Calling For Vanished Faces I
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If then, I meet You along the way
Where the laurel trees surround us on every side
If then, in a small place, I stand alone
And turn my head, and You smile there
If then, I reach out and touch Your Form
Where all Your silences and Your chaos meets
Where everything joins and parts
If I may once clutch Your Heart
And pull its beauty to my face
(There the bloodfall falls, redrivecracks)
Behind me lies blackmothermountain
The goats wheel round: great sign of lust
How much I wanted you
And oh Christ, how much more I want You now
The great pain, the great misery
To look and look
To look and look and look




And look And find
Nihil

Overall Meaning

The song "Calling For Vanished Faces I" by Current 93 is an exploration of a yearning for spiritual connection and understanding. The singer seems to be addressing a divine presence, perhaps Jesus Christ, and expressing a desire to encounter this entity in a physical form. The first stanza sets the scene: the singer imagines meeting this being in a place surrounded by laurel trees, and if this were to happen, they would be overjoyed to see the entity smile at them. The second stanza describes a desire to touch the physical form of the entity, to experience the meeting of both silence and chaos, and to grasp its heart and beauty. However, there is a sense of pain and misery attached to this yearning, as though the singer has been searching for this connection for a long time and is continually frustrated in the attempt. The final line of the song, "Nihil", suggests a recognition of the potential for meaninglessness in the quest for transcendence.


The lyrics of "Calling For Vanished Faces I" are highly metaphorical, which is typical of Current 93's lyrics. The use of laurel trees may symbolize victory or achievement, as these were often given as crowns to victorious soldiers in ancient Greece. The goats mentioned in the last stanza may represent lust or sin, as goats have been associated with these concepts in various traditions. The use of phrases like "redrivecracks" and "blackmothermountain" may be inventions of David Tibet, the primary songwriter for Current 93, or they may hold personal meanings that were not intended to be deciphered by listeners. Overall, the song captures the feeling of a longing for something beyond oneself, and the pain that often comes with such a quest for spiritual enlightenment.


Line by Line Meaning

If then, I meet You along the way
If I come across you while travelling


Where the laurel trees surround us on every side
In a place with a lot of greenery


If then, in a small place, I stand alone
If I'm alone in a small area


And turn my head, and You smile there
If I see you and you smile at me


If then, I reach out and touch Your Form
If I touch you


Where all Your silences and Your chaos meets
In a place where your silence and chaos coexist


Where everything joins and parts
In a place where everything comes together and separates


If I may once clutch Your Heart
If I can hold your heart


And pull its beauty to my face
And bring its beauty to my face


(There the bloodfall falls, redrivecracks)
(There is blood falling and red cracks are visible)


Behind me lies blackmothermountain
A black mountain is behind me


The goats wheel round: great sign of lust
A display of sexual desire from the goats circling around


How much I wanted you
How much I desired you


And oh Christ, how much more I want You now
How much more I desire you now


The great pain, the great misery
The intense pain and suffering


To look and look
To keep searching


To look and look and look
To keep searching repeatedly


And look And find
And finally find


Nihil
A reference to nihilism, or the belief in the absence of objective meaning and value in life




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Written by: H JONES

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The grass sleeps and waits to rise again...

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