So Far Away
Charli XCX Lyrics

Give me the poison
I want to indulge in something harmful or toxic, even if it's not good for me.

I love the poison
I'm addicted to the dangerous but alluring thing I'm indulging in.

Hooked on the poison
I can't stop consuming the thing that's harmful or toxic, even if it hurts me.

I can't believe all those things that you said
I'm shocked by the hurtful and manipulative things you've said to me.

You broke my heart and you fucked with my head again
Your actions have both emotionally hurt me and made me feel confused and uncertain.

So I run (so long ago and so far away)
I'm trying to escape your negative influence and the pain you've caused me by moving on from the relationship.

You are the poison, I'll drink the poison
You, as a person, are dangerous and toxic to me, and yet I keep letting you in.

Get out my head, get out my bed
I want to stop thinking about you and move on from our relationship physically and emotionally.

I don't believe those three words that you said
I no longer trust the affectionate words you said to me since I know you've been hurtful and manipulative.

Pocket of lies, crystal blue eyes
You've been keeping secrets from me and hiding behind a facade, like your bright blue eyes that distract from your true intentions.

Hit the ground hard when I'm dropped from the skies
I feel like I've been dropped from a great height and hit rock bottom after being deceived by you.

You're coming up when I'm going down
You seem to be flourishing while I'm struggling and suffering from the aftermath of our relationship.

Never in sync so we just sink and drown
Our relationship was never in harmony, and as a result, it ended up sinking and drowning both of us.

Press restart and reboot my heart
I want to start fresh and heal my emotional wounds after this toxic relationship.

But I'm not a robot so I fell apart
Despite my attempts to move on and be strong, I still have emotions and can suffer from heartbreak.

Before the moment that we met we were chatting on the Internet
We initially connected over the internet and had conversations before meeting in person.

Getting kinda close through the posts that we were looking at
We built a sense of closeness and intimacy through the things we shared and the posts we liked on the internet.

I was pretty confident, you were pretty into that
I felt good about myself and thought you were attracted to me during our online interactions.

I linked you to my music just to see if you'd be into it
I shared my personal interests with you as a way to see if we had similar taste and could connect further.

So fuck the prologue, read the Internet blogs
Don't focus on how we met or our initial interactions, look at what we've been doing more recently and how it's affected us.

"Gonna love this star and it came from the clubs."
People are going to love this rising star, who originally emerged from the club scene.

I wasn't looking for a fuck, I was looking for a bad boy
I wasn't just seeking a physical fling, I was looking for a rebellious and exciting partner.

Bad boy, motherfucker, destroy
I was drawn to your edgy and dangerous persona, even if it ultimately caused harm and destruction in our relationship.

Now I know for sure that we've got to end this
I'm positive that our relationship needs to come to an end.

You don't get no last kiss
Our break-up is final and there won't be any more physical or emotional intimacy between us.

'Cause you're so damn crazy
Your erratic behaviour has convinced me that I need to get away from you.

And I'm so damn helpless
I feel powerless to change my situation or make things better between us.

So don't text my number
I don't want to receive any more messages or communication from you.

And don't call my mother
I don't want you to reach out to anyone in my life or try to reconnect with me through other means.

I can't see your face now
I'm putting distance between us and don't want to interact with you or see you again.

'Cause this is over
Our relationship is completely finished, with no hope of reconciliation.