“Home” is a remake of Cavetown’s original song “This Is Home.” It was relea… Read Full Bio ↴“Home” is a remake of Cavetown’s original song “This Is Home.” It was released on June 7, 2019, on streaming platforms, along with the music video released on YouTube.

This is the third version of “This Is Home” that Robbie has released. He uploaded his first remake of the song on YouTube in early 2018.

On Twitter, Robbie referred to "Home" as “a very important song” that he “wanted to give new life.”

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Cavetown Lyrics

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Often, I am upset that I can not fall in love, but I guess
This avoids the stress of falling out of it
Are you tired of me yet?
I'm a little sick right now, but I swear
When I'm ready, I will fly us out of here

(Ooh) I'll cut my hair
(Ooh) to make you stare

(Ooh) I'll hide my chest
And I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Turn off your porcelain face
I can't really think right now and this place
Has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane
Are you dead?
Sometimes I think I'm dead
'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet

(Ooh) my eyes went dark
(Ooh) I don't know where
(Ooh) my pupils are
But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here

Get a load of this monster
He doesn't know how to communicate
His mind is in a different place
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
Get a load of this train wreck
His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
But little do we know, the stars
Welcome him with open
Get a load of this monster
He doesn't know how to communicate
His mind is in a different place
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
Get a load of this train wreck
His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
But little do we know, the stars
Welcome him with open arms
Oh

Time is
Slowly

Tracing his face
But strangely he feels at home in this place

Overall Meaning

The opening lines of this song, “Often, I am upset that I cannot fall in love,” suggest the feeling of loneliness or emptiness that the singer is experiencing. However, they soon turn it around by saying that not being able to fall in love avoids the stress of falling out of it. This could be interpreted as a defense mechanism against the pains of heartbreak.

In the following verses, the singer seems to be struggling with their identity and their mental health, describing themselves as feeling sick, dead, and being unable to think properly due to too many colors. They go on to say that they will figure out a way to get themselves and their loved one out of this place. This “place” could be a physical location or a state of mind, depending on interpretation.

The chorus features the singer offering to change their appearance in order to catch the attention of their loved one. In the second verse, the singer seems to be describing themselves as a monster or a train wreck, yet the stars welcome them with open arms. This suggests that the singer may feel like they don’t fit in or have a place in the world but that they are still loved and accepted by those around them.

Overall, “Home” by Cavetown could be interpreted as a coming-of-age story or a journey of self-discovery. The singer struggles with their own identity and their place in the world but finds solace in the fact that someone loves them for who they are.

Line by Line Meaning

Often, I am upset that I can not fall in love, but I guess
Not falling in love avoids the emotional stress that comes with falling out of it

Are you tired of me yet?
Asking if the other person is getting fed up with them

I'm a little sick right now, but I swear
The singer is feeling unwell at the moment, but they promise to get better soon

When I'm ready, I will fly us out of here
The artist promises to take the other person away from their current situation when they're ready

(Ooh) I'll cut my hair
The artist is willing to change their appearance to impress the other person/hold their attention

(Ooh) to make you stare
The singer wants to do something to captivate the other person's attention

(Ooh) I'll hide my chest
The singer may be uncomfortable with their body and is willing to hide it to impress the other person

And I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
The artist is determined to find a way to leave their current situation with the other person

Turn off your porcelain face
The artist wants the other person to drop their figurative mask and be genuine with them

I can't really think right now and this place
The artist is feeling overwhelmed and distracted by their surroundings

Has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane
The singer is experiencing sensory overload and finds their environment overwhelming

Are you dead?
The artist is unsure if they're experiencing real life or just imagining things

Sometimes I think I'm dead
The singer occasionally wonders if they're alive or dead

'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
The singer is experiencing vivid hallucinations that feel real to them

But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet
The singer is hesitant to allow their thoughts to take over and prefers to stay alert

(Ooh) my eyes went dark
The artist's vision is obscured or they're losing consciousness

(Ooh) I don't know where
The artist is unsure of their surroundings or what's happening to them

(Ooh) my pupils are
The singer's eyes are dilated or reacting to something they're experiencing

But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
The singer remains determined to escape their current situation

Get a load of this monster
The artist feels like a monster or an outcast

He doesn't know how to communicate
The artist is struggling to express themselves and communicate effectively

His mind is in a different place
The artist is lost in thought or detached from reality

Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
The singer desires some alone time or personal space

His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
The artist is feeling confused and unsure of their identity

But little do we know, the stars
Despite their personal struggles, the universe sees the singer as something special

Welcome him with open arms
The universe welcomes and embraces the singer, despite their flaws

Time is
Time is passing

Slowly
Time is passing at a gradual pace

Tracing his face
Time is passing and making its mark on the artist's appearance

But strangely he feels at home in this place
Despite their struggles, the singer finds comfort in their current situation

Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Robin Skinner

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@addybishop308

2y↑45

*LYRICS*
Often, I am upset
That I cannot fall in love, but I guess
This avoids the stress of falling out of it
Are you tired of me yet?
I'm a little sick right now but I swear
When I'm ready I will fly us out of here

(Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm)
I'll cut my hair
(Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm)
To make you stare
(Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm)
I'll hide my chest
And I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Turn off your porcelain face
I can't really think right now and this place
Has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane
Are you dead? Sometimes I think I'm dead
'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet

(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
My eyes went dark
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
I don't know where
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
My pupils are
But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here

Get a load of this monster
He doesn't know how to communicate
His mind is in a different place
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
Get a load of this train wreck
His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
But little do we know, the stars
Welcome him with open...
Get a load of this monster
He doesn't know how to communicate
His mind is in a different place
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
Get a load of this train wreck
His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
But little do we know, the stars
Welcome him with open arms
Ooh-ooh

Time is
Slowly
Tracing his face
But strangely he feels at home in this place

@IHEARTU_

1y↑32

lyrics:D

Often, I am upset that I can not fall in love, but I guess
This avoids the stress of falling out of it
Are you tired of me yet?
I'm a little sick right now, but I swear
When I'm ready, I will fly us out of here
I'll cut my hair
(Ooh) to make you stare
(Ooh) I'll hide my chest
And I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Turn off your porcelain face
I can't really think right now and this place
Has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane
Are you dead?
Sometimes I think I'm dead
'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet
my eyes went dark
(Ooh) I don't know where
(Ooh) my pupils are
But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
Get a load of this monster
He doesn't know how to communicate
His mind is in a different place
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
Get a load of this train wreck
His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
But little do we know, the stars
Welcome him with open
Get a load of this monster
He doesn't know how to communicate
His mind is in a different place
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?
Get a load of this train wreck
His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
But little do we know, the stars
Welcome him with open arms
Oh
Time is
Slowly
Tracing his face
But strangely he feels at home in this place

All comments from YouTube:

@THE______TRUTH

5y↑4.8K

holy fudge sticks that's a pretty pop up book.

@oliviaprasad5063

5y↑42

The Truth has been told

@bleepblop9561

5y↑7

Gasp your likes! It's the devil's number! (for now lol)

@meow7629

5y↑17

The Truth his voice is prettier

@reibean9542

5y↑4

hello Truth how many alchemists have you visited lately?

@THE______TRUTH

5y↑2

@Star is Trash ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ To be fair, they visited me.

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@iluvkimchi

1y↑1.5K

"his hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet, but little do he know the stars welcome him with open arms." never fails to make me cry...

@_greenskull

1y↑9

same

@Forthesisters

45w↑13

For me it's just relatable I have a bit of a dance, I point to myself and sing that part.

@luckyjoke4116

42w↑4

cry fr ???????????????????????????? im confused

@luckyjoke4116

40w↑2

@@sylphology-gb4je idk when people are too emotional for a song that's embarrassing

@Will0w_Paws

34w↑5

@@luckyjoke4116sometimes it reminds of ppl who died, and etc

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@Idk-be7eu

2y↑946

Hearing the difference in his voice from “This is home” and “Home” gives me so much hope as a young ftm it’s insane. I don’t think he realizes the impact he has a people and the love I have for him

@EssentialNPC

42w↑44

You are loved. We believe in you.

@yharonplays1721

36w↑31

Keep going bro, as an enby Ik shit sucks sometimes but you got this 👍

@jessl2454

24w↑10

Same, dude, - It’s been a year, how are you doing now?

@Tigerhat_animations

22w↑4

Yes, how are you?

@Idk-be7eu

22w↑5

@@jessl2454 Better i’m not gonna lie

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@jewlsrose8574

41w↑118

Can everyone just take a minute to appreciate the amount of talent it took to make this pop up book for every lyric in the song😮😮🎉🎉😊🎉

@Onyresthegaywriter

1y↑314

As someone who is questioning their gender and sexuality this makes me feel warm on the inside and I even tear up when I hear this song this song holds a special place in my heart 🏳️‍🌈🤍

@noe5632

1y↑5

❤️🏳️‍🌈❤️

@dotdotsmileshannonchesley1334

1y↑5

hi! dont go top hard on yourself while in questioning, take your time! <3

@ventxret

12w

there's only 2

@bigboopus5059

3y↑269

How does this song manage to comfort every letter of LGBTQIA at once?

@chuckles9994

2y↑7

hah. A year later this is still correct.

@afoolishfopdoodle3284

1y↑30

Because it isn't just exclusive to queer people, it can be about anyone who struggles with anything. Anyone could be the "monster" or the "trainwreck", and we all need a bit of comfort

@user-ji4hp7vt4x

11w↑1

It’s not just for them it’s for everyone.

@justeggin

5y↑2.7K

tHE WELCOME HIM WITH OPEN ARMS PART WAS SO BEAUTIFUL

@emisan5766

5y↑17

I lost it at that part, I'm in love with this ^

@ritsukaaoyagi8239

5y↑35

I cried because the song means so much to me

@naominature4919

5y↑4

Ritsuka Aoyagi
I know how you feel 💕

@idk9747

4y↑1

Hello Kokichi

(No spoilers please i only just started goodbye despair but i still know alot of the characters for v3)

@justeggin

@Kyoko Kirigiri AHHH ITS THE ULTIMATE HIGH SCHOOL LEVEL DETECTIVE

9 More Replies...

@mintysourlemon

34w↑51

I know this song is about lgbtq experiences, but when I feel like people don't understand me and accept me, when I feel like I can't accept me and just want to disappear, this song makes me feel so accepted, and that I'll be ok. I can learn to love myself. Thank you so much for making this song. Even if I can't find anyone that can accept me in that moment, at least I have this song as my comfort space to go on with life.

@borealis_3882

34w↑6

everything will be okay and nothing will be okay and that'll be okay
we love you. i love you

@mintysourlemon

34w↑3

@@borealis_3882 thank you.... 🥺😭 I love you too 💞🫂

@marsmarshaha

2y↑1.5K

for everyone out there who is gay, lesbian, bi, etc. and/or non binary, trans, etc, just know that u should be proud of who u are. there is nothing wrong with who u are, no matter what people tell u or think of u.we luv u!!

edit: im glad this made y'all feel more loved, this was my intention!

@heart_eyez3445

2y↑24

I’ve always thought I was weird, this makes me feel comfortable

@shobo4482

2y↑24

@Heart_eyez there's nothing wrong with being "weird", "normal" is boring lol

@heart_eyez3445

2y↑9

@Shobo true :)

@imposition470

2y↑8

yay thank you

@marsmarshaha

2y↑4

@imposition <3

46 More Replies...

@ashthesimppp

1y↑122

I promised myself that i would never take this song out of my playlist, this song is so comforting <3

@saltytooth4u

2y↑72

feeling super dysphoric and unhappy from family problems
so i came here and it cheered me up a bit
i love everyone in this community <3

@moonimoon1281

1y↑58

I wish Cavetown could know how much this song helped me to overcome so many panic attacks. It’s just so comforting, I don’t really ask for help when I’m having a hard time, so listening to his songs (home especially) really heals me, he’s a wonderful artist, I really appreciate his work so much. Thanks for saving me everyday.

@fhennerius276

5y↑2.5K

I think both versions are beautiful and bundled in emotions,

But that bridge was fucking amazing.

@officerari

5y↑11

That was so amazing

@mimisaur5000

5y↑11

I know, it gave me c h i l l s

@moyii

oh yes

@cynniethia

Fhennerius fuck yeah

@yourmother__

2y↑90

I love how introspective this song is. You’re seeing a person talk to their head, and basically having an argument with it. It’s just brilliant.

@-buggiez-

37w↑25

This song reminds me of depression and being trapped. To whoever is feeling these emotions like me,
-drink some water
-talk to someone
-eat a comfort food
-listen to some music
I love you <33

@emilypafford7185

1y↑53

So about a year ago I met this girl who always sat alone at lunch. We became friends because of a science project. Her and me got along and we would listen to this song together while making the project. One day I told her that I liked her and we started going out. When summer hit she ended up getting really sick and we had to stop talking. This a week ago I found out she died from Covid. Every time I hear this song I think of how we would hang out with each other and call at 12:00 am. I miss you autumn and you will always be In my heart. You were special to me and many others. I hope your doing ok no matter we’re you are.

@hayleystubbs591

1y↑7

I'm so sorry for your loss

@Finngotscared

1y↑6

I'm so so sorry

@leeshyd531

16w

Oh my god, rest in peace Autumn. I hope her soul can rest, & I hope both of you can find peace.

@addybishop308

2y↑45

@rufflesntruffles2

1y↑112

i'm a trans woman and i love this song lol
even though it was probably targeted to trans men as an audience i relate to it a lot

@CheeseusChrist11

1y↑7

Yah same!

@DUBXGAMER12

40w↑3

Same, I love this song!

@izukurinnvarris7797

36w↑4

Every time I sing it I just switch the pronouns on some lines and honestly it still fits perfectly

@DUBXGAMER12

36w↑3

@@izukurinnvarris7797 I change the pronouns in some parts too

@ldTmrGmng

5y↑2.9K

Cut My Hair(Remix): Fast
This is Home: Medium
Home:Slow

@wendelmedjhindicool1855

5y↑42

This was a remake, so it's more slower.

@yourglitterygarden

5y↑86

His voice changed since the first time he sang this so it's different

@ashlynwolf8457

5y↑33

Hotel:Trivago

@eduardobalbino57

5y↑22

Time is.... Slowly.....

@vivi-wr8nm

5y↑11

BG Noise: forgotten as always

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@gaucher5188

2y↑25

"he doesn't know how to communicate, his mind is in a different place well everybody give him a little bit of space"
I relate so much :(

@lolwutt

19w

same

@aurelia679

2y↑41

As a person who is going through dysphoria and whose parent won’t let them be the one who they want to be, I could definitely say that lyrics are 95 percent right and this it really does bring me comfort and the feeling of being understood and belonging to some group of people. I know everyone will just skip my comment or thing that I am crying and asking for a pity, but really I wanted to share my opinion.
P.S sorry for mistakes I’m not that good at English and thanks for your attention <3

@cassianmiller-felix2657

3y↑127

I found this song a few months ago while questioning whether I was aromantic, and it was one of two songs that helped me come to terms with my aromanticism. I'm also trans and genderqueer. It has a special place in my heart because it reflects so much of my queerness in a way that no song has ever done.

@Nobody-qd7ou

2y↑69

[Vent ahead]

Listening to this song always makes me cry. As a person soon to major in physics and has mental disorders and more still undiagnosed to having a terrible familiar and friendship/community relationship. This song REALLY hits home deep for me. And while I'm not trans, I have similar experiences as an intersex person with dysphoria. To the point I get dreams of people mocking me. Or maybe at this point they are nightmares... I can't tell. But I especially wish someday I'd find a home as right now I'm in the worst spot with my friend leaving me and apparently likely feeling nothing. This song doesn't have to do with that but it confirms the fact that my bullies and now my mind can't help but view me as a freak of nature similar to the names I'd get called by from everyone around me. In a sense I feel this is my fault for harboring such an unapproachable personality and style that was at first to ward off bullies, but ended up doing so much more. I don't mind it as I am asexual and sort of aromantic (demiromantic so it takes time) but as a (unfortunately to the dismay to those who think I'm not human and myself at this point) biological human. I can't help but wish for affection still.

@that-one.Arab-

2y↑5

It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It's painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it's something so simple and little that brightens up someone's whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you're passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it's been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you're here, existing, but I don't want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There's something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can't give you a hug, that's why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn't give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn't give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can't you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there's someone looking right back, maybe we can't see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that's enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you' re still fighting. You're so much stronger thank you think, you didn't leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn't feel like it, when you don't feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you're one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you' re heart is beautiful, that's why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life
Hope this helps

@annalindafiocco1895

1y↑1

@idek.myn4me English isn't even my first language but I read it all. It's nice to know that in the world don't exist only bad people 💜

@pubuduyapa4159

1y↑1

I don't know if this will help but I want you to know that it's ok to be you and that you are still human no matter what your family or community or even that nagging inner self critic says. You will eventually find a group of people or even just one person that will accept you for who you are and love and cherish you for it. So don't beat yourself up so harshly for it. After all, as the song says, the stars will welcome you with open arms.

@blueberrydragon5160

1y↑2

I’m not a doctor, but an autistic woman. This song resonated so much with my lived experiences. Since I read up about the diagnosis I have found a vast group of supporters and friends online who went through similar problems. It may be worth looking into for some people as many tend to “mask” their problems (porcelain face) until they can’t anymore (too many colors to drive anyone insane). I’m a med student right now and we didn’t even really touch on the subject, only learned the adolescent male-presenting problems. There are also a lot of autistic creators on Youtube, I first found myself in their experiences and then sought a diagnosis (takes a lot of time, and not always worth it). No matter if diagnosed or not, you are almost always welcome in autistic/ ADHD- spaces (those two tend to have similar problems)

@angiewu8294

1y↑7

i come back to this every now and again. it used to be "this is home", and i found my comments from years ago where i vented about sh along with dozens of other people. now i watch this video, different but just as comforting, and feel grateful for how far i've come. how i'm still alive

@snowden6790

5y↑3.7K

it went from "this is home" to just "home" and it just feels right. like instead of 'i need to confirm that /this/ is home' to 'i know that i'm home'.

@kiaraclifton7443

5y↑88

god damn that was deep i appreciate this

@miausa7594

5y↑16

Your comment made me cry v":

@roidmango5751

5y↑17

Actually it’s the original title of the song, in his first performance of the song he announced it like “This is Home” referring to the song, not its title.

@snowden6790

5y↑18

@mangobones but when he posted the song, he titled it 'this is home' idk, just a thought, no big deal

@cgirl4078

Its not that deep my guy

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@_RoseTinted

2y↑288

This song literally saved me from my lowest point, I honestly suffer from alot of anxiety my parents use wrong pronouns and dead name me and I often find myself arguing with them. Since I've came out the closet I've experienced both the best and worst experiences of my life. On one hand I have broke down multiple times but I've also been able to (somewhat) be myself, I have friends who accept me and I couldn't be more grateful for. Without them and without Robbie odds are I wouldn't be alive right now.

A little edit 8 months later: So, as of right now it's almost my birthday, i'll be 16 my parents still deadname me ect but i'm getting testosterone blockers soon, i've wanted them so so long but i've never been allowed. After this i'll be getting estrogen. A update on my social life is that i'm (almost) fully out, I went outside in a skirt a few days ago with my friends, we went to the park and I felt like I could finally be me. I'm not going to say my anxiety has gone over the past 8 months but the support from my friends has just been the greatest thing I could ask for. One friend gave me thigh highs because I was feeling really dysphoric. I've been called slurs by people, i've been harassed but I think I am finally me and thats all that matters.
Anyway thanks for reading this post, I hope you all have a great day and if you're feeling low and you're a trans guy, gal or nb pal you're valid and I wish you all the best.

An edit 16 months from the original comment: So, first off thanks for the kind replies, that alone means alot to me so from the bottom of my heart thank you ❤. I didnt end up getting testosterone blockers because my parents found out and hadn't been best pleased. They still deadname me etc but I still have hope. In a few months I'll be 17 and I'll be in college. This is a big thing for me as my mother said she'd finally call me rose after 2 and a half years of being out to her. Things are still looking up, I've made more supportive friends than before, they've took me clothes shopping and have done my makeup, hell they're even helping me get a prom dress despite my mothers protests. I'm love them all so much. Also I went to school in a skirt for the first time!! I think I passed for the most part and some people didn't even recognise me which was honestly a great feeling. I did get called a few slurs but in the area I live its be to expected. In abit scared in the state of trans rights in the uk but im optimistic itll get better. Its currently 3.42am and I really need to go so i love you all, you're all valid, have a great day/night and if you're going to sleep and happend to read this, sleep well!! I'll update some point in the future (:

June 30th 2023: Okok I'm going to start tracking with dates now so its easier but life's getting better to a degree, I've got my first feminine haircut (they messed it up but I'll take what i can get lol). I'm starting college in 9 weeks! I actually have prom today in which although I'm not wearing a dress however it isn't the most masculine outfit so I'll allow it. My friends coming over to help me do up my hair and I'm so grateful. I still feel dysphoric and I've accepted my parents aren't really going to accept me easily but my friends have always supported me and I see them as family now. Most people who I'm fully out to accept me which is better than expected and I've only been bullied/mocked a handful of times which is better than I thought it'd be, sucks nevertheless but I'll take it. The UK still doesn't seem too safe for trans people as its getting worse but I'm approaching with cautious optimism. A lot of my family dislike me now but thats okay, if they're not willing to accept me then I dont care all that much about their opinions or feelings as long as i live I'll be who i am. I'm hoping to get HRT in the near future but I need to do DIY so my parents don't find out so i'm just kinda hoping for the best. Thanks for all the kinda comments also, I have really bad anxiety so I dono't reply but know I see them and I love and appreciate you as a person. I now own 2 dresses and after trying to lose weight I fit into small in women's clothing and sometimes even XS which is progress from when I was once large. Thanks you all once again, it's currently 2:26 AM as of writing this so i'm going to stop about now but thank you for all the kind words and I love and appreciate you. Love yourself, you deserve it. Sleep well or have a good day (:

@afoolishfopdoodle3284

1y↑3

I love you so much <3

@Rencoon

1y↑3

I'm so glad you're doing well! You keep being you and don't let anyone stop you. We love and appreciate you! <3

@kostyathetransguy

51w↑3

You go girl! Rock'em skirts and good luck with college!

@sammy-adamelhamdi5472

50w

now listen here. the only reason you've ever been at a low, is cuz of yo damn DUMB satan inside of you. Before you be closed minded, Listen. Say you were religious. (dont you dare say you are cuz trans=sin in every damn religion) and god told you: I made this body for you, yet you are unhappy with it? if it werent for me, you would'nt even have a body to begin with.'' how would you react? ''my body my choice''? he just gotta take back that body of his. he gave you a body for a reason. Life... is a test. and im guessing you had'nt thought of that before huh? well... god is testing you. will you look for him? he's given you a lifetime to find him. will you listen to him? he's given you all the proof you need. sigh im tired... just leave me be. i dont want to become even more depressed when i see all my brothers from other mothers become... shall i say ''sinful''? good... lifetime.

@linxed1345

47w↑2

We love you Rose :'D

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@IHEARTU_

1y↑32

@inoghmia8937

3y↑30

This song helped me a lot to deal with my aromanticism and still helps me on my way to accepting myself..
Thank you

@Yeehaw190

1y↑8

It’s pretty cool how Robbie can save lives he didn’t know existed. Thank you for saving mine <3

@uff1x

2y↑4

this made me cry. this is. amazing.

@RayAllDay

5y↑7.6K

That second “get a load of this train wreck” gave me chills

@acid_kimpie

5y↑48

Me toooo, love it

@catchingclovers

5y↑75

Me too it hit me right in the feels

@Neonrenn

5y↑9

Same same same

@alfredoronco5552

5y↑3

Yessss

@aimeelouise1973

5y↑53

Yass I felt that too. Robin really knows how to make us feel all sorts of ways

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@potatoes_yumm

1y↑14

the thing I like about this song is that it's very dynamic

@CheeseusChrist11

1y↑9

This song means so much to me. I recently came out as nonbinary to my collage and my family. I cannot describe on how much this one song has helped me come to except myself. Cavetown's music is just amazing.

@zildiun2327

45w↑4

This song saved my life.

@CoreyPineStudios

2y↑15

I’m currently listening to this in a car with full volume and I screamed at the bit where he said “GET A LOAD OF THIS TRAINWRECK!!!!” It’s such an absolute banger of a song!!

@niichaadpuno8132

1y↑4

this song was recommended by someone very special to me, my first, she was the every thing, everytime i hear this i miss her

@helicopterman2678

5y↑2.1K

Robbie: *Uploads a remixed version of Home*

[Everyone Liked That]

@wyattsullivan1409

5y↑4

Ikr

@cat_clancy

5y↑7

How did you do in P.E. today?

@insanitybros7763

5y↑9

Cut my hair is worse than home

@shmoist2678

5y↑2

@INSANITY Bros I don't like cut my hair at all tbf.

@Es-mv2mk

He sang both songs

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@Moonslices

1y↑6

This song literally describes me. I am nonbinary and bisexual, and my life had been a mess. I cut my hair, i made new friends, i found my place. And this song just gives me such a sweird feeling, like a combinartion of happiness and sadness at the same time. Thank you for making this song Cavetown, its one of the best ever

@himeoyazumi4143

2y↑10

As someone who's having an identity crisis this song helped me. Whenever I feel empty/alone I just sing or listen to this song.

@Ghost_Journal

11w↑2

Cavetown is my home. Never fails to make me cry. Cavetown will forever live in my memories♥️🌸

@stargonzalez2638

1y↑13

im very proud to say this is my most streamed song of 2022

@anissa_charity

2y↑3

Bro I want this book 😭😭💜💜

@mess4501

5y↑4K

This is Home: You're weak
Home: I'm you

@nope9885

4y↑60

@_SydneyThePooh_ home is longer isnt it. Home has a get a load of this monster... part twice

@BreadstixTheAnimator

4y↑6

@POTATOFORLYFE this has it twice

@nope9885

4y↑6

@N3wL3gends ya

@purin5167

4y↑77

This is home: who are you?
Home: I'm you but better

@amelia-ex5sp

4y↑14

tbh i like home a lot more than this is home

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@alec-alch-ral

1y↑5

The first lyric I can relate to a lot, being aro/ace

@minxyayala

37w↑7

This is the one song that can still get me to cry. It not diagnosed but I struggle with things like writing and focusing. I'll have moments where I say something stupid or lose contacts in conversations because even know I really trying to focus, I just can't. Bring be back to when I still in school, crying because I knew a big project was due tomorrow but could only stare at a blank computer screen. Or when I have to do groups project involving writing and had to desperately figure out how not to look like an idiot because that day I couldn't figure out how to spell "doesn't" or something stupid like that.

Those times wreck my mental state and I still have moments where I'm frustrated because that one word I what to use won't go through the Voice to Text feature and I can't spell it.

It's not like I can really communicate about this or complain because while other are struggling in life. I am well off. And who crys because they couldn't write a paragraph in a normal amount of time?

I know this songs is talking about different types of struggles but that what I got from it.

@androart1817

3y↑10

3:38 gave me chills

@palemourningrose2463

2y↑6

I don’t know who I am, what I am, or what I’m supposed to be. I struggle with what’s real and what isn’t, and I dissociate frequently to escape bad situations. I’m downcast and stressed. This song speaks to my weary soul.

@oya_oya5441

2y↑15

I learned English thanks to Cavetown <3

Just because I wanted to watch the videos without the need for subtitles, I also memorized the lyrics in Spanish and English so I learned a lot of words nwn

Thanks Cavetown!

@emmasanidad3623

5y↑389

home? i dont think ive heard this one befo-

“often i am upset..”

oH SHIT YES

@GoldenBee578

5y↑5

MOOD

@538isalive

5y↑16

S A ME
"ooh new music??"
intro
"nope but it's my favorite :D"

@bluflavouredpudding

5y↑1

Same
I love it

@shinshin7012

SAMEEEEEE

@orzo8salad

1y↑2

bro the last harmony and the bass drop with the fiddle coming in was too good

@junetime_panic3907

12w↑1

The second verse is all too familiar, and it gets me every time.
To me, it talks about masking and overstimulation. I cant help but sing along whenever I hear this song.
Thank you, Cavetown.

@nova-6928

2y↑7

I’m not bisexual or transgender or part of LGBTQ, but this song right here is what got me into singing, it’s what made me feel like I was at home. made me feel like everything’s gonna be alright. whenever im sad, i come here. this is honestly one of my favorite songs, it reminds me of my past and makes me feel warm. this song has been here for me through pain, love, and hate, right now im feeling a lot of sadness and this song is making me feel better, thank you cavetown. i don’t know if you realize it, but you’ve helped me through a whole whole lot in my life. and make me remember the good stuff. thank you.

@anorien111

45w↑13

I think... I will never speak again because no words I say will ever strike at my core like these lyrics. I'm aroace and neurodivergent, so from the first line about not being able to fall in love just skewered me. And then the bit about this monster who doesn't know how to communicate OUCH. Yet listening to this song made me feel almost ethereal and at peace. That doesn't happen to me very often. True art. I applaud you. 👏👏👏👏

And Happy Pride! 💚🤍🩶🖤🩶🤍💜

@Forthesisters

45w↑1

Ha the monster part touches my autistic soul.

@stygian4330

3y↑7

I'm wearing a binder in school for the first time today, feeling good :)

@_..L0v3r._.

As you should

@EllionicoJohn

5y↑2.2K

: how much creativity u would like to put in to your new mv?
robbie: yes

@Toby-fi4uz

5y↑2

YES

@redsharp2

5y↑4

Not much. Just a flipbook with cool visuals. Honestly shrek did it first but to be fair no one can compare to shrek

@redsharp2

5y↑1

@Peachy Potatoes Oh my Shreks*

@bobateaaa_7959

So true

@littlesu1730

yas

@fluffyboi6283

36w↑3

This is probably one of the most deeply touching songs I have ever heard, either this or devil town, both feel like I can deeply relate to them on a personal level along with them being just genuinely good songs.

@x_just_harper_x1823

2y↑83

Planning to play this on the guitar on my b-day for coming out, I love you cavetown. Thank you for all you've done :). I was very insecure about myself, I have also anxiety, and your music calms me a lot <|3

@MissingPhoenix11

2y↑5

Good luck! ♡

@green.eggs.and.trans.

36w

ik im late but can i ask how it went? (if u actually did it)

@x_just_harper_x1823

36w↑1

@@thatgaycosplayingpotato i did it!! My mom wasn't very supportive, but she was respectful still. My dad said he was very proud of me, and is starting to call me by he/him pronouns :") <33

@x_just_harper_x1823

36w↑1

@@XxKaydo_EgdeworthxX thank you ! It went well <33

@codyhoward7626

49w↑3

I super vibe with this.

@laylaruthofficial

1y↑5

I don’t think this person realises how much this song has made me happy.

@aceofspite

51w↑2

This song has made me cry on 3 separate occasions

@CrazyBlox1003

4y↑3.5K

Damn who ever made that book must be really patient. The first time I made a mistake, I'd rip the book in half and have a mental breakdown.

@exoticbutters7793

4y↑29

how on earth do you make this

@austinlorenzo6073

4y↑31

same i feel like there just arent enough mental break downs in this world

@sn0koplasm

4y↑27

I would grab a knife and go kill all the people who said I could do it if I put my mind to it

@austinlorenzo6073

4y↑16

@Cat Eyed Loser this is the FBI your under arrest

@sn0koplasm

4y↑12

Austin Lorenzo oh nu....*stabs fbi*

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@ctnightmare5709

1y↑51

As trans male myself, I relate to this song so much! I only recently found out I was trans, and it made so many things make sense growing up! Sadly my parents aren't the most supportive, but they let me cut my hair short! I wanna get a binder at some point and start T!

@owinlaa

Trans man* don’t use man and make interchangeable, that’s terfy

@ctnightmare5709

1y↑3

@rudy laa What??

@JeremyF1tzgerald

1y↑3

@CT!Nightmare i think he meant to not use Male and Man interchangibly?? Probably another insensitive comment..

@hint-in-murmurs

48w↑1

As a trans man who likes to call himself a male, please God shut up, if a trans person chooses to call them self male/female with how they identify that isn't fucking terfy get a grip

@komaedaa

2y↑6

This songs every day makes me more confident to come out to my parents, i've been hearing it since it released and back then i didn't knew who tf i even was at that point. It's funny how cavetown motivated every single part of me to keep staying and get comfortable with myself

@tee8465

34w↑5

Every song by Cavetown touches my heart and makes me cry. He's so talented and changes lives ❤❤❤

@ELAxIZA

1y↑5

Gimme that book💳💥💳💥💳💥

@wijiaulia1472

5y↑18.5K

The amount of hardwork they put into this music video is IMMENSE

@catchingclovers

5y↑19

yuta's nostril RIGHT!!

@myles5872

5y↑13

669 likes lmao-

@gwotherwilkerson7457

5y↑12

yuta's nostril love your name by the way

@lixiez608

5y↑3

ikr I'm 😌😤😭

@bellamunoz7106

5y↑14

I need to be friends with u, u like kpop AND cavetown

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@belowfactual

24w↑3

once again helping the algorthim pick this song up this is beyond underrated robbie is a legend

@kelpio

1y↑2

my life was saved in 4 minutes and 37 seconds, thank you robbie

@igotabadidea_8

2y↑2

the best lyrical vieo i have ever seen
i like this song so much.. awesome

@yuiBJYX

43w↑1

THIS IS MASTERPIECE. The song the music, the book too. Love ya bro you're the best

@_a3tn2u_

35w↑3

Crying everytime i listen to this song

@Rain-sm7wq

3y↑9.7K

Can we just take a moment to appreciate that somebody(s) had to create a HUGE customized pop out book just for this music video? Like thats INSANE!

@aarnzoo5124

3y↑230

I know! I’m absolutely amazed right bow! It’s absolutely stunning!

@katlikesart7467

3y↑134

FINALLY SOMEONE THAT IS TALKING ABOUT IT

@kellyfreshh

3y↑122

What a beautiful keepsake as an artist too 😊

@user-qf3oj7xp4u

3y↑35

I know right that is so cool

@mirandasmith616

3y↑19

In an awesome way

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@analeonorduarte2424

1y↑2

I JUST LOVE THE SONG

@cadonh

32w↑3

I use to listen to this when I thought I was sad but now I listen to it and miss how I use to be and how I use to feel and can’t believe how much time has passed by it’s very sacry

@anki.2766

1y↑2

this song>>>>>

@abigailmarieee6805

36w↑2

I just found your music 5 mins ago and this is the 2nd song after “green” thanks for saving me in a way you will never know. Please keep making music

@littletreasuresgaminggirls4439

34w↑10

who else needs this book...🙋‍♀

@Toby-fi4uz

5y↑700

“ How much creativity would you like to put into this? “
Cavetown: YES

@sheep9511

5y↑2

XxDemonsLabxX Gaming you stole that comment from somebody who posted that comment 6 days ago

@kieran7274

5y↑2

this isn't very funny just gacha humor smh

@AyEmEl

Check description for who made the book.

@angelyusukiarchives3202

5y↑1

Having a gacha profile doesn't change the fact that it's a comment

@sheep9511

Exactly! People are SO rude to gacha life users!

@jamminggoodwithweirdandgil972

1y↑2

you have no idea how much i relate to the first line. i’m aroace and can’t feel a thing for anyone, no matter how hard i try or want to. it’s just not in me. but i’m scared to end up all alone, i don’t want to…
at least i have this.

@annesofierobitaille4369

2y↑5

This is a masterpiece, the song and the video.

@ghost_5501

49w↑14

I got my first binder today ❤

@Williamwoodiam789

25w

Congrats!!

@glitch6052

19w

Congratulations! I’m so happy for you! ^^

@autumsdevil

17w

What is the binder for

@Williamwoodiam789

17w

@@m3llow_ to compress their chest so it looks flat

@novazic

1y↑5

For real, I think this is the best music video I have ever seen. I was staring at the TV watching it and couldn't keep my jaw from dropping, so wonderful. <3

@keithosarus7484

1y↑23

This is a song that lives heavily in my heart, I am a genderfluid now 18 year old. I thought Id never make it here with my gender identity. I am struggling with my mental health and I just want to escape, having 1 parent (mother) that left and abandoned me snd one father who yells at me constantly and belittles me no matter what I do. My grandparents don’t even not use my deadname.

I try my hardest but I didnt even think I’d live to be an adult, it’s a world I’m not prepared for because I thought I was gonna die before I was 10+

@i-stay-silly

1y↑3

<3333 stay strong, you'll make it though this

@euphrosyne9670

5y↑2.3K

He some how made his song more beautiful by using a
pop-up book

@Partially_cloudy_

5y↑2

It did

@LisaStarUwU

5y↑3

I KNOW RIGHT! I LOVE IT!!!

@zeophalanx1751

5y↑1

imo this made it worse, just because it wasnt as perfect
the original audio seems to always be the best, like a definitive version that live performances cant live up to.

@AspenFalls0907

5y↑2

@Zeo Phalanx Everyone disliked that

@zeophalanx1751

5y↑1

@Sammy Sullivan Miller the pop up book wasnt bad, the music was ;d

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@Milo815

52w↑4

this was the first cavetown song i listened to 3 years ago, and its still my favourite cavetown song 3 years later

@uranbaigalmunkhbat8044

51w↑3

Fall in love with this song❤

@kevinfleagle9466

1y↑6

One of the best songs of cavetown in my opinion

@nishtharai4521

2y↑3

This is the most creative music video I have seen. Congratulations on making it so beautiful. Congratulations on your hard work.

@buhbyela

1y↑3

Omg the amount of work they put into this! amazing

@corallreahfe9132

5y↑5.4K

Your whole existence is so aestheticly pleasing

@macymccoy5225

5y↑21

Agreed

@asteroidkisses4206

5y↑14

ikr

@coffins786

4y↑7

Only Godly yes

@evelina6061

4y↑6

YES

@sadgirlhours9350

4y↑3

I am also a godless bastard

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@fugemup2425

2y↑9

this song randomly popped up on my mix and i was very confused

4 minutes and 37 seconds later i realized that i'm glad it was on my mix

@Kris-up7hz

lol

@flossiebez

2y↑1

this made me sob uncontrollably i love you

@Rain-ie3xm

2y↑4

This Will forever be my favorite song

@noahsu

2y↑5

it comforts me to know that one day ill go back and sing this song with a deep voice too.

@radiclestheepic6950

2y↑6

Such a beautiful song, you've grown so much as a composer/arranger/singer since This Is Home. Thank you for your work, it's inspired me to revisit songwriting, and is helping me express myself better.
edit: fixed spelling.

@ccdraws2759

5y↑1.7K

Hug all your friends comes out

Me: cries to it

Home comes out later

Me: IM NOT READY!!!

@shoesinmysoup

5y↑6

yes omg

@birogdaniella3296

5y↑7

All of u S WERE NOT READY

Edit: EVEN MY FRIEND WHO'S EARLY AT HIS UPDATES IS NOT READY 😂😂✌

@leyuhfariola8789

5y↑2

Yes, I feel you

@parkeranderson23

5y↑4

how does one like a comment more than 1 time?

@okolol

37w↑2

those little imperfections are... perfect!

@meowrached

2y↑1

this is just stunning

@nurzhanamangeldiev6001

2y↑3

Оригинально. Впервые такой клип вижу)

@andrusman100

31w↑1

Its only been four years...how can i be so nostalgic for a time so close to now...a time that when i look back was the worst of my life. Why is that after almost three years of not speaking...this song still makes me see her, clear as day, the one who got away. Sky I know youll never read this but thank you for the fucked up turmoil that was loving you. You made me who i am now, and i especially have to thank you for the music you shared over those years, even if i was never able to call you my dear, you will always be dear to me for what you showed me. Thank you Cavetown for this time capsule of a song.

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