I Miss You
DMX Lyrics

I know that my savior lives
I believe in the resurrection of Jesus Christ

And at the end, he will stand on this earth
I believe in the second coming of Christ

My flesh may be destroyed, yet from this body, I will see God
My physical body may perish, but my soul will live on and return to God

Yes, I will see him for myself and I long for that moment
I eagerly anticipate the day when I will see God face to face

Grandma, I really miss you and it ain't been the same
I deeply feel the absence of my grandmother and my life has changed as a result

I drop a tear when I, hear yo' name
I feel emotional and sad when I hear my grandmother's name mentioned

Mariella Holloway, why you gotta be so far away?
I wish my grandmother was still alive and close to me

Used to say, "Don't worry, it's gon' be okay" (yeah)
My grandmother used to comfort me with these words when I was feeling upset or anxious

But it ain't it's like when you left, you took the Lord wit' you
It feels like the presence of God left with my grandmother when she passed away

Why couldn't I come when he came to get you?
I wish I could have gone with my grandmother when she was taken by God

Damn, I really miss you, I had to say it again
I feel a strong sense of loss and I need to express it again

I remember the time when I was like ten
I have fond memories of spending time with my grandmother when I was younger

Crept up in the neighbor's yard, yeah, bein' hard-headed
I was misbehaving and not listening to my grandmother's warnings

You told me I would get it, you said it
My grandmother warned me that my bad behavior would have negative consequences

And boy did I get it but after you spanked me, you hugged me (uh-huh)
My grandmother disciplined me, but then showed me love and compassion afterwards

Kissed me on my forehead, told me that you love me
My grandmother showed me affection and reassured me of her love

And I saw, that it hurt you, more than it hurt me
I realized that my grandmother hated having to discipline me, but did it out of love

I thought how bad could this hurt be? I know now
As a child, I didn't fully understand the pain my grandmother was feeling, but I do now

That's why it's only done out of love
Discipline is only effective when it comes from a place of love and concern

What I wouldn't give for one mo' hug, from grandma
I deeply miss my grandmother's physical presence and wish I could hug her again

Baby it's gon' be okay (oh yes it will)
My grandmother used to reassure me that everything would be alright

(She used to tell me that)
My grandmother was the one who comforted and encouraged me in difficult times

What I'm about to say a couple of family members is gon' hate me
I am about to share some uncomfortable truths that may upset certain family members

But I'ma let you know what's been goin' on lately (aight)
I want to keep my grandmother updated on the current state of our family

Now you know since you left, a lot of things wit' yo' kids done changed (uh-huh)
A lot has changed in the family since my grandmother passed away

Yeah, Jackie's still crazy, don't know what's up with James
Some family members are still struggling and others are hard to understand

Ain't seen Jerry in a while, you know he walk like you (uh-huh)
I haven't seen some relatives in a long time, but I still remember and miss certain things about them

And Renee's back in jail, you know she talk like you (uh)
One family member is currently incarcerated and reminds me of my grandmother in certain ways

Riculah's doin' real good now, she workin'
One relative is doing well and has a job

Rhonda's still runnin' around, trickin', jerkin' (uh, uh, uh)
Another relative is still struggling with certain issues

Buckeye's buggin', he done lost his mind
One family member is not doing well mentally

And Jarvis? Back out of jail, doin' fine (good)
One family member has recently gotten out of jail and is doing okay

Kylie? He done changed, it ain't all about self
One relative has undergone a positive change and is less selfish now

As for my father, well, that's somethin' else
I have complicated feelings about my own father and our relationship

Bob that's my dawg, he hold his grandmother down
One relative is loyal and supportive of our grandmother's memory

My great grandmother, makin' a lot of trips out of town
Our great grandmother is still healthy and active, traveling frequently

But that's a good thing and if I could only hear you sing
I am grateful for the good things happening in our family, but I still miss my grandmother

Once more, oh Lord, the comfort it would bring (oh baby, everything)
I would give anything to hear my grandmother's voice again and feel her comfort

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
I am reflecting on the hymn 'Amazing Grace'

That saved a wretch like me
The song reminds me of the grace and mercy of God

I once was lost, but now I'm found
The song speaks to my experience of finding hope and purpose through faith

Was blind, but now I see, yeah
I used to be spiritually blind, but now I have clarity and understanding