DADDY'S SONG
Childs Toni Lyrics

While you're standing there
As you are physically present here, I am lost in my thoughts.

I'm standing in a field
Mentally, I am in a peaceful place far away from the current situation.

In my mind
The field I am picturing is a creation of my imagination.

You can't take that away from me
Even though you may not understand my thoughts and feelings, no one can take my inner world away from me.

Daddy comes to me
Despite the emotional distance between us, thoughts of my father still find their way into my mind.

In darkness not in light
My memories of my father are not all positive; they are mixed with negative emotions as well.

Why I gave you all my love
I put all my trust and love in my father, hoping that he would reciprocate.

And you showed no mercy
However, he was not kind in return, causing pain and disappointment.

You tried to pin me down
You attempted to control my emotions and thoughts.

With emotion feeling things
You wanted a specific reaction from me that I was not able to give.

A butterfly display
My emotions are fragile and delicate, like a butterfly, and cannot be forced out into display.

A symbol fall from grace
The breaking of the butterfly symbolizes a loss of innocence.

I'm closing down my heart
To protect myself from further pain, I am shutting myself off from others.

I'm putting up the wall
This emotional barrier will guard my heart from further hurt.

Here I sit
Right now, I find myself in a certain emotional state.

Looking to the light
I seek hope and positivity amidst the darkness of my thoughts.

In my head
The light is an ideal and still only exists in my imagination, not in reality.

I have the peace of mind
Despite the turmoil in my thoughts, I have the mental ability to maintain inner peace.

I've lost tonight
Tonight, I am losing control over my emotions.

There are flowers here
The ideal world that I imagine is full of natural beauty and wonder.

And hills and horses too
It is a world where I can freely explore and enjoy nature's creations.

I ride in my dreams
In my imaginative world, I have the freedom to ride horses and be free.

And I'm afraid I'll have to go back
However, I know that eventually I will have to return to reality and face my inner conflicts.

Go back to the night
Return to my dark thoughts and memories.

Daddy holds me tight
In my troubled memories, my father is there- but not in a positive way, as this embrace does not bring comfort or reassurance.

I'm losing my mind
My emotional turmoil is causing me to mentally unravel.

I'm losing my head
My thoughts and emotions are so overwhelming that my logical mind cannot withstand the weight of them.

Someone help me now
I am reaching out for help and support from anyone.

I just want to know now
My desire to understand my emotions and my past has become an urgent need.

What it is to survive
I want to understand how to overcome life's difficulties.

Daddy's song and daddy's lies
I want to know the truth behind my father's actions and lies, and how they have affected my life.

I've gotta know (repeat)
This sense of urgency repeats my need to find answers.

What it means to survive
I not only want to know how to overcome difficulties, but also to find meaning and purpose in my life.

And to live out daddy's lies
I need to find a way to move on from my father's harmful actions and to create a better life for myself.

I've got to live (repeat)
I am determined to live my life positively, despite the negative experiences I have faced.