Dutch Hardcore DJ & producer.

Originally used his full name for happ… Read Full Bio ↴Dutch Hardcore DJ & producer.

Originally used his full name for happy hardcore productions only and DJ Paul for hardcore gabber, but after the start of Offensive Records he used it for hardcore gabber as well.

Paul Elstak is the owner of Forze Records and a member of the Forze DJ Team.

Although DJ Paul Elstak was one of the people responsible for the dutch Happy Hardcore sound in the mid 90's, he nowadays claims to dislike this kind of music.

I Had to Kill a Lot of People
DJ Paul Elstak Lyrics

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Tonight I...
Uhhh, hahaha...
Just had to kill a lot of people!

I killed another girl with a chainsaw.
I killed Allan with an ane in the face.
His body is disolving in a bath-tub in hell′s kitchen.

I just had to kill a lot of people!

There are no more barriers to cross.
All I have in common with the uncontrollable
And the insane,
The vicious and the evil.
All the mayhem i have caused
And my utter indifference toward it,
I have now surpassed.
My pain is constant and sharp
And I do not hope for a better world for anyone.
In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others.
I want no one to escape.
But even after admitting this,
There is no catharsis.
My punishment continues to elude me
And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself.
No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling.
This confession has meant...
Nothing.

I killed my own girlfriend...
With a nailgun.
I killed another girl...
With a chainsaw.

My pain is constant and sharp
And I do not hope for a better world for anyone.
In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others.

I killed a lot of people.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of DJ Paul Elstak's "I Had to Kill a Lot of People" describe a disturbing and violent narrative of a person who has committed multiple murders using various weapons, including a chainsaw and a nail gun. The singer of the song confesses to the crimes and expresses a lack of remorse, instead expressing a desire for others to feel the same pain they do. The lyrics also suggest that the singer is aware of their own insanity and enjoys causing chaos and destruction.

The lines, "There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil" suggests that the singer has crossed a threshold into a state of madness and savagery. The description of the victims’ deaths and their deteriorating bodies is particularly gruesome, as seen in the line "His body is disolving in a bath-tub in hell’s kitchen."

The line, "My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone" implies that the singer is plagued by emotional turmoil, and that this pain has driven them to commit such heinous acts. The final line of the song, "I killed a lot of people" is a haunting statement that highlights the brutality of the singer’s actions.

Overall, the lyrics of "I Had to Kill a Lot of People" depict a disturbing narrative of a person who has given in to their violent and destructive impulses, leaving a trail of death and chaos in their wake.

Line by Line Meaning

Tonight I...
The singer is about to share a disturbing confession.

Uhhh, hahaha...
The singer is displaying a disturbing lack of empathy or remorse.

Just had to kill a lot of people!
The singer has recently committed multiple murders and feels no regret.

I killed another girl with a chainsaw.
The artist has used a chainsaw to commit a gruesome murder of a female victim.

I killed Allan with an ane in the face.
The artist has used a sharp object (possibly a knife or blade) to fatally wound a victim named Allan.

His body is disolving in a bath-tub in hell's kitchen.
The singer has disposed of Allan's body by dissolving it in acid or another chemical in a bathtub.

There are no more barriers to cross.
The singer has transcended all moral or ethical barriers in their actions and behavior.

All I have in common with the uncontrollable And the insane, The vicious and the evil.
The artist sees themselves as aligning with the most depraved and unstable members of society.

All the mayhem i have caused And my utter indifference toward it, I have now surpassed.
The artist is no longer affected by the chaos and destruction they have caused, as it has become routine.

My pain is constant and sharp And I do not hope for a better world for anyone.
The artist is consumed by their own personal anguish and sees no hope for a better future for themselves or others.

In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape.
The singer desires to inflict their own suffering onto others and has no regard for the wellbeing of others.

But even after admitting this, There is no catharsis.
The artist has not experienced any kind of emotional release or resolution through confessing their crimes.

My punishment continues to elude me And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself.
The singer has not faced any consequences or reckoning for their actions, and has not gained any greater understanding of themselves as a result.

No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant... Nothing.
The singer feels that sharing their crimes and motivations with the world has not led to any kind of enlightenment or closure, and that the act of confession itself is meaningless.

I killed my own girlfriend... With a nailgun.
The singer has murdered their own girlfriend using a nailgun.

I killed another girl... With a chainsaw.
The artist has used a chainsaw to commit another murder of a female victim.

My pain is constant and sharp And I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others.
The artist reiterates their intense suffering and desire to inflict harm onto others.

I killed a lot of people.
The singer repeats their admission of multiple murders, emphasizing the magnitude of their crimes.

Writer(s): Paul R Elstak

Contributed by Evelyn W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.

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