Villain
Crooked I feat. Sally Anthony Lyrics

There comes a time
At some point in life

In everybody's life
For everyone

When they gotta make a change
When a change is necessary

I'm tired of being a villain
I am exhausted of being seen as a bad person

I'mma change
I will change

I'm not gon' be your villain anymore
I will no longer be the person you see as evil

And don't think I'll live a life of keeping score
I will not live life constantly tallying grievances against others

Flat broke, living in the hood
Extremely poor, residing in a low-income neighborhood

When I need money I be up to no good
I am forced to do unethical activities to gain money

Your family's rich, my family's poor
Your family has wealth, mine does not

I would trade places with you if I could
If possible, I would switch positions in life with you

But I gotta play with the cards I was dealt
I have to deal with the circumstances I am given

Down on my knees ask God for some help
Praying to God for assistance

Man of the house, my dad walked out
Responsible for the household, yet my father abandoned us

Mistakes get made when you father yourself
Failing, making mistakes, when you have to raise yourself

I was raised on the block, a menace to society
I grew up in the neighborhood, and was seen as a troublemaker

But as a little kid I was innocent entirely
When younger, I did not have the same negative behavior

Time went by, life got hard
As time progressed, challenges presented themselves

'Til I started feeling like a villain was inside of me
Eventually, I began to view myself as an inherently bad person

Mad at the world, but I can't cry
Angry at everything, yet cannot express emotions

Heart full of pain, and I can't lie
Emotionally burdened and truthful

I did a lot of dirt, but now I wanna change
I have done many unethical things, but now desire to transform

To the bad guy in me I say "bye"
The evil side of myself, I choose to reject

Inside my mind fighting my own war
Internally, battling personal conflicts

Half of me wants to be the good guy
I have a desire to be a morally upright person

But the other half wants to kick down your door
However, another part of me is prone to violent behavior

Mixed emotions, they start to confuse me
Emotions are complex and disorienting

Last night I hopped in my car with an Uzi
Recently, I became so frustrated that I was willing to resort to firearms

Haters don't feel me, some wanna kill me
Individuals who dislike me, might resort to violent measures

I don't really wanna be the star of this movie
I do not wish to be at the forefront of this difficult situation

Too many years I done fought off regret
For years, I have tried to ignore feelings of remorse

I'mma bail like Christian and walk off the set
I will walk away, like actor Christian Bale leaves a movie set

You can tell the director, and the producer
Inform the filmmakers

To keep that noose when it fall off my neck
When I escape my burdens, leave the destructive thoughts tied to my past

I was hanging myself: I couldn't breathe
Crushed by the weight of my own troubles

Trapped in the ghetto: I couldn't leave
Stuck in a poverty-stricken area I could not depart from

I couldn't think, I couldn't see
Overwhelmed, and unable to focus

I couldn't take it man, I couldn't be
Could not cope, and wanted change

Guess I thought it was nothing else out there
Believed there were no other possibilities

For a dropout raised on welfare
For someone who never finished school, raised in a poor area

Brave enough to rob a bank in a heartbeat
Fearless enough to steal from a financial institution

But too scared to take my life elsewhere
Too fearful to seek new opportunities

It ain't easy to go straight
It is challenging to adhere to ethical principles

Blind faith, stepped to the plate
With trust in the unknown, I took a chance

I packed up my bag, I walked out the door
Prepared my belongings, left my old life behind

I ain't coming back around this bitch 'til I'm great
Will not return, until I have accomplished greatness

Put your hands in the air if you feel me
Show agreement with me

I'mma change my life if it kill me
Determined to alter my situation

No more
End of song