Back Door
Clan of Xymox Lyrics


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I AM SHROUDED IN DARKNESS
I CROUCHED IN WASTED YEARS
I LINGERED, I CAN'T GET THROUGH
DAZZLED BETWEEN FAR AND NEAR
LIKE THE ELEGIES RELATE TO DAYS BEYOND RECALL
I LINGERED IN MANY MEMORIES

AND AGAIN I STUMBLED THROUGH THE BACK DOOR
SEEING YOU , A MISTY SHADOW
I FEEL MY REPRESSION
I CAN'T GO ON
AND AGAIN I AM FALLING BACKWARDS
TOMORROW I WILL BE HERE AGAIN
A SILENT MUTE OF A BLACK DESIRE
TOMORROW I WILL BE HERE AGAIN
TOMORROW I'L BE HERE AGAIN

I AM TIRED OF TEARS AND LAUGHTER
OR WHAT MAY COME HEREAFTER
I AM WEARY OF DAYS AND HOURS
DESIRES, DREAMS AND POWERS
ALTHOUGH IT MAKES ME WEEP




IT IS YOU
I WANNA KEEP

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Clan of Xymox’s song Back Door portray the feeling of being stuck in a never-ending cycle. The singer describes being shrouded in darkness and crouching in wasted years, unable to move forward. They are dazzled between far and near, caught between the present and the past. Memories mingle with elegies, creating a sense of nostalgia and sorrow for what has been lost.


Throughout the lyrics, there is a sense of being trapped, of being unable to escape from the past. The singer stumbles through the back door, seeing a misty shadow of someone they once knew. This encounter only serves to make the singer feel more repressed, unable to move on. They fall backwards, slipping further into the cycle of memories and regrets. The repetition of “tomorrow I will be here again” only reinforces the singer’s sense of being stuck in time.


Despite the melancholic overtones of the song, there is also a sense of desire and longing. The singer is weary of days and hours, but they are not ready to give up on what they want. The final lines “although it makes me weep / it is you / I wanna keep” reveal that there is something or someone that the singer is holding onto, even if it causes them pain.


Line by Line Meaning

I AM SHROUDED IN DARKNESS
I am surrounded by negativity and sorrow in my life.


I CROUCHED IN WASTED YEARS
I spent too much time dwelling on the past and now I regret it.


I LINGERED, I CAN'T GET THROUGH
I am stuck in a rut and can't seem to move forward with my life.


DAZZLED BETWEEN FAR AND NEAR
I am conflicted about my future and what I want to achieve in life.


LIKE THE ELEGIES RELATE TO DAYS BEYOND RECALL
My thoughts are consumed by memories of the past and what could have been.


I LINGERED IN MANY MEMORIES
I am haunted by the past and can't seem to let go.


AND AGAIN I STUMBLED THROUGH THE BACK DOOR
I keep finding myself in the same negative situations and can't seem to break free.


SEEING YOU , A MISTY SHADOW
You are a distant memory that I can't seem to forget.


I FEEL MY REPRESSION
I am suffocated by my own emotions and can't seem to escape them.


I CAN'T GO ON
I am overwhelmed by my problems and can't seem to find a solution.


AND AGAIN I AM FALLING BACKWARDS
I keep reverting back to old habits and patterns of behavior.


TOMORROW I WILL BE HERE AGAIN
I am trapped in a cycle and tomorrow will be no different than today.


A SILENT MUTE OF A BLACK DESIRE
My desires are consuming me and I can't seem to express them.


TOMORROW I WILL BE HERE AGAIN
I am resigned to my fate and cannot escape my current situation.


TOMORROW I'L BE HERE AGAIN
My life is on an endless loop and I can't seem to break free from it.


I AM TIRED OF TEARS AND LAUGHTER
I am exhausted from the ups and downs of life and just want some stability.


OR WHAT MAY COME HEREAFTER
I am afraid of what the future holds and the unknown.


I AM WEARY OF DAYS AND HOURS
I am tired of the monotony of my life and the passing of time.


DESIRES, DREAMS AND POWERS
My desires and dreams are unattainable and I feel powerless to change my situation.


ALTHOUGH IT MAKES ME WEEP
My emotions are overwhelming and bring me to tears.


IT IS YOU
Despite all of my problems and negative emotions, you are the one thing that brings me some solace and stability in life.


I WANNA KEEP
I want to hold onto you as a source of comfort in my life.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: ANKA WOLBERT, PIETER NOOTEN, RONNIE MOERINGS

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@BaronAnselme69

I am shrouded in darkness
I crouched in wasted years
I lingered, I can't get through

Dazzled between far and near
Like the elegies relate to days beyond recall
I lingered in many memories

And again I stumbled through the back door
Seeing you, a misty shadow
I feel my repression, I can't go on

And again I am falling backwards
Tomorrow I will be here again
A silent mute of a black desire

Tomorrow I will be here again
Tomorrow I'll be here again
Be here again, be here again

I am tired of tears and laughter
Or what may come hereafter
I am weary of days and hours
Desires, dreams and powers

Although it makes me weep
It is you, I wanna keep



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Clan of Xymox, one of the most under rated bands ever. They should have been huge. Love this track almost as much as A DAY.

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My 2 favorites by them.

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Clan of Xymox. One of the best bands ever. They are from Holland and currently play a lot throughout Europe and South America. The last time I remember them playing in the US was back in 86 or 87. Old school cool.

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