracklist and replaced a few songs with 4 brand new ones: Love in the Attic, Don’t Stop Now, The Devil in Lace and Slivers. The first 2000 people to pre-order received signed copies and the first 500 were sent signed copies of Disguises and a very special EP called Unmasked, which is a mini-album containing acoustic versions of Don’t Stop Now, Minor Key Symphony, My Favorite Patient, Why This Last Dance and Closer - signed as well. The only song to be redone completely on Disguises is Closer, which is shorter and sounds much better, but lacks two lines from the original version (‘You’ll wish you never met me, butterfly... butterfly, float on by me!’) and the extended instrumental part near the end.
During a concert on September 12, 2007 in Ottawa, Cauterize announced they were breaking up; ending their more than ten years together as a band. The band had been scheduled to play on MTV Live in Canada on September 5 and cancelled, which was later found to be due to the decision to break up the band. A formal announcement was posted on the band's message board and website on September 27, 2007. They played their final show together October 19, 2007 in their hometown of Oshawa.
Chuck Coles is currently playing with Brown Brigade, led by former Sum 41 guitarist Dave Baksh. Jesse Smith recently produced the album When We Were Safe by Burlington-based band Sydney, which was released in October 2007.
As of April 2008, the band's website no longer exists.
Official sites:
High 4 Records
For the Danish death metal / grindcore metal band. see Cauterized.
killing me
Cauterize Lyrics
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Please don't come around tonight
‘Cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think
I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again with you.
I finally figured out that you're not coming back
And I'm not going anywhere.
How did you let it slip away?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you
And the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger,
Could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.
No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
Tell me again about those better days.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, I tried to hide,
Still we managed to collide.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.
So I will save this last breath
For words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying,
But you're killing me.
Just when the wounds start healing
You're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.
I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
‘Cause I can't stand to see you
And I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear
I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes
Again without you.
The song "Killing Me" by Cauterize is about the aftermath of a painful breakup. The lyrics express the singer's mixed emotions and feelings of being torn between wanting to move on and the temptation to give in to their emotions. The opening lines, "I wonder where you are. Please don't come around tonight", suggest that the singer is struggling to come to terms with the end of the relationship and is not ready to face their former partner. They are still in pain and do not want to fight or argue with them.
The second verse sees the singer processing their emotions and trying to assign blame for the breakup. They blame their former partner for losing faith and not holding on tight enough, not fighting longer or harder. The lines "That's right, I'm blaming this all on you and the little things you didn't do. We both knew that you were stronger, could have fought a little longer" suggests that the singer believes their former partner could have done more to save the relationship.
In the chorus, the singer talks about how they are moving on from the pain of the breakup. They talk about the relief of not having to stay up at night waiting for calls, and how their bed is better without their former partner. Despite this, they can't help feeling hurt and heartbroken, and the pain is so great that it feels like they are being slowly killed.
Overall, "Killing Me" is a powerful and emotional song that deals with the lingering pain of a breakup. It speaks to the difficulties of moving on and captures the complicated mix of emotions that comes with trying to come to terms with lost love.
Line by Line Meaning
I wonder where you are.
I'm curious about your whereabouts.
Please don't come around tonight
I don't want to see you tonight.
‘Cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Your presence irritates me and I don't want to argue.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again with you.
I need some alcohol to make me overlook past mistakes and repeat them with you.
I finally figured out that you're not coming back
I accept that you're not returning to me.
And I'm not going anywhere.
I'm staying put.
You were the one with all the faith. How did you let it slip away?
You used to be hopeful. How did you lose it?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you
I'm holding you accountable for everything.
And the little things you didn't do.
You failed to do the small things.
We both knew that you were stronger, Could have fought a little longer.
We both acknowledge your strength. You could have struggled more.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You were not attentive enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.
You let go of me and I fell apart.
No more sleepless nights alone.
I won't experience any more insomnia on my own.
This bed is better without you.
I'm happy to use this bed alone.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I'm not staying up waiting for your phone calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
I have no more words for you.
Tell me again about those better days.
Remind me of the happier times we had.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Your silence is more damaging than any words you can utter.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
My heart and hands are shattered.
I fell in love then fell apart.
I lost myself after falling in love with you.
You tried to run, I tried to hide, Still we managed to collide.
We both tried to avoid each other, but we ended up meeting.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
We fell hard, causing similar injuries.
Held you close, felt so far.
I was close to you physically, but felt distant emotionally.
Hearts beating out of time.
Our hearts were neither in sync nor rhythm.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.
You're yelling aimlessly and with no structure.
So I will save this last breath For words that I won't scream.
I'm keeping my last breath to whisper my thoughts, not yell them.
I don't feel like dying, But you're killing me.
I don't want to die, but your presence is destroying me.
Just when the wounds start healing
As my wounds begin to recover.
You're there to break me open.
You're responsible for reopening my wounds.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm seeing my blood dripping.
I'm getting used to this.
I'm becoming accustomed to this experience.
I'll clean it in the morning.
I'll clean it up later.
Please don't come around tonight
I beg you not to show up tonight.
‘Cause I can't stand to see you
I can't bear seeing you.
And I don't want to fight.
I don't want to quarrel with you.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes
One more beverage and I might be prepared to repeat previous faults.
Again without you.
Without you, come and join me.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc., Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: KEVIN COSSOM, ANDREW HARR, JERMAINE JACKSON, TREVOR SMITH, MARK MYRIE, RODNEY BASIL PRICE
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