My Frustration
Coal Chamber Lyrics


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Where was I when god had shown
How to make a happy home

Lie in bed and sleep don't come
Have some peace then give me some
And I know the reason why you hold me down
I won't let this fear of loss make me drown
In my bed I lie alone
Scrape together bone to bone
And I can't seem to seem to find my way
I can't seem to find the break of day

I'll stay just a step away

Where was I when god had shown
How to make a happy home
And I have become my worst enemy
I will survive this instability

In my bed I lie alone
Scrape together bone to bone
Again I have become my worst enemy
I will survive this instability

I need to breathe the breath of life
You constantly drain my life
Why can't you see the breath in me
I constantly need your need
My butterfly don't fly away

If I could just take this simple breath of life from
Me
You couldn't take it motherfucker eternity
If I could take this breath of life and come inside
Of me
You wouldn't take it, I need to breathe

As I creep the monkey's back
Now she's gone and oh he's back
And I know the reason why you hold me down
I won't let this fear of loss make me drown





I will stay, I'll stay
I will stay, I'll stay

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Coal Chamber's song My Frustration are a reflection of the lead singer's state of mind and his struggles with feeling trapped and unable to escape his own negative thoughts. He questions where he was when God was showing how to make a happy home, feeling lost and alone in his own bed with his thoughts. Despite feeling like he is his own worst enemy, he resolves to survive this instability and keep fighting, even if it means staying just a step away from the edge.


The lyric "I need to breathe the breath of life, you constantly drain my life" speaks to a toxic relationship where the singer feels suffocated and drained of his energy. He is aware of the other person's hold on him but vows to not let that fear of loss make him drown. The line "My butterfly don't fly away" speaks to the fear of losing someone, but also suggests the idea of being trapped and unable to fully spread one's wings.


The final stanza speaks about the singer's struggles with addiction, with the line "as I creep the monkey's back", referring to the feeling of the addiction creeping back in. He acknowledges that the other person's hold on him may contribute to this struggle but ultimately it is his own responsibility to fight against it. The repetition of "I will stay" emphasizes his determination to keep fighting and not succumb to his struggles.


Overall, My Frustration is a powerful and introspective reflection on mental health, addiction, and toxic relationships, with the lyrics offering a glimpse into the singer's own struggles and his determination to keep fighting for his own happiness and well-being.


Line by Line Meaning

Where was I when god had shown
I missed the opportunity to learn from God how to create a happy home.


How to make a happy home
The knowledge of creating a happy home was taught by God, but I missed it.


Lie in bed and sleep don't come
I'm having trouble sleeping and finding peace.


Have some peace then give me some
I need some peace of mind desperately.


And I know the reason why you hold me down
I understand why you're holding me back.


I won't let this fear of loss make me drown
I will not allow my fear of losing to overpower me.


In my bed I lie alone
I'm by myself in bed.


Scrape together bone to bone
I'm trying to survive with just the bare minimum, using whatever I have to stay alive.


And I can't seem to seem to find my way
I'm having difficulty finding direction or purpose in my life.


I can't seem to find the break of day
I'm struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel.


I'll stay just a step away
I'll stay close, but not too close, because I don't want to get hurt.


And I have become my worst enemy
I'm my own worst enemy.


I will survive this instability
I'm confident that I will overcome this chaos and uncertainty.


I need to breathe the breath of life
I need to feel alive and vibrant again.


You constantly drain my life
You're constantly taking the life out of me.


Why can't you see the breath in me
Why can't you see that I'm still alive and need to breathe?


I constantly need your need
I need you to need me, to show me that I have a reason to live.


My butterfly don't fly away
Don't leave me, even if it means just staying put like a butterfly.


If I could just take this simple breath of life from me
If I could give my breath of life to someone else, I would.


You couldn't take it motherfucker eternity
You can't take my breath of life away from me forever, no matter how hard you try.


If I could take this breath of life and come inside
If I could take this breath of life and make it a part of me, I would.


Of me
I want the breath of life to be a part of me.


You wouldn't take it, I need to breathe
You can't have my breath of life, I need it to survive.


As I creep the monkey's back
As I crawl or sneak around, the burden of my problems comes with me.


Now she's gone and oh he's back
Something or someone has left, and now something or someone else has taken its place.


I will stay, I'll stay
I'll stay strong and persevere, no matter what happens.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: BRADLEY JAMES FAFARA, MIGUEL RASCON, MIKE COX, RAYNA FOSS

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