Father's Day
Chino XL Lyrics

Question, why're we on the fourth floor?
The singer is confused about why they're on the fourth floor and asks his wife's mother, but they aren't sure.

This is where the doctor said that we should go
They are at the hospital because the doctor recommended it.

Holding my child, she's 10 months old
The singer is holding his daughter who is 10 months old.

The hospital was so cold
The hospital was uncomfortably cold.

Definitely ruining all of our holiday plans of beach sands
Their hospital visit has disrupted their plans for a holiday at the beach.

Filling out some bland paperwork with shaky hands (lost)
The singer is filling out paperwork, but their hands are shaky and they are disoriented.

Seeing little children stricken with a certain sickness
The singer is noticing other sick children around them.

Clutch my baby a little tighter reflect of nervous feelings
The artist is holding his daughter tighter because he's anxious and afraid.

A whole hour passed, we starting to lose patience
They have been waiting for a whole hour, and are losing patience.

Humbled by the thoughts of patients lost in this situation (what's going on?)
The artist is humbled by the thought of other patients who may have lost their lives in similar situations.

Here comes a nurse, not knowing that we should fear the worst
A nurse arrives, but the singer isn't sure if that's good or bad news.

Seen the doctor's mouth moving, couldn't even hear the words
The artist is unable to hear what the doctor is saying because he's too anxious.

This isn't happening to you, I'm like Superman
The singer's first reaction is to feel invincible and protect his daughter from anything negative.

I realized what I heard but not prepared for
The singer realizes what the doctor has said, but he's not ready to accept it.

The sentence that the doctor said, 'Your daughter has cancer'
The doctor tells the singer that his daughter has cancer, which is a devastating diagnosis.

I will take my life right now
The artist is willing to sacrifice his own life to save his daughter.

If you would save my child
The artist is willing to do anything to save his daughter.

I'd change my life for her
The singer is willing to make any necessary changes to his life to help his daughter.

This is my solemn vow
The singer is making a promise to do everything he can to save his daughter.

No more chemo in her veins
The artist doesn't want his daughter to undergo any more chemotherapy treatments.

And no more screams of pain (I pray)
The artist hopes that his daughter won't have to suffer anymore.

This is a father's shame
The artist feels terrible and guilty for not being able to protect his daughter.

Okay I got to man up
The singer realizes that he needs to be strong and brave for his daughter.

It hit me so hard, that I could barely stand up (my world stopped)
The news of his daughter's cancer diagnosis is so overwhelming that the artist feels physically weak and helpless.

Then the flowers and balloons and the cards came
People start bringing flowers, balloons, and cards to support the family during this difficult time.

Prayers many hours, knees bruised all in God's name (hurt so much)
Friends and family members are praying for them and the singer mentions that it hurts so much to see his daughter suffer.

Why you?! Why now? It didn't feel fair
The singer is questioning why his daughter had to get cancer, and why it happened to her specifically.

Your grandma shed tears, you lost your hair
The artist's mother is mourning for her granddaughter, and the daughter has lost her hair due to the chemotherapy treatments.

It's unbelievable little Bella was that strong
The artist is amazed at how strong his daughter, Bella, is throughout her ordeal.

And inconceivable we lived in the hospital that long (forever)
It feels like they've been living in the hospital forever and the experience is surreal for the singer.

Protecting your immune system from contaminants
The singer is trying to protect his daughter's immune system from contaminants, which is why she has to wear a medical mask.

You had to wear a medical mask, can't give my kid a kiss (imagine)
The artist can't even give his daughter a kiss because she has to wear a medical mask.

I learned to envision your face growing getting older
The artist is imagining his daughter's future and how she will grow up.

Envisioned you driving your first car and getting your diploma
The artist is imagining his daughter's milestones, like driving her first car and getting her diploma.

Envisioned your wedding, your husband better be a soldier
The singer is imagining his daughter's wedding day and joking that her future husband needs to be strong like a soldier to protect her.

A little girl sick like you died two row's over (Eva)
The artist is distraught to discover that another little girl who was sick like his daughter died in the hospital two rows over.

Chemotherapy made Christmas hard to process
The singer and his family found it difficult to celebrate Christmas while Bella was undergoing chemotherapy.

I fed the family faith, hoping it would make their fears starve to death
The singer tried to help his family through their fears and anxiety by keeping their faith strong.

Your momma's tough, prayed to Saint Jude's that its a bad dream
The singer reminds his daughter that her mother is strong and they are all praying that this is just a bad dream.

But could it be I'm speaking to a doctor and not Epstein (reality)
The artist is facing the harsh reality of talking to a doctor about his daughter's illness, rather than someone like a TV character named Epstein where there's always a happy ending.

I remember the cries, remember the meals fed through tubes
The artist remembers the difficult moments of his daughter's treatment, including when she had to be fed through tubes.

Pulling the red wagon, the sound of the plastic wheels
The singer remembers pulling his daughter's wagon around the hospital and the sound of the plastic wheels on the floor.

Kind of a metaphor for pulling through this ordeal
The singer sees their experience of pulling the wagon as a metaphor for pulling through their ordeal together.

I pray my enemies never even have to know how this feels (hurts)
The artist doesn't wish this experience on anyone, even his enemies, because it's such a painful and difficult ordeal.

But forget our feelings it doesn't matter, you're the one suffering
The artist realizes that his and his family's feelings pale in comparison to what his daughter is going through.

You couldn't speak a lot yet but its like your eyes was saying
Although his daughter couldn't speak much at the time, the artist could tell from her eyes what she was thinking and feeling.

'Daddy, if it's an obstacle, and price I got to pay
The singer imagines his daughter saying that she's willing to face this obstacle and pay the price if it means living a long and great life.

The day of your final surgery, I still live in that moment
The artist remembers the day of his daughter's final surgery clearly and vividly.

The teddy bear you were holding, I still own it
The singer still has the teddy bear that his daughter was holding during her surgery.

I watched the doors closing, February 2, 2004...
The singer remembers the exact date (February 2, 2004) when his daughter's cancer was cured and the doors closing on that chapter of their lives.

My little girl is cured
The singer is overjoyed that his daughter is cured and healthy once again.

Joy x4
The song ends on a positive note with the repeated word 'joy'.