Infectant
Contagion Lyrics


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In your dreams I wait for you
I cry for myself and for something new

Isolation that tries to surround me
Infected truths and insecurity
All I see is shadow around me
I wait for truth and for dignity
I'm alive
And it's coursing through my veins
I'm alive
And it's eating through my brain
I'm alive
And tearing in my brain
I'm alive
And it's driving me insane

I can't stand for this silence
I can't wait for this peace
It's tearing deep inside of me
And it's trapped inside this space

Why can't you accept
This is all there ever is...

In my dreams I wait for you
I die by myself and I die for you
And I know that it won't matter
Something that was never here

I'm alive
And it's coursing through my veins
I'm alive
And it's eating through my brain
I'm alive
And it's tearing in my brain
I'm alive
And it's driving me insane

Every night I wait for you
I try to forget what I did to you

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Contagion's song "Infectant" are a depiction of the struggles of isolation, insecurity, and the desire for truth and dignity. The first two lines represent a longing for a change that seems unattainable, where the singer cries not only for themselves but also for something new. The all-encompassing shadow represents the overpowering effect of negative thoughts and fears that surround them. The singer is fighting to remain alive despite the internal torment, but their emotional state is causing them to question their sanity. They can't stand for the silence and wait for peace, but it's tearing them apart from the inside out.


The chorus illustrates the internal battle taking place within the singer. They are conflicted as they struggle to maintain a positive outlook on their life when everything seems to be going wrong. The repetition of the phrase, "I'm alive," is both ironic and cathartic. The realization that they can't succumb to the negative feelings becomes the driving force, making them want to break free from the shackles of their emotional torment.


The last verse depicts a sense of guilt and regret for something that happened, and the singer longs to forget what they did to the person they are waiting for in their dreams. The song ends on a bittersweet note where they know that whatever they are waiting for may never come, but they still wait, hoping for an escape from their emotional prison.


Line by Line Meaning

In your dreams I wait for you
I long for you in my subconscious mind


I cry for myself and for something new
My tears are for both my own longing and for the hope of something different


Isolation that tries to surround me
I feel cut off from everything around me


Infected truths and insecurity
My honest thoughts are tainted and uncertain


All I see is shadow around me
Everything appears dark and uncertain


I wait for truth and for dignity
I yearn for honesty and self-respect


I'm alive
I exist and am present in this moment


And it's coursing through my veins
Something is pulsing and flowing inside me


And it's eating through my brain
Something is gnawing at my thoughts and affecting my mind


And tearing in my brain
Something is causing intense pain and anguish in my mind


And it's driving me insane
Something is causing me to lose my grip on reality


I can't stand for this silence
I cannot bear the absence of sound and communication


I can't wait for this peace
I am eager for the tranquility and stillness to come


It's tearing deep inside of me
I feel an intense emotional pain that is affecting me on a deep level


And it's trapped inside this space
The source of this pain is contained within myself and cannot escape


Why can't you accept
Why can't you come to terms with the reality of the situation


This is all there ever is...
This is the extent of what exists and what can be changed


In my dreams I wait for you
Once again, I find myself yearning for you in my sleep


I die by myself and I die for you
I experience both personal destruction and sacrifice for your sake


And I know that it won't matter
I am aware that all my efforts and sacrifices will ultimately have no impact


Something that was never here
The hope and desire I had for something was never actually present


Every night I wait for you
Once again, I am longing for you in the darkness of night


I try to forget what I did to you
I attempt to erase from my mind the harm and mistakes I have caused you




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