Pulse
Cursive Lyrics

I'll never go back there
I refuse to revisit a place or memory that causes me pain or discomfort.

Don't make me go back there
I am asking you not to force me to confront something that I find too difficult or traumatic.

Now that god is an atheist
Now that I no longer believe in a higher power or greater purpose, I feel more at ease with the randomness and chaos of life.

Finally I can sleep at night
Because I no longer feel conflicted or burdened by my old beliefs, I am able to rest more easily.

In a hotel room with holes in the curtains
I find myself in a seedy or run-down location, surrounded by physical or metaphorical imperfections.

I shivered as she slid up my leg
I experienced a physical or emotional response to someone's advances, even though I knew it might not be in my best interest.

She could convince me a hundred hail mary's
The other person has an almost hypnotic power over me, able to sway me with words or actions.

She whispered "dear boy, your god is me"
The other person claims to be the source of salvation or guidance, and wants me to depend on them as a replacement for religion or faith.

I, don't, sleep, in this dead cold bed
The bed or sleeping situation feels uncomfortable or unwelcoming, and I am unable to rest properly as a result.

In a hotel room the color of her skin
The space I am in feels connected to the other person, and may be influenced or defined by their identity or characteristics.

Holes in the drapes spray beams of light
The flaws or gaps in the surrounding environment allow unexpected or unwanted elements to intrude, disrupting the flow of events.

Strangling lovers, were we kidding each other
Despite our attempts at connection or intimacy, we are ultimately causing each other pain or distress.

Gasping for breath, in poisonous lies
The interactions between us are harmful or destructive, and leave us feeling drained or suffocated.

In a hotel room (it was my second communion)
The events taking place feel significant or momentous, perhaps carrying a sense of ritual or ceremony.

Is that your blood cleansing my veins
The physical or emotional closeness I am experiencing may have consequences or implications that are difficult to fully understand or accept.

If three little angels (would peak in these curtains)
Even in this dark or sinful moment, I am still searching for some sign of hope or guidance to pull me out of it.

They'd whisper "dear boy, your mouth was too warm"
Even if I receive some kind of divine message or intervention, it may still be difficult to fully comprehend or act on.

Was too warm
My actions or words may have contributed to the negative or uncomfortable situation I now find myself in.