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Chase Lyrics

I can’t save you
I am unable to rescue you.

But I wish that I could
Although I can't save you, I truly wish I could.

Like a man really should
I wish I could save you and protect you like a true man should.

Sustain you
I wish I could provide you with the support you need to carry on.

You’ll be misunderstood
I know that people will fail to understand you.

Won’t fit in but different is good
You might not fit in with everyone else, but being different is okay.

Yeah I gotta be grateful
I feel grateful for the time we've had together.

I been up all night
I've been awake throughout the whole night.

Scrolling through videos of you
I spend my time watching videos of you.

It is so difficult to view
It's hard for me to watch those videos.

No telling what it really did to you
I can't imagine what those videos must have done to you.

And I lost the fight
I failed to protect you from whatever caused you pain.

The tears won the years run
I can only cry and watch time go by.

I’m right here son I fear some
I am here for you, but I am afraid for you too.

Will not comprehend
Some people will never understand your struggles.

What it’s like to be you they see you
People can see you, but they will never truly know what it's like to be in your shoes.

But you’re so lost in yourself you cannot let them in
You are so consumed with your own struggles that you cannot let others help you.

Faded but I didn’t see it
I did not realize how much you were struggling until it was too late.

Your name I would say it repeat it
I say your name over and over again because I miss you.

Like show me your eyes and I hope you respond
I will do anything to get a reaction from you and see your eyes light up.

In due time or look up in agreement
I am waiting for the day when you can respond to me and agree with me.

But being the youngest
Because you are the youngest, you sometimes did not get as much attention as your sisters.

Sometimes your sisters took most the attention
Your sisters would get the spotlight most of the time.

What if I never stopped holding you close in my arms
If I had held you more, would you still be here with me?

Would you not of gone ghost I’m conflicted
I don't know if things would be different if I had held you closer.

I grieve what I don’t comprehend
I am grieving over something that I can never fully understand.

Miss the things that could’ve been
I miss all the experiences we could have had together.

Believing that when it’s the end
I believe that when you are gone, you will finally be at peace.

Your mind will be sound and then fully restored
I believe that your mind will finally be fixed and restored.

And we’ll feel with perfection amen until then
Until then, we will cherish the memories we had together.

And I don’t want to see no symptoms
I don't want to see any signs that you are struggling.

I don’t want to see no label
I don't want anyone to label you as anything other than my son.

I just want to see my son
All I want is to see you and spend time with you.

I don’t want to see disabled
I don't want to see you as disabled, I just want to see you as you are.

I don’t even know how to pray
I don't know how to ask for your healing.

If I ask God to fix you
If I pray for God to heal you, what does that say about how I view you?

What does that really say
What message does my prayer send to God and to you?

That I think that you’re broken
Will my prayer make you feel like I think you are damaged or broken?

I think you’re a problem
Will my prayer make you feel like I think you are a burden or a problem?

But no that is never the case
I don't think of you that way at all.

Sometimes I’m stopping mid sentence convicted
I sometimes catch myself saying something insensitive and feel guilty about it immediately.

To say God I give you the praise
Instead of asking for your healing, I will just give thanks to God for the time we had together.

Fix the way I see
I pray that God will change the way I view you and your struggles.

Fix the way I think
I pray that God will change the way I think about your disability.

He should play with me
I pray that God will help me have more fun and cherish our time together.

Everything in me
Every part of me believes in your strength and potential.

Let the pain decrease
I pray that you will feel less pain and be more at peace.

Let me take my seat
I pray that I can accept your disability and learn from it.

And learn from him
I hope to learn from you and your unique perspective on life.

Instead of thinking I should turn him into a child like the rest now I am a mess
Instead of trying to change you, I now feel like a mess because I realize how much I've been missing out on by not fully accepting you.

Down into a depth further in
I am going deeper into my emotions and accepting your disability.

Cus’ this is where I love with no restraint
At this moment, I am loving you without any restrictions or limitations.

This is where I serve with no condition or complaint
I want to serve and love you unconditionally, with no complaints.

This is where I’m not obsessed with typical responses
I am not concerned with typical societal responses or expectations of your disability.

You’re more than good the way you are
You are more than just good, you are amazing just the way you are.

My miracle my promise
You are my miracle and my promise, and I want to cherish and honor that.