ANTIDOTE
Chloe Ament Lyrics
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Drifting further from familiar shores
And watching life go on
(Without me anymore)
Don't know where I'm going after this
Holding down the fort with safety pins
And waiting for the break
I'm wearing anything
Show up loud then leave without a trace
Pressure keeps the broken glass in place
Shattering in my room
Saving face
(I can't make contact in the dark)
(I'm losing focus, losing heart)
(I wish I had a cure all but)
(I don't, I know)
(There is no antidote)
In Chloe Ament's song Antidote, she describes a feeling of detachment from her past self and her current life. She feels as though she is losing touch with who she was before and drifting further from familiar shores. She watches life go on around her without feeling like she is a part of it anymore. Ament expresses uncertainty about where she is going after this and feels like she is holding down the fort with safety pins, suggesting a feeling of fragile stability. She is waiting for a break, but in the meantime, she wears anything, suggesting a lack of direction or purpose.
In the chorus, Ament describes feeling like she shows up loud but leaves without a trace. She feels pressure, which keeps the broken glass in place, possibly symbolizing her feelings of being held back or stuck. She shatters in her room but saves face, suggesting that she is struggling internally but doesn't want to show it to the world. The repetition of the line "I can't make contact in the dark" highlights her feelings of isolation and being unable to connect with others. She is losing focus and heart, but wishes she had a cure-all to fix her problems. Sadly, she acknowledges that there is no antidote to her struggles.
Overall, Antidote is a poignant reflection on mental health struggles and feeling disconnected from oneself and the world. It speaks to the universality of these experiences and the need for compassion and understanding.
Line by Line Meaning
Losing touch with who I was before
I feel disconnected from my past self and the person I used to be.
Drifting further from familiar shores
I feel like I'm moving away from what I know and am comfortable with.
And watching life go on (Without me anymore)
I feel like life is moving forward without me, and I'm left behind.
Don't know where I'm going after this
I feel lost and uncertain about what comes next in my life.
Holding down the fort with safety pins
I feel like I'm trying to keep everything together with makeshift solutions.
And waiting for the break
I'm hoping for a chance to catch my breath and make sense of things.
I'm wearing anything
I feel like I'm just going through the motions and not really living my life.
Show up loud then leave without a trace
I feel like I'm making noise and trying to make an impact, but it doesn't last.
Pressure keeps the broken glass in place
I feel like I'm holding myself together under a lot of stress and pressure.
Shattering in my room
I feel like I'm breaking down, but it's happening in private.
Saving face
I'm trying to maintain a facade of everything being OK even though it's not.
(I can't make contact in the dark)
I feel like I'm alone and in the dark, and I can't reach out to anyone for help.
(I'm losing focus, losing heart)
I feel like I'm losing my motivation and my sense of purpose.
(I wish I had a cure all but)
I want a solution to my problems that will fix everything, but I know it's not that simple.
(I don't, I know)
I'm aware that there's no easy answer to my problems.
(There is no antidote)
I know that there's no magic cure or solution to my problems, and I have to deal with them myself.
Contributed by Gabriella P. Suggest a correction in the comments below.