BECAUSE OF YOU
Chamillionaire/R. Kelly Lyrics

I will not make
I refuse to repeat your mistakes

The same mistakes that you did
I will not follow your path of failure and pain

I will not let myself
I am determined to avoid the anguish you caused me

Cause my heart so much misery
I will not allow my emotions to be manipulated or crushed

I will not break
I will remain unbroken and strong

The way you did, you fell so hard
I will not succumb to your weakness and fall apart

I've learned the hard way
I have suffered and grown from my past experiences

To never let it get that far
To prevent myself from experiencing such pain again

Because of you
As a result of your actions

I never stray too far from the sidewalk
I am cautious and avoid taking risks

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I take precautions to avoid emotional pain and harm

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
I struggle to trust those close to me due to your actions

I am afraid
I feel vulnerable and scared

I lose my way
I become lost and unsure of myself

And it's not too long before you point it out
You are always quick to criticize and judge me

I cannot cry
I am not allowed to express my emotions openly

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
You view crying as a sign of weakness

I'm forced to fake
I pretend to be happy and content despite my inner turmoil

A smile, a laugh every day of my life
I wear a facade in order to avoid conflict and tension

My heart can't possibly break
My heart cannot be broken any more than it already has

When it wasn't even whole to start with
My heart has been scarred and damaged since childhood

I watched you die (I watched you die, in your sleep)
I witnessed your downfall and demise

I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I listened to your pain and suffering without being able to help

I was so young
I was too immature and inexperienced to handle such situations

You should have known (I was too young for you to lean on me)
You should not have burdened me with your problems at such a young age

Better than to lean on me
You should have sought help elsewhere

You never thought of anyone else (you never saw me, yeah)
You were selfish and did not consider my feelings

You just saw your pain
You were consumed by your own suffering

And now I cry in the middle of the night
I am haunted by your pain and my own

For the same damn thing
I suffer from the same wounds and issues as you

I try my hardest just to forget everything
I attempt to move on and forget the past

Because it's empty
My life feels meaningless and unfulfilled

I'm ashamed of my life
I feel embarrassed and disappointed by the way my life has turned out