Disease
Crowe Allison Lyrics
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The thoughts of all pain
Released from this anger
Is some place I would like to be
And when I feel myself defeated
I bleed
And when I see them twist around
Dancing in their own wake
And I don't want to exist on this plane
Crashing down to the level of
Depth of skin
Flesh and bone
All wrapped up in pages
Flashed in our faces
Laughing and spiteful
Run away
Lost again
Misdirected and folded
Drowned in bones
And thrown away
They told me to disappear
And slowly dive
Into the shallow end
Of the gene pool
Try to hold on to what I believe
Disappeared
No longer here as anything but
Wretched and disfigured
So I slash myself again
And I drown my hopes again
Lose myself in this disease
Lost again
Misdirected and folded
Drowned in bones
And thrown away
They told me to disappear
And slowly dive
Into the shallow end
Of the gene pool
Cut yourself to the mold
Nothing left to rid yourself of
But bile and blood
Torn skin screaming
And silenced as we
Replace marble with plastic
Lost again
Misdirected and folded
Drowned in bones
And thrown away
They told me to disappear
And slowly dive
Into the shallow end
Of the gene pool
The lyrics of Crowe Allison's song "Disease" express a sense of anguish and turmoil that many people may relate to. The opening lines, "Stepping on the thoughts of all pain, released from this anger, is some place I would like to be" suggest that the singer is struggling with negative feelings which they wish to escape from. The following lines, "And when I feel myself defeated, I bleed and when I see them twist around, dancing in their own wake, I rage" indicate that the singer is experiencing some form of emotional pain, which is causing them to feel helpless and angry.
The lyrics build on this theme of struggling with negative emotions, with lines such as "try to hold on to what I believe, disappeared" and "no longer here as anything but wretched and disfigured." These lines suggest that the singer is struggling to hold onto their sense of self and identity in the face of what they perceive to be overwhelming negativity. The final lines of the song, "cut yourself to the mold, nothing left to rid yourself of, but bile and blood, torn skin screaming" are particularly evocative, suggesting a sense of desperation and self-harm.
Overall, the lyrics of "Disease" suggest that the singer is deeply troubled and struggling to deal with their emotions. The song deals with themes of pain, anger, and self-harm, and may be particularly relevant to those who have experienced these same emotions in their own lives.
Line by Line Meaning
Stepping on
Moving forward, but from a place of pain and suffering
The thoughts of all pain
Consumed by thoughts of agony and anguish
Released from this anger
Longing to escape the grip of rage and fury
Is some place I would like to be
Desiring a place of peace and tranquility
And when I feel myself defeated
Succumbing to feelings of failure and weakness
I bleed
Emotional wounds opening and causing pain
And when I see them twist around
Watching others enjoying life and feeling envious
Dancing in their own wake
Living boldly and unapologetically
I rage
Feeling intense anger and frustration
And I don't want to exist on this plane
Desiring to escape the world and all its problems
Crashing down to the level of
Sinking into a deep, dark place
Depth of skin
The superficial nature of existence
Flesh and bone
The physical body and its limitations
All wrapped up in pages
Trapped in societal norms and expectations
Flashed in our faces
A constant reminder of these expectations
Laughing and spiteful
The world mocking and belittling
Run away
Desiring to escape
Lost again
Feeling lost and directionless
Misdirected and folded
Being misled and feeling trapped
Drowned in bones
Overwhelmed by the weight of existence
And thrown away
Feeling discarded and unworthy
They told me to disappear
Others urging one to disappear and cease to exist
And slowly dive
Gradually sinking deeper into darkness
Into the shallow end
Lamenting one's own genetic makeup
Of the gene pool
Feeling inherently flawed and inadequate
Try to hold on to what I believe
Attempting to cling to one's own beliefs and values
Disappeared
Feeling as though one no longer exists
No longer here as anything but
Lacking any identity besides one consumed by darkness
Wretched and disfigured
Feeling miserable and unattractive
So I slash myself again
Resorting to self-harm as a means of coping
And I drown my hopes again
Letting go of any hope for a better future
Lose myself in this disease
Succumbing to the illness of depression and despair
Cut yourself to the mold
Conforming to societal expectations, no matter the cost
Nothing left to rid yourself of
Feeling trapped and unable to escape one's own thoughts and struggles
But bile and blood
Only experiencing negativity and despair
Torn skin screaming
The physical manifestation of inner turmoil
And silenced as we
Feeling silenced and ignored by the world
Replace marble with plastic
Losing the beauty of true authenticity and embracing superficiality
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MrJuancarlosferrero
Amazing composition. there is so much intellect in the music writing of Alisson Crowe, which you dont see anywhere these days, not from the new artists nor the established ones. tori amos wasnt never even near this. The same intellect also make a song like these seem scatchy from time to time and less ''clean'', one can hear how she must've been juggling constantly with all the options in there. Only a balanced thoughtfull artist can put out something this complex and rich.
MrJuancarlosferrero
''they told me to disappear.'' takes my mind right back to the article ''new-eugenics-and-the-rise-of-the-global-scientific-dictatorship''; the therapeutical society of which Szasz talked about and the brave new world that is quietly, slowly but steadily taking into shape.
TheIAMINU
Thank you so much .....
MrJuancarlosferrero
what is she up to these days