Raised in Connecticut, Pureka is said to have begun writing songs at the age of eight; by 16 they were playing the guitar. Following performances at local coffee houses and open mics, they began opening shows for such artists as Erin McKeown and Pamela Means while completing a degree in biology at Wesleyan University. After graduating, they worked in a microbiology research lab at Smith College in Northampton, eventually leaving to focus on their music full-time. In June 2001, they recorded a self-titled seven-song EP in preparation for a three-month nationwide tour with lesbian folk poet Alix Olson.
In 2004, Pureka released Driving North, their first full-length album, earning rave reviews from fans and fellow artists alike. In 2006, they released Dryland, and toured the US a second time as a headlining act. In May 2007, Pureka was a member of the month-long New American Songwriter Tour in New York City, Philadelphia, and Massachusetts. The tour also featured Krystle Warren, Jesse Harris and Ryan Scott. In July 2007, Pureka's song, "Swann Song" won 1st Place in the Acoustic competition on the independent music site OurStage.com.
In October 2007, Pureka was nominated for 2007's Outstanding Folk Act by the Boston Music Awards. They were also awarded an ASCAPLUS award in the summer of 2007.
Pureka is the founder of their label, Sad Rabbit Music. As well as their own releases, they have lent their vocals and guitar playing to several tracks by artists like Olson and Arjuna Greist; a notable track is "Checking My Pulse" with Olson, which went on to become a relative hit for Olson.
Pureka identifies as genderqueer and cultivates an androgynous appearance. They have received positive reviews in the long-running radical feminist publication off our backs and other magazines. Pureka's music does not deal explicitly with LGBT issues, focusing instead on emotional interactions between individuals.
On January 20, 2009, Pureka released a fourth album, an EP entitled Chimera. In April 2010, Pureka released their fifth album, How I Learned To See In The Dark
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Wrecking Ball
Chris Pureka Lyrics
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That goddamn wrecking ball,
And I waited for the weight to swing around but it never did.
And the crows they fell
Around my eyes and still
No sign of that ball and chain.
I pushed it hard,
What kind of pendulum never comes back home?
You start to miss it some.
The way you miss the rain,
The way you miss the fighting when the war is won...
But what I miss the most is knowing just exactly where it hurts,
Is knowing just exactly what is wrong.
And what I want, and what I want...
I miss the ghost trees,
The weary midnight drives,
The taste of loneliness in the air beyond the towns.
I miss the resonance of those trigger words,
That crazy one track mind.
Sometimes I miss the cold...
But what I miss the most is knowing just exactly where it hurts,
Is knowing just exactly what is wrong.
And what I want, and what I want...
I'm remembering the sunlight coming down in shades of blue,
The sorrow of the aftermath tightening the noose.
I'm thinking of the night that all the lights went out,
And how I learned to see in the dark, in the dark, in the dark...
I pushed it hard, that goddamn wrecking ball.
What kind of pendulum never comes back home?
The lyrics of Chris Pureka's song "Wrecking Ball" is about the feeling of being stuck in life and realizing that sometimes, no matter how hard you try, things don't swing back around. The metaphor of the wrecking ball is used to represent taking action and trying to break down walls but not seeing any results. The singer feels lost and disconnected, missing the pain, loneliness, and struggle that they were once familiar with, as it provided them with a sense of direction and purpose. The singer longs for the feeling of knowing exactly what's wrong and having a transparent understanding of their pain. However, they are also aware that this stagnation has given them an opportunity to learn and grow in new ways, noticing the beauty within the darkness and finding value in that.
The overarching tone of the song is bittersweet, as the singer is both reflecting on their past while contemplating their future. They are acknowledging their frustration with their current situation while noting the changes and lessons that it has brought upon them. The melancholic lyrics combine with the singer's hauntingly beautiful vocals, providing the listener with an intimate and vulnerable experience. "Wrecking Ball" is a song that speaks to the pain of feeling lost but also the realization that sometimes, being lost can lead to new discoveries.
Line by Line Meaning
I pushed it hard,
I gave it my all,
That goddamn wrecking ball,
A swinging force, always moving forward,
And I waited for the weight to swing around but it never did.
I waited endlessly for things to get better, but they never did,
And the crows they fell
I saw sorrow and defeat in everything around me,
Around my eyes and still
It was impossible to escape the weight of the world on my shoulders,
No sign of that ball and chain.
No hope for relief from the struggles I faced,
What kind of pendulum never comes back home?
What kind of thing, once in motion, never returns to its starting point?
You start to miss it some.
It's easy to miss what you've lost once it's gone,
The way you miss the rain,
The way you long for something familiar and soothing,
The way you miss the fighting when the war is won...
The way you long for the familiarity of a fight or conflict to keep your mind occupied,
But what I miss the most is knowing just exactly where it hurts,
The familiarity of pain and knowing where it comes from,
Is knowing just exactly what is wrong.
Understanding the root cause of my struggles and pain,
And what I want, and what I want...
But I'm still unsure of what I truly desire,
I miss the ghost trees,
I miss the beauty in things once alive, now gone,
The weary midnight drives,
The solace of being alone on the road in the silence of the night,
The taste of loneliness in the air beyond the towns.
The bitter yet peaceful feeling of being alone in nature outside of civilization,
I miss the resonance of those trigger words,
The familiarity and power of certain words or phrases that can bring back strong emotions or memories,
That crazy one track mind.
The obsessive thought patterns that can consume one's mind in moments of distress,
Sometimes I miss the cold...
The temporary relief that an unfamiliar feeling like intense cold can bring from emotional pain,
I'm remembering the sunlight coming down in shades of blue,
Remembering a time when even the brightest of days could be tinged with sadness,
The sorrow of the aftermath tightening the noose.
The overwhelming sadness that comes after a difficult time or loss,
I'm thinking of the night that all the lights went out,
Thinking back to a moment when everything seemed hopeless,
And how I learned to see in the dark, in the dark, in the dark...
And how I found strength even in the darkest of times,
Contributed by Jason W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@angelatataranni6505
I pushed it hard
That goddamn wrecking ball
And I waited for the weight to swing around but it never did
And the crows they fell
Around my eyes and still
No sign of that ball and chain
I pushed it hard
That goddamn wrecking ball
What kind of pendulum never comes back home?
You start to miss it some
The way you miss the rain
The way you miss the fighting when the war is won...
But what I miss the most is knowing just exactly where it hurts
Is knowing just exactly what is wrong
And what I want, and what I want...
I miss the ghost trees
The weary midnight drives
The taste of loneliness in the air beyond the towns
I miss the resonance of those trigger words
That crazy one track mind
Sometimes I miss the cold...
But what I miss the most is knowing just exactly where it hurts
Is knowing just exactly what is wrong
And what I want, and what I want...
I'm remembering the sunlight coming down in shades of blue
The sorrow of the aftermath tightening the noose
I'm thinking of the night that all the lights went out
And how I learned to see in the dark, in the dark, in the dark...
I pushed it hard, that goddamn wrecking ball
What kind of pendulum never comes back home?
@lorrie9462
shameless US has the best OSTs of any series. thanks for this discovery.
@karadelvin5995
IKR
@spiegelalice
I was lucky to see her live before I even knew her, and watching her perform moved something in me. I've been addicted to her art ever since. Keep being amazing, Chris!
@ganeshscott5360
I also saw her live doing a record release for Gregory Alan Isakov. She is haunting live, needs more exposure 🥰🙏
@OGSinisterPotato
Shameless crew :)
@ZoeKonez
Saw Chris last night in London and she was awesome.
@treeeternal867
I will always and forever be madly in love with her music…
@AvaLaveer
I just got back from seeing Chris Live it was brilliant! I am so glad I was able to go and meet her. her music is so inspiring to me
@AvaLaveer
Please make another video I LOVE YOU CHRIS PUREKA!!!!
@gtnro17
it was a pleasure to see Chris last year in Milan in a very small pub but always with good music. Go Chris!! I believe in your talent!!