In 2003, Klayton independently released the self-titled debut Celldweller album, and reached 17 on the Billboard Internet Sales Chart. The album garnered Top 40 Metal Radio charting, and the track “I Believe You” reached 11 on the R&R Alternative Specialty Show Chart. The debut album also received 7 awards at the 2004 Just Plain Folks Music Awards, including: Producer of the Year and Album of the Year. Guest appearances included Jarrod Montague of Taproot and mixes by Ben Grosse and Grant Mohrman.
During Summer ‘06, Klayton co-wrote and performed the Theme Song to long-time friend Criss Angel’s A&E Television Show Mindfreak, co-produced the Mindfreak CD Soundtrack, created a remix to, co-starred in a music video for the theme song, and also made a cameo appearance on a Mindfreak episode. Incidently, Criss Angel was the one to dub Scott "Klay" because of his ability to shape sound as a sculptor molds clay.
Klayton’s fierce electronic programming & production skills have captured the minds of the electronic music world as seen in the full page feature of the February ‘06 edition of Keyboard Magazine and a recent appearance for Apple Computer’s Logic Pro audio software at Remix Hotel LA. Klayton has also received special attention from EQ Magazine & Keyboard Magazine as co-sponsors of the Celldweller Remix Competition v2.0 - Take It & Break It. The Take It and Break It competition is still on going, with voting on round 3 scheduled to end on Feb. 13th. CDs with the finalist and winning mixes are currently available (see information below).
Klayton has also captured the interest of the Film/TV industry after having licensed every track from the Debut Celldweller album. Credits include: “Spider-man 3 ”, “Doom”, “Mr. and Mrs. Smith”, and many other notables. Though his new album has yet to be released, he had already licensed "Birthright", the first single for that album, to Warner Brothers for usage in the Speedracer original trailer, www.speedracerthemovie.com. Birthright is currently available for free download from the Fixt Music Store, store.fixtmusic.com .
The Celldweller live show is a fusion of performance art, rave culture, and the raw energy of a rock show, entirely synchronized to projected video. Brought to life by members Klayton (Vocals, Guitars, Keyboards, Percussion, Eyris, Programming), Dale Van Norman (Electric Guitar, Acoustic Guitar, Keyboards, Percussion, Backing Vocals), Kem (Bass, Guitars, Keyboards, Percussion, Backing Vocals) and Cais (Acoustic & Electronic Drums and Percussion) the show is driven by multi-instrumental performances, including mass percussion ensembles with the incorporation of trance/electronic elements.
Klayton is currently preparing the next Celldweller release, which promises to be another effort towards breaking stereotypical genre boundaries. The new album will feature a cover version of the Bee Gee’s hit “Tragedy” along with new tracks “Louder Than Words,” “Blackstar,” “The Lucky One,” and “So Long Sentiment.” With each track, Klayton continues to redefine the Celldweller vision, while maintaining his signature sound. The album was slated for a 2008 release.
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Fear
Celldweller Lyrics
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I feel no release - I wanna' find my peace of mind
...(Can you forgive?)
[Chorus]
My fear, my fear (Ah, come on)
It's holding me stillborn (Ah, ah)
My fear, my fear (Come on, come on)
...Don't fear (Don't fear) (repeat x4)
...*(Gotta' get rid of the pain) (?- best guess)
You stole the innocence,
From a child to be no more
Blinded by the silence,
Afraid to ever speak a word
...(Can you forgive?)
[Chorus (alt)] (line 1 ends "(Come on, x2)")
...Don't fear (Don't fear) (repeat x3)
...(Ah, ah) Don't... Fear...
...*(Gotta' get rid of the pain)
...Fear ...*(Gotta' get rid of the pain)
[Bridge]
Thinking on the times of my demise,
And I wish it wasn't me they victimized
And I don't know - Really can't see,
How I really couldn't kill,
The mother fu*'r that violated me
[Chorus (alt)] / [Bridge (alt)]:
-(lines 2 & 5 ends "(Don't fear)")-
Thinking on the times of my demise ...(Don't you)
And I wish it wasn't me they victimized ...(Fear)
And I don't know - Really can't see,
How I really couldn't kill...
...*(I've run out of fear) (?- best guess)
The lyrics to Celldweller's "Fear" delve into the dark, painful experiences of an individual who struggles to move on from a past trauma. The opening line "I live in the past - I can't move on beyond the pain" sets the tone for the entire song, as the singer expresses their inability to let go of their past and find peace. The lines "You stole the innocence, from a child to be no more" and "Blinded by the silence, afraid to ever speak a word" reveal that the trauma was likely caused by abuse, and the singer is left to grapple with the aftermath.
Despite their feelings of fear and pain, the singer seems to be searching for a way to let go of their past and overcome their hardships. The repeated cry of "Don't fear" in the chorus serves as a mantra, encouraging themselves to move past their fears and work towards finding inner peace. The bridge takes a darker turn, with the singer wishing they could have taken justice into their own hands and "killed the motherfu**er that violated me". However, the final line of the song "I've run out of fear" suggests that the singer has finally found the strength to move on from their trauma and face the future with courage.
Line by Line Meaning
I live in the past - I can't move on beyond the pain
The singer is stuck in their past suffering and cannot move past their pain.
I feel no release - I wanna' find my peace of mind
The singer cannot find any source of comfort or relief from their pain, and desperately seeks peace of mind.
...(Can you forgive?)
The singer may be asking for forgiveness from someone for something, which could be connected to their pain.
My fear, my fear (Ah, come on)
The artist's fear is so intense that it feels like it's a part of them, and they may be trying to motivate themselves to overcome it.
It's holding me stillborn (Ah, ah)
The artist's fear has paralyzed them and their progress in life.
My fear, my fear (Come on, come on)
The singer's fear is unshakeable, and they may be trying to push themselves to confront it.
I'll never fear again
The singer is determined to overcome their fear.
...Don't fear (Don't fear) (repeat x4)
The artist may be trying to reassure themselves and others to not give into fear.
...*(Gotta' get rid of the pain) (?- best guess)
The artist may be acknowledging that they need to let go of their pain in order to overcome their fear.
You stole the innocence,
The artist had their innocence taken from them.
From a child to be no more
The experience robbed the singer's childhood and forced them to grow up faster than they should have.
Blinded by the silence,
The artist felt a pressure to remain quiet about what happened to them.
Afraid to ever speak a word
The singer felt too afraid to speak about their experience, and may still struggle with it.
Thinking on the times of my demise,
The singer is contemplating their own death, possibly due to their pain and fear.
And I wish it wasn't me they victimized
The singer wishes they were not subjected to the pain they experienced.
And I don't know - Really can't see,
The artist is struggling to see a future without their pain and fear.
How I really couldn't kill,
The artist wonders why they were not able to physically or emotionally overcome their abuser.
The mother fu*'r that violated me
The singer is expressing their anger and hatred towards their abuser, using an expletive.
Thinking on the times of my demise ...(Don't you)
Similar to before, the singer is contemplating their own death.
And I wish it wasn't me they victimized ...(Fear)
The artist again wishes they were not subject to the pain they endured.
Fear
The artist is repeating this word, emphasizing the overwhelming nature of their fear.
...*(Gotta' get rid of the pain)
The artist may be reaffirming their need to get rid of their pain.
...Fear ...*(Gotta' get rid of the pain)
The singer repeats the need to overcome their fear and pain.
(lines 2 & 5 ends "(Don't fear)")-
The artist is emphasizing again to not give in to fear.
...*(I've run out of fear) (?- best guess)
The singer may have finally overcome their fear, and this is their way of expressing that.
Contributed by Landon T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@zsyrinx
This song is from the collaboration of Criss Angel and Klayton (Celldweller). Originally the collaboration project was called Angeldust. The name got lost somewhere in there, but Klayton was still credited.
@jaredwayne8594
I loved this ever since the days when it was new. I love how it blurs the lines of various genres of music. Always have heard a heavy 'Prince' influence in the vocals of this song :]
@subconsciousdomain
Thank you. Because looking up 'angeldust' didnt help me at all. This got me what I wanted :3 Thank you for the accurate information.
@vValeNtine708
I love how they use reversed sounds in the background... Amazing
@BigDoener
I heard this song a few times on Criss Angel's Mindfreak and it's really beautiful
@MsNocturnal20
i love this song
@yohnazo
Oh yeah, I remember now, this was co-produced with Celldweller and Angel dust, was it called angel dust because of circle of dust and criss Angel?
@jaycoop85
Amazing track
@IceIsQuiet
The Songtext is just the reality and awesome :)
@tarquinbiscuitbarrel
love this tune