They released an EP called Chartreuse in 1999, and gained a significant local following. That following paid off when they were signed to Cherry Records (a subsidiary of Universal Records). They made one major-label release: Dirty Wake, on February 15, 2000. The lead single from Dirty Wake, "Automatic", received nationwide airplay in the US and peaked on the Billboard Modern Rock charts at #28 in 2000.
In 2003, Mike Garrigan became a member of Athenaeum shortly before the band's 2004 breakup; after this he formed the group mg4.
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October
Collapsis Lyrics
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Couse couse, kitchenware, attitude
Nothing more than an acorn shell
Yeah this is my October
Shadow me accordingly
Nothing more than a bit too fast
Fall down, hit the ground
Nothing more than a need to yell
That this is my October
Let me die
Since I've been running out of empty
All I have is candy bars
And costumes to defend me
You say
"We used to taste so sweet"
Do I look like candy?
Do I look like candy?
Pumpkin gonna get too quick
Couse couse, kitchen wear, I'm full of shit
And nothing more than a need to yell
That this is my October
Shadow me accordingly
And I never thought
We'd break this ground
Fall down, hit the ground
Don't make a sound
It's been nothing more
Than a big cheep thrill
Yeah yeah this is my October
Let me die
Since I've been
Running out of empty
All I have is candy bars
And costumes to defend me
You say
"We used to taste so sweet"
Do I look like candy?
Like candy
Like candy
Like candy
Ya, da, da, da'm gonna die
Yeah this is my October
The lyrics to Collapsis's song October convey a sense of desperation and impending doom, punctuated by the repeated line "Let me die." The opening lines, "Pumpkin seed gonna get you soon, Couse couse, kitchenware, attitude, Nothing more than an acorn shell, Yeah this is my October, Shadow me accordingly," seem to suggest that the singer is acknowledging their mortality and the passage of time as the leaves fall and Halloween approaches, but they are also adopting a defiant or rebellious attitude, perhaps in response to feeling trapped or constrained in some way. The individual elements mentioned - pumpkin seeds, kitchenware, acorn shells - are mundane objects, but they are imbued with significance in this context, suggesting a sense of foreboding and unease that permeates the song.
The second verse, "Nothing more than a bit too fast, Fall down, hit the ground, Not meant to last, Nothing more than a need to yell, That this is my October, Let me die," reinforces the theme of mortality and impermanence, and the suggestion that the singer is tired of fighting or resisting their fate. The reference to candy bars and costumes in the lines "Since I've been running out of empty, All I have is candy bars, And costumes to defend me, You say 'We used to taste so sweet,' Do I look like candy?" further emphasizes the sense of disillusionment or disconnection from the world around them.
Overall, the lyrics to October are dark and introspective, reflecting a sense of weariness and fatalism. While the repeated refrain of "Let me die" may be jarring to some listeners, it serves to underscore the song's overarching theme of mortality and the struggle to find meaning and purpose in the face of inevitable death.
Line by Line Meaning
Pumpkin seed gonna get you soon
The impending fall season is going to bring change and uncertainty.
Couse couse, kitchenware, attitude
The singer is feeling agitated and unprepared for the changes coming their way.
Nothing more than an acorn shell
The singer feels small and insignificant.
Yeah this is my October
The artist claims ownership over this season of change.
Shadow me accordingly
The artist wants to be left alone to deal with the coming changes.
Nothing more than a bit too fast
The changes are happening faster than the singer feels comfortable with.
Fall down, hit the ground
The singer is struggling to cope with the changes.
Not meant to last
The artist feels like they are not equipped to handle the changes long-term.
Nothing more than a need to yell
The artist feels overwhelmed and needs to express their frustration.
That this is my October
The artist emphasizes the personal significance of the season for them.
Let me die
The singer is using hyperbole to express their distress and discomfort with the changes.
Since I've been running out of empty
The artist feels like they have nothing left to give or contribute.
All I have is candy bars
The singer is using indulgences like candy as a coping mechanism.
And costumes to defend me
The singer is using disguises or personas as a way to protect themselves from the changes.
You say "We used to taste so sweet"
The singer is addressing someone who has noticed their change in demeanor or behavior.
Do I look like candy?
The artist is challenging the idea that they should be perceived as sweet or desirable.
Ya, da, da, da'm gonna die
The artist is using humor to cope with the discomfort and stress of the changes.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: MIKE GARRIGAN
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@benjaminshih7286
During Covid19 Pandemic ------ "This is my October... Let me dieeee!..."
@johnblood10
I usually hate alternative rock, but Collapsis is a big exception to that rule. I remember hearing this on the radio when I was about 13, and I haven't heard this between then and now. Thanks for posting this!
@13Kavorka
enjoyed their shows. Tremendous cover of "voices carry" during a 5 points pub encore. thanks to the band for that
@zayinrodriguez4404
december 2023 still not on spotify
@JeremieBucknife
underrated and awesome...
@NightWings16
love this song from tv Roswell!
@rashmijailani2303
This is my October. Summer 2000.
@ZoeyandEthan
Rashmi Jailani you and know this too well
@ernestomiguelcredito3777
Nostalgic
@secondprotocol
Who's here because it's first day of October?