So I
Charli XCX Lyrics
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Your star burns so bright (why did I push you away?)
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage, sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry
Wish I tried to pull you closer
You pushed me hard, made me focus
Your words, brutal, loving, truthful
I was petrified
You're a hero and a human
Track was done, I'd make excuses
You'd say, "Come on, stay for dinner"
I'd say, "No, I'm fine" (now I really wish I'd stayed)
Always on my mind (every day, every night)
Your star burns so bright (why did I push you away?)
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage, sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry
Guilty feelings keep me fractured
Got a phone call after Christmas
Didn't know how I should act
I watched you dance online
Your sounds, your words live on, endless
When I make songs, I remember
Things you'd suggest, "Make it faster"Would you like this one? (Maybe just a little bit?)
Always on my mind (every day, every night)
Your star burns so bright (why did I push you away?)
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage, sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry
The lyrics of Charli XCX's song "So I" delve into themes of regret, guilt, and the complicated emotions surrounding a lost relationship. The singer reflects on someone who was always on their mind, whose presence felt powerful and bright like a star. The lyrics express remorse for pushing this person away, despite the fear and vulnerability that came with their connection, likening their influence to a striking force like lightning.
The singer acknowledges their tendencies to put up a facade, pretending to enjoy performing songs that were left behind by the person they are addressing. This facade contrasts with the honesty and emotional depth that the individual brought into the singer's life, encouraging them to embrace vulnerability and express their true emotions, even if it means allowing themselves to cry.
The lyrics highlight a sense of missed opportunities and longing for closeness that was neglected in the past. The regret of not trying harder to bring this person closer is palpable, as the singer recalls moments of intimacy and care that were overlooked or dismissed. The person is described as a mix of heroism and humanness, their influence lingering in the singer's creative process and choices.
The final verse touches on the aftermath of the person’s absence, with the singer grappling with feelings of guilt and fragmentation. The mention of a phone call after Christmas suggests a moment of reckoning or realization of the finality of the relationship. Despite the physical separation, the person's essence continues to inspire and influence the singer, their presence felt in the music and memories shared. The lyrics capture a poignant blend of sorrow, nostalgia, and the enduring impact of someone who once held a significant place in the singer's life.
Line by Line Meaning
Always on my mind (every day, every night)
You are constantly in my thoughts, day and night.
Your star burns so bright (why did I push you away?)
You had so much potential and talent, why did I distance myself from you?
I was scared sometimes
I was afraid of facing my true feelings.
You had a power like a lightning strike
Your impact on me was strong and sudden.
When I'm on stage, sometimes I lie
Sometimes I pretend to enjoy performing the songs you wrote.
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
I say I love performing your songs, even if it's not entirely true.
And I know you always said, 'It's okay to cry'
I remember your comforting words, allowing me the freedom to express my emotions.
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry
I allow myself to feel and release my emotions by crying.
Wish I tried to pull you closer
I regret not making more effort to connect with you.
You pushed me hard, made me focus
You motivated me and helped me stay determined in my endeavors.
Your words, brutal, loving, truthful
Your words were harsh at times, but always came from a place of love and honesty.
I was petrified
I was terrified of losing you or facing the truth.
You're a hero and a human
You were both admirable and imperfect, like all of us.
Track was done, I'd make excuses
I would find reasons to avoid facing the reality of the situation.
You'd say, 'Come on, stay for dinner'
You would extend invitations for us to spend more time together.
I'd say, 'No, I'm fine' (now I really wish I'd stayed)
I declined your offers, but now I regret not accepting and staying with you.
Guilty feelings keep me fractured
I feel guilty and conflicted, causing inner turmoil.
Got a phone call after Christmas
I received a call from you after the holiday season.
Didn't know how I should act
I was unsure of how to respond or behave in that situation.
I watched you dance online
I observed you dancing through videos or social media.
Your sounds, your words live on, endless
Your music and words continue to have a lasting impact and remain timeless.
When I make songs, I remember
I recall our time together and the influence you had on my music creation process.
Things you'd suggest, 'Make it faster'
I remember your feedback and suggestions to improve my work, such as to increase the pace.
Would you like this one? (Maybe just a little bit?)
I wonder if you would approve of my latest creation, even if just a little bit.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Jonathan Christopher Shave, Charlotte Emma Aitchison, Finn Keane
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[Verse 1]
Now I wanna think about all the good times
First met on the outskirts of Stockholm
All of your things in a black suitcase
First day, made Vroom Vroom in the basement
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Head bop hard with your arm up, dancing
Hot pink jacket on, music turned up
Bounce that track, make us late to the party
Now I wanna think about all the good times
First time I ever felt alive on stage
In Texas, in matching latex
That's as cool as I'm ever gonna feel
[Interlude]
(Beautiful)
[Verse 2]
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Me and A.G. on Mulholland
Crazy Uber, straight from a video shoot
Got birthday cake on the way
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Best night ever in Arcosanti
So many friends right there in the audience
When I look back, what the fuck was I wearing?
Now I wanna think about all the good times
One big smile cracked the whole world open
Sipping green juice, looking so chic
Soft response while you play with the tension
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Like when we took Bibi down to Bubbles
Took our shoes off, ran around barefoot
Played that song we made that day
Now I wanna think about all the good times
DJ set back to back with Twiggy
She was nervous, you were so nice
Said you had the best time with her
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Me and Noonie cried to your songs
No songs ever made us feel that much
Can't explain 'cause it's just too much
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Talking on Zoom in 2020
Red hair brushed out, sat back home
Lyrics back and forth from texts
Now I wanna think about all the good times
Like the first time I heard your music
My ex-boyfriend played your SoundCloud
That moment really changed my life
[Bridge]
(No, no, no)
(No, no, no-o-o-o)
(No, no, no)
(No, no, no-o-o-o)
(No, no, no, no)
Now I wanna think about all the good times (No, no, no, no)
(No, no, no, no)
Now I wanna think about all the good times (No, no, no, no)
(No, no, no)
(No, no, no-o-o-o)
(No, no, no)
(No, no, no-o-o-o)
(No, no, no, no)
(No, no, no, no)
(No, no, no, no)
(No, no, no, no)
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
[Outro]
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna think about all the good
Now I wanna
Now I wanna
Now I wanna
Now I wanna
@adymuneven
when i die, i want someone to love me this much
@jorb1903
That’s beautiful. Same
@v0519
I'm pretty sure you will! And alive as well!!
@EljohnMacaranas
Hands down a strong tribute to SOPHIE, the reverse of the last one which was about "what could be" and now talking about "what was" and the joys she had with her. 😭
@isabellarabello5245
grief works in various forms. both tributes are beautiful and honest.
@softcoreluvr
it is truly a bittersweet full circle moment
@miiinotaur
literally so(ph)i(e)
@v0519
I've been thinking of it, I think this one's even sadder. Because at least myself, even if it makes me happy to remember, the fact that the person with whom the memories were created is no longer around, I don't know, it shatters me.
@Wazzappppp
Sophie is amazing 😊
@mariosixto5391
The intro it's giving party 4 u 🥹