Everytime
Ceekay Jones Lyrics

The lyrics to Ceekay Jones's song Everytime tell a story of a person grappling with their past and the consequences of their actions. The chorus starts off with the startling admission, "I killed a man, spoiler just like me." The singer then recounts how they put the gun in their hand and pulled the trigger. They describe the haunting image of the victim's look in his eye and how it remains etched in their mind. The most poignant line of the chorus is "When I look at myself, I see him every time," which suggests that the singer can't escape the memory of the person they killed, as it's now a part of their identity.

In the following verse, the singer introduces the idea that they've made mistakes in their life, seen their fortune blown away but have managed to pick themselves up and keep working. However, they're haunted by the demons from their past that keep lurking in the background, threatening to derail their progress. They express frustration with their inner demons, which they personify as an antagonist that they need to eradicate completely for them to move on. The verse concludes with a tense stand-off between the singer and their demons, with the understanding that only one can emerge victorious.

The final verse seems to be directed at someone close to the singer. They express their exhaustion with the relationship, explaining how tired they are of being lied to and the constant cycle of building and tearing each other down. The singer suggests that they have a similar, self-destructive pattern concerning addiction, which makes it impossible for their situations to coexist peacefully. In the final lines, the singer is holding a smoking gun, seemingly having defeated the "monster" on the other side finally.

Overall, "Everytime" seems to be a meditation on guilt, memory, and the struggle for redemption. The singer recognizes their past and regrets the loss of life that they caused but is working toward a better future that doesn't include the specter of that past.