Castro added the "h" to his first name for the release of his successful album, "Mi Vida Sin Tu Amor" in 1999. "Christian Castro," however, is still not widely used as "Cristian Castro," and Castro actually went back to using "Cristian" on his albums until 2004.
Castro released "Azul" in 2001, and won the "Best Latin Pop Album of the Year" award.
Castro married Paraguayan, Gabriela Bo, in Asunción in 2003.
Payaso
Cristian Castro Lyrics
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Que estoy muriendo por ti
Y tu no me haces ni caso
Dicen que soy un payaso
Por que toda mi ilusión
Es tenerte entre mis brazos
Que por culpa de tu amor
Voy de fracaso en fracaso
Dicen que soy un payaso
Que va buscando valor
En el fondo de los pasos
Y es verdad soy un payaso
Pero que le voy a hacer
Uno no es lo que quiere
Sino lo que puede ser
Dicen que soy payaso
Que estoy muriendo por ti
Y tu no me haces ni caso
Dicen que soy un payaso
Que te sigue por ahí
Con el alma hecha pedazos
Dicen que soy un payaso
Que quería el amor
Que vas tirando a tu paso
Dicen que soy un payaso
Que no tengo ni valor
Para pegarme ni un balazo
Y es verdad soy un payaso
Pero que le voy a hacer
Uno no es lo que quiere
Sino lo que puede ser
Y es verdad soy un payaso
Pero que le voy a hacer
Uno no es lo que quiere
Sino lo que puede ser
Y es verdad soy un, payaso
The lyrics of Cristian Castro's song Payaso (Clown) talk about unrequited love and the frustration that comes with it. The singer of the song is being labelled as a clown by others because of his persistent pursuit of the person he loves. He is described as a failure in love, someone who is constantly searching for validation and love but not receiving it from the person he desires.
The repetition of the line, "Dicen que soy un payaso" emphasizes the point that the singer is being ridiculed and mocked, and the line "Y es verdad soy un payaso, pero que le voy a hacer, uno no es lo que quiere sino lo que puede ser" (And it's true I'm a clown, but what can I do, one is not what one wants but what one can be) conveys a sense of acceptance of his situation, that he cannot change what he is or the love he feels for this person.
The use of the metaphor of a clown in the song highlights the singer's vulnerability and emotional instability, where he has put himself out there and is open to emotional harm. The song overall speaks to the human condition of love, the highs and the lows, and the struggle to find acceptance and love from another.
Line by Line Meaning
Dicen que soy un payaso
People say that I am a clown, a fool
Que estoy muriendo por ti
That I am dying for you, that I love you deeply
Y tu no me haces ni caso
But you do not pay attention to me, you do not reciprocate my feelings
Por que toda mi ilusión
Because all of my hopes
Es tenerte entre mis brazos
Are to hold you in my arms, to be with you
Que por culpa de tu amor
Because of your love, your influence on me
Voy de fracaso en fracaso
I am going from failure to failure, from disappointment to disappointment
Que va buscando valor
That I am searching for courage, for bravery
En el fondo de los pasos
Deep down inside myself, in my steps
Pero que le voy a hacer
But what can I do?
Uno no es lo que quiere
I am not what I want to be
Sino lo que puede ser
But rather what I can become, what fate has in store for me
Que te sigue por ahí
That I follow you around
Con el alma hecha pedazos
With a shattered soul, broken hearted
Que quería el amor
That I wanted love, a relationship with you
Que vas tirando a tu paso
But you are leaving behind, discarding, my feelings
Que no tengo ni valor
That I do not have courage, strength
Para pegarme ni un balazo
Even to shoot myself
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: MARIA ENRIQUETA RAMOS NUNEZ, GARCIA RAFAEL PEREZ BOTIJA
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