City
D.D.SOUND Masters Lyrics

Wanna pray but I feel like God don’t love me
I have a desire to pray but I feel unworthy of God's love.

Why, coz my heart so ugly
I feel this way because I believe I have an unappealing character or personality.

Can’t really blame if He judge me
I would not have any resentment if God decided to judge me.

Why when I need some love see
It's ironic that I feel unloved and undesirable when I am in need of love and affection.

That’s when the demons tug me
My inner demons seem to take advantage of me when I am most vulnerable.

Couple parasites they feeling hungry
I have some people in my life who only drain me of my resources and energy without giving anything back.

In my circle tryna bug me
The people in my immediate surroundings are trying to annoy or irritate me.

Got some bad habits tryna dust me
I have some bad habits that I am trying to kick, but they are proving to be challenging to overcome.

Trust me
Believe me, what I am saying is truthful and sincere.

Ain’t no angels above me
I feel as though I do not have any guardian angels watching over me.

Light it up and hear them cuss me
When I light up something (cigarette, joint), I feel as though other people around me are judging or talking negatively about me.

Got the feeling they ain’t here to buss me
I am paranoid that the people around me are not looking out for my best interests or protecting me.

See the white light tryna rush me
I feel as though there is a white light (symbolic of a near-death experience) trying to take me away in a hurry.

In the limelight, this a must see
Being in the spotlight is an essential or crucial experience for me, something that I must have.

Wait, I’m paranoid, oh shit I must be rusty
I am realizing that my paranoia could be getting the better of me, causing me to feel unsafe or vulnerable.

Still I puff and pass, now I’m feeling higher than I ever been
Despite everything, I continue indulging in smoking and getting high, which helps me feel lifted and euphoric beyond my previous experiences.

Couple fiends knocking on the doors now but I let em in
Some addicted people are trying to connect with me, but I am allowing them into my life regardless of the risk they pose to my well-being.

I told her I’m breaking her walls down if she let me in
I informed her that I am willing to let down my guard and become vulnerable if she allows me to connect with her on an intimate level.

She said fuck the talking it’s irrelevant, show me why you wanna call yourself veteran
She is not interested in talking about feelings, wants me to prove to her that I am experienced and skilled by showing her in some physical or tangible way.

She distracting and it’s evident but I prefer my distractions with melanin
I realize that she is distracting me from my goals and objectives, but I still find her attractive and desirable because she has dark skin.

If she ain’t thick I ain’t settling, whether she want me or not is irrelevant
I am only interested in being with women who have a curvaceous, voluptuous body type, and I do not care whether they reciprocate my feelings or not.

New pussy feeling heaven sent, but I just get it and go
When I meet a new woman to engage in sexual activities with, I feel fulfilled and gratified, but I only use her for a little while and then move on to the next one.

I know
I am aware of my patterns and behaviors, but I continue to act on them anyway.

Maybe it’s bad, but I’m just a kid with a soul
I recognize that my actions are not appropriate or virtuous, but I justify them by saying that I am young and still learning.

Living like I’m widdit but it take a toll
Despite trying to portray myself as carefree and unaffected, living in this manner is taking a toll on me.

Look into your eyes I feel you judging mo
When I look into your eyes, I sense that you are disapproving or finding me lacking in some way.

Will I ever pattern, only heaven knows
I am uncertain if I can change my ways or if I will continue living in this manner for the rest of my life.

Inner city ones
Referring to the people who live in the inner city, those who may be struggling with poverty, crime, and other urban challenges.

Inner city crew
A group of people who live in the inner city and may share a sense of camaraderie or loyalty to one another in navigating the challenges of life in that environment.

Sin city ones
Referring to those who live in places known for their vices and sinful behaviors, such as Las Vegas or certain neighborhoods in larger cities.

Sin city on my route
I frequently encounter situations or people related to sin or vice as I go about my daily life.

Fucking like I’m loose
Engaging in sexual activities with a sense of carefree abandon or lack of attachment to the other person.

City grabbing on my hooch
The various challenges and temptations of urban life (the 'city') are constantly grabbing at my attention and focus, particularly as it pertains to sex and relationships.

My driller, my driller, yeah I see you back on the road
Referring to someone who is known for their criminal behavior or violent tendencies (a 'driller'), I am aware that they are back to their old ways of living outside of the law.

My nigga, my nigga, yeah I thought you patterned the load
I believed that this particular person had turned around their life (or 'patterned up') and become more responsible, but I am now seeing that this is not the case.

One of my niggas is slacking, then everyone slacking, it’s code
If one of my friends or associates is not pulling their weight or contributing, then everyone else is affected, and this is an unwritten rule or code that we all live by.

Tryna pattern up my morals, but really I’m doing the most
I am trying to improve my ethical or moral standards, but in reality, I am overdoing it or making things too difficult for myself.

See, I’ve been so stuck on this image of how you perceive me
I am fixated on how other people see me and view me, and this preoccupation is affecting my actions and behavior.

That I ain’t been focused on how really you gone receive me
I am failing to consider how my actions and behavior will be received by others because I am too focused on how they are currently perceiving me.

I’ve taken L’s, so many lessons that precede me
I have experienced many 'losses' in my life, but I see them as lessons that have come before me and will help me grow and learn.

So many girls, I taught to love so they can leave me
I have been a mentor or teacher to many women, showing them how to love and perhaps building up their self-confidence, only to be left behind or rejected by them later on.

But, I’m a good youth, who just got bad karma
Despite my negative actions and behaviors, I believe that I am a fundamentally good person who has simply fallen prey to negative consequences or circumstances as a result of my karma.

Maybe coz I give out my peace, but it result in drama
Perhaps my attempts to maintain peace or promote positivity in my life are actually causing more strife or drama with the people around me.

Every time I search for the root, I first gotta seed through the trauma
Whenever I try to understand why I am behaving or feeling a certain way, I have to first sift through the emotional pain or trauma that may be underlying it.

My old ting told me “Damz, you’d make a terrible farmer”
Someone I used to date told me that I would not be very good at farming, which serves as an analogy for not being good at nurturing or caring for people or things.

But fuck could she know? she ain’t the one with the lens
I am dismissing her criticism because she is not in a position to truly understand or empathize with me and my struggles.

I only gave her this drilling so she could go telling her friends
I only engaged in sexual activity with her so she would have something to talk about with her friends or to make herself seem more advanced or attractive.

Picture perfect in the vision but I couldn’t love her, she weren’t from the ends
She may have seemed like an ideal partner or perfect match for me in many ways, but I ultimately did not love her because she did not share my background or come from a similar environment as me.

She was a blip in a circle of tens
She was only a temporary or fleeting presence in my life, and did not have the longevity or significance of the other people I choose to associate with.

And now she holla tryna make up amends, no way
She is now trying to reconnect or make up for past wrongs, but I have no interest in making amends or starting a new relationship with her.