Crywank started in 2009 with Jay Clayton attempting to do some folk-punk influenced acoustic music with no previous experience playing guitar. The first album "James is going to die soon" was inspired by a painful break up. Jay stated that "I wrote these songs out of frustration and sadness and they ended up making me feel a lot better, I hope they have a similar effect on you".
In 2012 Crywank released their second album 'Narcissist On The Verge Of A Nervous Breakdown'. Described as "a collection of paranoid songs mostly about me trying to understand my own sadness along with the concept of sadness as a whole. It was fueled by self help books and pot."
In late 2012 Dan Watson joined Crywank on percussion, and in early 2013 they released tour demos for their third album 'Tomorrow Is Nearly Yesterday And Everyday Is Stupid' which was released in October 2013.
In 2016 Jay and Dan began couch surfing to afford to be able to tour as much as possible. Over the next four years they performed over 500 shows in over 30 countries and released four albums.
Crywank announced their breakup following a world tour in 2019, alongside the album ‘fist me til your hand comes out my mouth’’ a huge departure in sound and the first release to include songwriting from Dan and explained the tense relationship between Jay and Dan that had developed over the years on the road.
Their breakup tour was cut short by the COVID-19 pandemic and the North American and European dates had to be rescheduled numerous times. During this time Jay was in a house fire, which led to the release of a solo Crywank album ‘Just Popping In To Say Hi’ that was written and recorded over three days.
Between 2022-2023 Crywank managed to continue their final tour and performed 100 shows in the USA and over 50 shows in the UK and Ireland, often with bass player Jules Noel (AKA Guard Petal). In 2024 it was announced that Crywank will no longer be breaking up and Jules would be joining the band.
The name Crywank comes from reclaiming a cruel nickname given to Jay during a period of depression. Jay has since said that if they knew how popular the band would have become they probably would’ve chosen a different name.
It's Ok I Wouldn't Remember Me Either
Crywank Lyrics
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I spend my days with my head in my hands
If I go outside I'll fall apart
I am mostly scared by passing time,
The world it seems,
Is more unkind.
Inevitable tragedies will soon be mine.
I am looking for an easy place,
To mask my thoughts inside my face.
Or brown bed calling for victory.
Maybe I should just pack up and run away again,
Let you forget
That you were once
My friend
And should let another,
And watch them do better without me
Ooh, oohh, ohh.
I could not go away not if I wanted to
I can hide from friend but
I cannot hide from you.
These chemical reactions are dividing me.
Soft duplicating thoughts dividing all the time
The lyrics of Crywank's song "It's OK I Wouldn't Remember Me Either" describe the singer's feelings of hopelessness and anxiety, and his struggle to find a place where he can feel safe and secure. The opening lines reveal that the singer doesn't want to be awake again, suggesting that he finds it difficult to face reality. The line "I spend my days with my head in my hands" is a metaphor for the singer's feelings of despair and hopelessness, and his inability to cope with his problems.
The next lines reveal the singer's fear of going outside and experiencing the world, as he believes that he will fall apart if he does so. He is scared of passing time and the unkindness of the world, and he believes that inevitable tragedies will soon befall him. The repeated use of the word "ooh" in the chorus adds to the singer's sense of despondency and desperation, as if he is crying out for help.
The second verse of the song expresses the singer's desire to find an easy place where he can simply hide his thoughts and feelings behind a mask. He mentions a brown bed, which could symbolize a place of comfort, where he can feel safe and secure. However, he also contemplates running away, letting go of his friends, and starting anew. The singer feels that he is a burden to others and that he is better off disappearing from their lives.
Overall, the song is a poignant expression of the singer's feelings of anxiety and hopelessness, and his struggle to find a place where he can feel safe and secure. The use of metaphors and vivid imagery adds depth and meaning to the lyrics, making them relatable to those who may be going through similar struggles.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't want to be awake again
I'm exhausted and don't want to face reality
I spend my days with my head in my hands
I'm overwhelmed and constantly anxious
If I go outside I'll fall apart
The outside world is too difficult to handle right now
I am mostly scared by passing time,
I'm afraid of missing out and wasting my life
The world it seems,
From my perspective, the world is a harsh and unforgiving place
Is more unkind.
People's actions and behaviors are increasingly cruel
Inevitable tragedies will soon be mine.
I anticipate negative events happening to me in the near future
I am looking for an easy place,
I want to escape my problems and find a comfortable environment
To mask my thoughts inside my face.
I want to hide my true feelings from others
Or brown bed calling for victory.
Lying in bed seems like the only way to cope with my struggles
Maybe I should just pack up and run away again,
Leaving everything behind seems like a viable option to me
Let you forget
It's easier if nobody remembers me or my problems
That you were once
Our friendship has ended
My friend
The person I used to confide in
And should let another,
You should find another friend to replace me
And watch them do better without me
I'm convinced that people will be better off without me in their lives
I could not go away not if I wanted to
Running away is not a realistic option
I can hide from friend but
I can avoid my friends if necessary
I cannot hide from you.
I can't avoid the problems that involve you directly
These chemical reactions are dividing me.
The chemical imbalances in my brain are affecting me negatively
Soft duplicating thoughts dividing all the time
Negative thoughts are constantly multiplying and causing me more distress
Contributed by Sophia I. Suggest a correction in the comments below.