Use Me
Chezere Lyrics

Lately I've been going through more bullshit, than a bull fighter
Recently, I've been dealing with an excessive amount of negative experiences that are causing me turmoil.

So when I say my praises to God, one verse is like a full choir
When I give thanks to God, it feels like an entire choir is singing with me.

My every thought is pain, strain and stressing me to death
I'm constantly consumed by painful, stressful thoughts that are crushing me.

Everyday is like a rehearsal, that's prepping me for death
Each day is like a practice run that is preparing me for death.

I think I'm ready, because this world ain't no friend of mine
I feel prepared to face death since this world hasn't been kind to me.

Only thing I qualify for, is murder and Penitentiary time
I feel like I'm only destined to end up in jail or dead due to my circumstances.

Y'all should of shot me, in the jimmy instead
It would have been better if I had died rather than being alive in this situation.

But I guess they was feeling eachother, to get head in the bed
Perhaps the people who should have shot me were too busy in bed with each other to bother.

Here I am, first born torn between heaven and hell
As the first born, I feel conflicted between doing good (heaven) and doing bad (hell).

I tell my people no to dope, but I let it sell
I try to discourage drug use to those around me, but I also sell drugs to make a living.

Need to practice my preaching, calling the kettle black
I need to start following my own advice and stop being hypocritical.

I know I'm on pot before or not, I gotta peddle crack
I know it's wrong, but I have to keep selling crack to make ends meet.

Ain't nobody got my back, except the laws when they on it
No one supports me except for the authorities that are trying to put me in jail.

So I be going for broke, demolishing my opponents
I take risks and go all out to defeat my adversaries.

Leaving no traces just blood on faces, believe that
I'm willing to go to extremes and leave no evidence behind to get what I want.

Hk I'ma squeeze that, you won't even want be back
I'm not afraid to use my gun to eliminate any threat, and you won't want to come back after facing me.

I got through so much, so I try to stay f****d up
I've dealt with a lot in my life, so I try to stay high to cope with it all.

Because, when I'm sober I can't maintain
When I'm not high, I can't handle my emotions and stress.

Even though I do my best, the only thing I earn is stress
Despite my efforts, all I ever seem to get is more stress.

So I spend most of my days chilling with Mary Jane
I spend most of my time smoking weed to relax.

I can't focus, I'm losing my mind real fast
I can't concentrate and feel like I'm losing my sanity.

Dreaming and fiending for the day, I could make some real cash
I daydream about being wealthy and having real money.

Dropping album after album, platinum song after song
Despite my success in the music industry, I still feel unfulfilled.

But it's like I ain't did nothing, cause the lights ain't on
Despite all my achievements, I still feel unrecognized and unappreciated.

How can I win, it's like everything I do is a motherfucking sin
I feel like no matter what I do, it's always wrong and gets me in trouble.

It got a n***a, fiending to see my end
I feel like people are waiting for me to fail and die.

All of my friends are fake, they come around when I'm spending cash
My friends are only interested in me when I have money to spend.

But when I'm broke they out the do', with wheels spinning fast
As soon as I'm broke, my friends abandon me and leave quickly.

Lonely, daily dodging the devil but he on me
I'm constantly trying to avoid negativity and bad influences, but they always find me.

Telling my people f**k him, cause he be working through my homies
I try to tell my peers to avoid the bad influences, but they still fall victim to them.