You Couldn't Teach Me Integrity
Crywank Lyrics


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There's a likely chance that if you're a girl I've met
I've imagined a life with you
I know that probably sounds obsessive
But that's just what I do

I am desperate, like a praying atheist
I need love, I need affection, and I hate myself for this
Get over yourself, I say under my breath
When I get annoyed by the thoughts in my head
I don't deserve to say I'm sad, I don't know what sadness is
I'm nothing more than complaints from a dumb spoilt kid

I crave love, I crave attention
And I hate myself for this




I'm embarrassed by my depression
When I put things in perspective

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Crywank's "You Couldn't Teach Me Integrity" portray a deep sense of loneliness and self-hatred that the singer feels. The opening lines suggest that the singer has a tendency to idealize the women they meet, imagining a life with them, which may be why they struggle to find lasting love or connection with others. The admission that this sounds obsessive adds to the picture of someone who is trapped in their own head and unable to form meaningful relationships.


The following lines express a deep need for love and affection, which the singer seems to equate with a religious longing. The phrase "praying atheist" suggests that the singer wants to believe in something greater than themselves but struggles to do so. The self-hatred comes in when the singer states that they hate themselves for needing love, which implies that they feel this need is a weakness rather than a natural part of being human.


The rest of the lyrics further highlight the singer's sense of worthlessness and hopelessness. They tell themselves to get over themselves and feel embarrassed by their depression, suggesting that they not only have low self-esteem but also feel ashamed of their mental health struggles. The final line, "when I put things in perspective," implies that the singer is aware that their problems may seem small in comparison to others, but this only serves to compound their feelings of guilt and self-loathing.


Overall, "You Couldn't Teach Me Integrity" is a poignant and honest portrayal of the inner turmoil that many people with mental health struggles face. It highlights the need for greater understanding and compassion towards those who find it difficult to connect with others and suggests that self-forgiveness and self-love may be important steps towards healing.


Line by Line Meaning

There's a likely chance that if you're a girl I've met
I have a habit of daydreaming about a life together with any girl I meet


I've imagined a life with you
I have fanciful thoughts about being in a relationship with you


I know that probably sounds obsessive
I realize that my thoughts may come across as obsessive


But that's just what I do
However, daydreaming is a natural part of who I am


I am desperate, like a praying atheist
I am in great need of love and attention, but feel like it may not come to me


I need love, I need affection, and I hate myself for this
I crave love and affection from others, but feel guilty for wanting it


Get over yourself, I say under my breath
I criticize myself internally for being too needy and wanting too much attention


When I get annoyed by the thoughts in my head
I become frustrated and annoyed with myself for thinking about relationships too much


I don't deserve to say I'm sad, I don't know what sadness is
I feel like my problems are trivial and insignificant compared to others, and don't want to seem like I am complaining


I'm nothing more than complaints from a dumb spoilt kid
I feel like my concerns are childish and immature, and that others may view me as entitled


I crave love, I crave attention
I have an intense desire for love and affection from others


And I hate myself for this
However, I feel guilty and ashamed for wanting these things


I'm embarrassed by my depression
I feel ashamed and embarrassed about my struggles with depression


When I put things in perspective
However, when I try to view my problems in a larger context




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