Jacob
Chris Renzema Lyrics
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Been wearing these skins for so long
I've been running from the gun, from my own father's son
To used to running to settle my home
And all my lies just bought more land for me to roam
And I know that I'm not right
But I'm still putting up a fight
And I know that there is a cure
For this sickness my heart endures
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
Well, since you called me the deceiver I admit that I believed her
And I was raised by that name, her first son
Some nights I stay up and wonder, am I a con man or a brother?
But in the morning my heart wakes up numb
And all my lies just make more cause for me to run
And I know that I'm not right
But I'm still putting up a fight
And I know my hands can't hold all I aim to steal
And I know that there is a cure
For this sickness my heart endures
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
Yeah, it's hard to walk naked into the light
Well, in the night I saw your doorstep from my dreams while I slept
And angels stood where my head had lain
And I know I should be grateful, but my heart, it's just so tangled
In the words and the lies and the pain
So touch me and I won't walk the same
Oh, God, would You give me a name?
'Cause all my lies just left one person here to blame
The song "Jacob" by Chris Renzema shares the story of a guy who has been running away from his past and everything that comes with it, namely his name and the mistakes he made. He admits that he has been living in pretense for so long, wearing a different skin each time he moves, and all the lies he's told just keep adding more land for him to run, making it harder for him to reconcile his true self. The singer also feels the burden of his actions and the guilt that comes with it. He wonders if he is a con man or a brother, and this thought keeps him awake at night. Despite this feeling of guilt, he knows that he can't stop his desire to take more than he can hold, and his heart is sick because of it.
Line by Line Meaning
Well, I've been running for the keep, I've been wrestling in my sleep
I've been trying to escape from my problems, but they still haunt me even in my dreams.
Been wearing these skins for so long
I've been hiding behind a facade for a long time.
I've been running from the gun, from my own father's son
I've been avoiding confronting my issues, even when they involve my own family.
To used to running to settle my home
I'm so used to running from my problems that I've lost my sense of stability.
And all my lies just bought more land for me to roam
My lies have only made it harder for me to find peace.
And I know that I'm not right
I'm aware that my actions are wrong.
But I'm still putting up a fight
I'm still struggling to overcome my issues.
And I know my hands can't hold all I aim to steal
I know that trying to take what isn't mine will only lead to emptiness.
And I know that there is a cure
I have faith that there is a solution to my problems.
For this sickness my heart endures
My heart is struggling with a deep sorrow or pain.
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
It's difficult to confront my issues and be vulnerable in front of others.
Well, since you called me the deceiver I admit that I believed her
I've been lied to and deceived so much that I'm struggling to trust anyone.
And I was raised by that name, her first son
I've grown up with a legacy of deceit and mistrust.
Some nights I stay up and wonder, am I a con man or a brother?
I'm struggling to find my own identity and determine who I am.
But in the morning my heart wakes up numb
My emotions are dulled and I'm feeling disconnected from myself.
And all my lies just make more cause for me to run
My deceit only leads to further problems and reasons for me to escape.
Well, in the night I saw your doorstep from my dreams while I slept
I had a vision or dream of returning to God's path for me.
And angels stood where my head had lain
I was surrounded by heavenly forces that were watching over me.
And I know I should be grateful, but my heart, it's just so tangled
I know that I should appreciate the help and guidance I've been given, but I'm struggling to sort out my emotions.
In the words and the lies and the pain
I'm trapped by the bad memories and negative experiences of my past.
So touch me and I won't walk the same
I need a personal connection with God to truly change and move forward.
Oh, God, would You give me a name?
I'm asking God to help me find my true identity and purpose.
'Cause all my lies just left one person here to blame
I'm the only one responsible for my actions, and I need to take ownership of that fact.
Writer(s): Chris Renzema
Contributed by Aiden F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@perrinepierre262
Well, I've been running for the keep, I've been wrestling in my sleep
Been wearing these skins for so long
I've been running from the gun, from my own father's son
To used to running to settle my home
And all my lies just bought more land for me to roa
And I know that I'm not right
But I'm still putting up a fight
And I know my hands can't hold all I aim to steal
And I know that there is a cure
For this sickness my heart endures
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
Well, since you called me the deceiver I admit that I believed her
And I was raised by that name, her first son
Some nights I stay up and wonder, am I a con man or a brother?
But in the morning my heart wakes up numb
And all my lies just make more cause for me to run
And I know that I'm not right
But I'm still putting up a fight
And I know my hands can't hold all I aim to steal
And I know that there is a cure
For this sickness my heart endures
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
Yeah, it's hard to walk naked into the light
Well, in the night I saw your doorstep from my dreams while I slept
And angels stood where my head had lain
And I know I should be grateful, but my heart, it's just so tangled
In the words and the lies and the pain
So touch me and I won't walk the same
Oh, God, would You give me a name?
'Cause all my lies just left one person here to blame
@StephanieVargasMusic
Oh my gosh, this song hit me so unexpectedly, brought many tears and memories too. I can relate to alot of Jacobs struggles and character flaws, and im in awe at how God still loved him so profoundly, and I know God loves me too.
I Love Love Love this song💜
@perladenise4519
Man truly youre a real artist inspired by God, not only to write songs but melodies too. Never give up, bc youre a son and artist of the Greatest Artist
@AlliOfAwesome
Can we have one for each of Israel’s patriarchs?? An Abraham, an Isaac..
@tali2225
FINALLY GOOD CHRISTIAN MUSIC ❤️
@fifty5712
Love these biographies of biblical characters! If you made more, that would be awesome.
Moses part 2? Abraham, or David?
@ichorousicarus
sums up my life; struggling from God and running away from my problems :(
@perrinepierre262
Well, I've been running for the keep, I've been wrestling in my sleep
Been wearing these skins for so long
I've been running from the gun, from my own father's son
To used to running to settle my home
And all my lies just bought more land for me to roa
And I know that I'm not right
But I'm still putting up a fight
And I know my hands can't hold all I aim to steal
And I know that there is a cure
For this sickness my heart endures
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
Well, since you called me the deceiver I admit that I believed her
And I was raised by that name, her first son
Some nights I stay up and wonder, am I a con man or a brother?
But in the morning my heart wakes up numb
And all my lies just make more cause for me to run
And I know that I'm not right
But I'm still putting up a fight
And I know my hands can't hold all I aim to steal
And I know that there is a cure
For this sickness my heart endures
But it's hard to walk naked into the light
Yeah, it's hard to walk naked into the light
Well, in the night I saw your doorstep from my dreams while I slept
And angels stood where my head had lain
And I know I should be grateful, but my heart, it's just so tangled
In the words and the lies and the pain
So touch me and I won't walk the same
Oh, God, would You give me a name?
'Cause all my lies just left one person here to blame
@KurooS
thank you! :)
@raquelhobbs253
Beautiful
@Xilen7
I was an atheist whose musical tastes revolves around the Cure, Smashing Pumpkins, Deftones, Nirvana, Radiohead, etc.
Now that I'm a believer (and a worshipper to boot), I have still carried that eclectic music influence when choosing and singing P&W songs.
This falls right in my avenue.