D'espairsRay (formerly typeset as DéspairsRay and +DéspairsRay+) was an ele… Read Full Bio ↴D'espairsRay (formerly typeset as DéspairsRay and +DéspairsRay+) was an electro-industrial metal/rock band hailing from Japan formed on September 9, 1999 by HIZUMI (vocals/lyricist, ex-Le'veil, currently in NUL.), Karyu (guitar/main composer, ex-Dieur Mind, currently in H.U.G), ZERO (bass, currently in THE MICRO HEAD 4N'S) and TSUKASA (drums/co-composer, ex-Le'veil, currently in THE MICRO HEAD 4N'S). They have maintained a consistent line-up since their inception.

The band’s foundation is built upon the expression of despair and hope. They describe their own music as “hard, electronic rock”, which incoporates and is influenced by several genres including but not limited to: industrial, metal, electronic, gothic rock, punk, and pop. Most songs have industrial and electronic based keyboards and heavy metal guitars and influences from pop music.

As of 2011, as well as internationally touring on several occasions, the quartet has released four studio albums, two best-of compilations, two EP's, 7 DVD's, 5 demo tapes and 14 singles. Due to vocalist HIZUMI’s ongoing throat condition, the band was on hiatus for six months. He planned to return once his condition would have been improved but in June 2011 D'espairsRay made the announcement that they had mutually decided to disband because HIZUMI'S condition was not improving.

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in vain
D'espairsRay Lyrics

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love and hate myself.There're perfect sensee love and hate myself.An overflowing avarice

Althougt it is not perfect...
I envy your perfection...Just let me be...no dirty tricks

××××　×××…××× ×××…
Nobody can fill my ego.
Nobody can violate me.

Nobody can do my style.
Therefore...I say...

無感覚に...
ばら撒け種を　月に昇る自我の快楽
ねぇ君の揺り籠で　揺らして　綺麗なprostitute

love and hate myself.There're anger senses
love and hate myself.Anoverfloxing idea

Althougt it is not perfect...俺はカラカラ微笑う
I envy your honesty.Don't look at my face

Nobody can fill my ego.
Nobody can violate me.
Nobody can do my style.
Therefore...so...

夜...
君と溶け合う　月を滑る完全な行為
ねぇ口の揺り籠で　濡らして　俺だけのprostitute

I will dom× ×at× your fuck× ×ass with ×ex.
Sex mi××t be the only thing ×at
I can dom× ×at× with.what tha f××k'em all!! just ××n't fuck ××th me.no××er fuc×××s dix

無感覚に...
ばら撒け種を　月に昇る自我の快楽
ねぇ君の揺り籠で　揺らして　綺麗なprostitute

夜...

Foreteller of the moon,lead me by your guidance,
if not sleep in silence

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of D'espairsRay's "In Vain" explore complex themes of self-love, envy, and an overwhelming desire to be perfect. The song begins with the lines "love and hate myself, there are perfect senses, love and hate myself, an overflowing avarice." Led by the self-love and marked by the self-hate, the singer expresses a desire to be perfect, envying the perfection of others, while conveying that they will not resort to dirty tricks to achieve their goal. The next verse follows the same pattern, with lyrics expressing a feeling of anger mixed with an overflowing idea, while the singer himself appears hollow within.

The next verse says that "nobody can fill my ego, nobody can violate me, nobody can do my style," thus suggesting that the singer strictly follows his/her values and ideas. Despite expressing a lack of feeling towards others, the singer desires to be touched by others, and the song continues, "I will dominate your f--k--ass with sex. Sex might be the only thing that I can dominate with. What the f--k, 'em all!! Just don't f--k with me, never f--k's Dix." The addition of these shocking and vulgar lyrics leads to a question of whether the lack of values and ideas is caused by society's corruption or the singer's own ethical depravity.

Line by Line Meaning

love and hate myself.There're perfect sensee love and hate myself.An overflowing avarice
I have conflicting feelings towards myself, I both love and hate myself. In some ways, it makes sense to feel this way because I have a strong desire for more than what I have.

Althougt it is not perfect... I envy your perfection...Just let me be...no dirty tricks
Even though my situation isn't perfect, I find myself envious of others who seem to have it all together. I just want to be left alone without any deceitful behavior.

××××　×××…××× ×××… Nobody can fill my ego. Nobody can violate me. Nobody can do my style. Therefore...I say...
No one can measure up to my sense of self-importance, nor can they infringe upon my boundaries or try to imitate my unique personality. That is why I declare that I am superior.

無感覚に... ばら撒け種を　月に昇る自我の快楽ねぇ君の揺り籠で　揺らして　綺麗なprostitute
I detach myself from my emotions and revel in the pleasure of being in total control. Hey, let me manipulate you and make you my beautiful prostitute.

love and hate myself.There're anger senses love and hate myself.Anoverfloxing idea
My mixed feelings towards myself have intensified even further, to the point where there is anger involved. At the same time, I am consumed by an overwhelming idea or desire.

Althougt it is not perfect...俺はカラカラ微笑う I envy your honesty.Don't look at my face
Although my life is far from perfect, I admire those who have honest and genuine qualities. Don't look at my expressionless face.

Nobody can fill my ego. Nobody can violate me. Nobody can do my style. Therefore...so...
There is no one who can match my level of self-regard, and I cannot be infringed upon or imitated. So there.

夜... 君と溶け合う　月を滑る完全な行為ねぇ口の揺り籠で　濡らして　俺だけのprostitute
At night, I engage in a perfect act of intimacy with you, as we lose ourselves in the moon's glow. Hey, let me make you wet in your mouth and be my personal prostitute.

I will dom× ×at× your fuck× ×ass with ×ex. Sex mi××t be the only thing ×at I can dom× ×at× with.what tha f××k'em all!! just ××n't fuck ××th me.no××er fuc×××s dix
I will dominate you sexually by f*cking your ass with my sex. Sex might be the only thing I can control, so who cares about anything else! Just don't try to have sex with me. No one messes with me.

無感覚に... ばら撒け種を　月に昇る自我の快楽ねぇ君の揺り籠で　揺らして　綺麗なprostitute
I am apathetic towards my emotions as I bask in the pleasure of my own ego. Hey, let me coerce you and make you my beautiful prostitute.

夜... Foreteller of the moon,lead me by your guidance, if not sleep in silence
At night, I look to the moon as a guide and hope that it will provide me with direction. If not, I'd rather be left in silence.

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