They also became known for Satanic imagery and numerous references to the vagrant lifestyle, such as crack-smoking, shoplifting, and squatting. They also, like many other bands in the punk scene, have violent anti-police sentiments in their songs. The band prides itself on its Atheist stance, often making sardonic references to Satan, for the sole purpose of being offensive.
Choking Victim broke up after the first day of recording for their one and only album, but the recordings from that one day were enough to make a solid album. After they broke up, Stza and Ezra Crack formed the band Leftöver Crack, and Skwert and Ezra formed INDK. Sascha has spent the last several years organically farming in upstate NY.
Fucked Reality
Choking Victim Lyrics
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It's so religious in it's loss
A graven image in the mud
Like when I shed my precious blood.
[Chorus: ]
I am a loser
I am Satan
I'm me.
[Repeat: 2X]
There are no winners in this fucked reality.
Atrophic interludes weave through my life, far too often
For me to fight the biggest enemies
I have no feelings, like love or pain, it makes me go insane
When I see what's happening to me, I say:
[Chorus: ]
There are no idols, no heroes, in a world of death
It's all a joke and so are you
And so am I
Think just look and see
[Repeat: 4x]
It's a fucked reality.
The lyrics to Choking Victim's song "Fucked Reality" paint a bleak picture of a world devoid of hope or heroes. The opening lines, "It feels like Jesus on the cross, It's so religious in its loss," introduce a religious motif that recurs throughout the song. The singer feels like he is suffering like Jesus on the cross, but there is no redemption or salvation to be found. The image of a "graven image in the mud" suggests the futility of any effort to find meaning or purpose in a world that seems irredeemably corrupt.
In the chorus, the singer takes on different identities - a loser, Satan, Jesus Christ - but ultimately asserts that he is just himself. This self-assertion in the face of a meaningless world underscores the ethos of punk rock, a genre that Choking Victim is associated with. The lyric "There are no winners in this fucked reality" reveals a disillusionment with conventional notions of success or achievement. Instead, the song suggests that survival is the best one can hope for in a world that is fundamentally flawed.
Line by Line Meaning
It feels like Jesus on the cross
The pain and suffering that I am experiencing is similar to what Jesus faced on the cross
It's so religious in it's loss
The sense of loss that I am experiencing is so profound that it feels like a religious experience
A graven image in the mud
The image of myself lying in the mud, broken and defeated, is etched into my mind
Like when I shed my precious blood
The physical pain that I am feeling is causing me to shed my own blood, which feels precious to me
I am a loser
I feel like a complete failure and have no sense of self-worth
I am Satan
I am consumed by negative thoughts and feelings that make me feel like the embodiment of evil
I am Jesus Christ
I feel like I am carrying the weight of the world's suffering, just like Jesus did
I'm me.
Ultimately, I am just myself, struggling to make sense of my place in this world
There are no winners in this fucked reality.
No matter how hard we try, we are all doomed to fail and suffer in this harsh and cruel world
Atrophic interludes weave through my life, far too often
I experience these moments of decay and decline in my life more frequently than I can handle
For me to fight the biggest enemies
I am constantly battling against powerful and overwhelming forces that are beyond my control
I have no feelings, like love or pain, it makes me go insane
My emotional numbness makes it difficult for me to connect with others or experience any sense of joy or pleasure
When I see what's happening to me, I say:
In moments of clarity, I am able to recognize the hopeless nature of my situation
There are no idols, no heroes, in a world of death
The harsh reality of our mortal existence means that there are no true heroes or figures to look up to
It's all a joke and so are you
Life is meaningless and absurd, and anything we do to try to give it meaning is ultimately a joke
Think just look and see
If you take an honest look at the world around you, you will see the bleak and hopeless reality of it all
It's a fucked reality.
Ultimately, this world is cruel, meaningless, and absurd, and there's nothing we can do to change it
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: FRANCOIS S. CHERPITEL, SEAN P. MCARDLE
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luv2scream815
I can't listen to this song and not feel sad. It's such a depressing song, but it makes me feel good when I'm depressed, to know I'm not the only one who feels small and useless. It makes me feel a connection to the artist because knowing someone else has the same emotions and thoughts, it just helps. I don't feel anger to the people who listen to this and don't get the same feelings I do, I feel pity.
lil God nasty
It's funny you posted this comment 6 years ago and hey I've been their and felt that same way
ZabuzaMLH
I listen to this song fairly often and always read your comment and it's a good reminder to not dwell on things as we're not the only ones who are dealing with that situation/emotions
Tristan Reynolds
Hm I'm the opposite of depressed and I still love this song and it makes me feel happy aswell. I suppose it's convenient to me philosophically 😁.
Zachary Horvath
Yeah- I get this sentiment, especially now.... I grew up in NYC and Leftover Crack was the first band I remember seeing live, my buddies and I would go see ‘em at Tompkins square park at cracktober fest in high school.. just don’t take it all TOO seriously-..I’ve lived the life of shooting heroin and living in tents, I know all about bugs, drugs, homelessness, and this fucked reality-there’s really nothing wrong with all that (aside from the possibility of death or going insane with methamphetamine) but it’s not fucking easy-panhandling IS a job, and it fucking sucks lol.
Do something creative or something productive to make the world a bit better-start your own punk band! That’s how I try to deal with the world now, making art.
trevor stevens
grow up.
Knuckle Joe
Come back to this track a lot when life beats me down lower than I thought possible, it always helps put a fight back into me.
smashingpapertigers
Probably my favorite Choking Victim track.
Aaron Behling
Such a great album. Had a chance to see them before they made this album, to bad they broke up right after the album was made. They were a great band and all the responses here show how great they really were.
Magnificoooooo
probably one of the best punk songs in the last 15-20 years