Slippin
DMX (wapos.ru) Lyrics

Ay yo I'm slippin', I'm fallin', I can't get up
I am struggling and failing to keep myself moving forward.

Ay yo I'm slippin', I'm fallin', I gots to get up
I know I need to figure out a way to start succeeding again.

Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up
I need to feel strong and able to take on life's challenges.

I've been through mad different phases like mazes, to find my way
I have experienced many different struggles and setbacks, trying to figure out my path in life.

And now I know that happy days are not far away
Despite everything I've been through, I believe there is still hope for a better future.

If I'm strong enough I'll live long enough to see my kids
One of my biggest motivations is to be there for my children and watch them grow up.

Doing something more constructive with their time than bids
I hope my children will have productive, fulfilling lives and not end up in trouble with the law.

I know because I been there
I understand the struggles my children might face, because I've been through similar experiences.

Now I'ma there sit back and look
I am taking time to reflect on my past and examine what got me to this point.

At what it took for me to get there
I am examining the challenges and hardships that I had to overcome to get to where I am now.

First came the bullshit the drama with my Mama
My struggles began with difficulties in my relationship with my mother.

She got on some fly shit so I split
I had to leave home because of problems with my mother's behavior.

And said that I'ma be that seed
I decided that I would be the one to break the cycle of dysfunction in my family.

That doesn't need much to succeed
I believe that with hard work and determination, I can overcome my obstacles and succeed.

Strapped with mad greed
I am motivated to succeed by my intense desire to achieve greatness.

And a heart that doesn't bleed
I have become hardened and unfeeling as a result of all the pain and struggle in my life.

I'm ready for the world or at least I thought I was
I used to believe that I was ready to take on anything, but now I'm not so sure.

Bagging niggas when I caught a buzz
I used to feel powerful and invincible when I was drunk or high.

For thinking about how short I was
I was constantly comparing myself to others and feeling inadequate.

Going too fast, it wouldn't last but yo I couldn't tell
I was moving too quickly and recklessly, but I was too blinded by my own ego to see the consequences.

Group homes and institutions, prepared my ass for jail
I spent time in juvenile detention facilities, which only made me more likely to end up in prison someday.

They put me in a situation forcing me to be a man
My difficult circumstances forced me to grow up quickly and take responsibility for my actions.

When I was just learning to stand without a helping hand
I had to learn how to be independent and self-sufficient at a young age.

Damn, was it my fault, something I did
I constantly blame myself for my struggles and wonder if there was anything I could have done differently.

To make a father leave his first kid at seven doin my first bid
My father left me when I was just a child, and I ended up in trouble with the law soon after.

Back on the scene at fourteen with a scheme
I tried to turn my life around at a young age with a new plan for success.

To get more cream than I'd ever seen in a dream
I wanted wealth and success beyond my wildest imagination.

And by all means I will be living high off the hog
I was determined to become wildly successful and enjoy all the luxuries that come with it.

And I never gave a fuck about much but my dog
My only true loyalty and companionship was to my pet dog.

That's my only muthafucka I had offered my last
My dog was the only living being that I truly cared about and was willing to make sacrifices for.

Just another little nigga headed nowhere fast
I felt like a lost cause, just another person going nowhere fast.

That ain't the half shit get's worse as I get older
Things just got worse as I got older, and my struggles continued to pile up.

Actions become bolder, heart got colder
I became more reckless and hardened as I tried to deal with my problems.

Chip on my shoulder that I dared a nigga to touch
I was always on the lookout for a fight, daring anyone to try to mess with me.

Didn't need a clique cause I scared a nigga that much
I was so intimidating that I didn't need a group to back me up.

One deep with the pit starting shit for kicks
I would start trouble with people just for the fun of it, going at it alone.

Catching Vicks throwing bricks gettin by being slick
I would get away with my misdeeds by being sneaky and avoiding getting caught.

Used to get high to get by used to have to puff my L
I turned to drugs as a way to escape my problems and cope with my struggles.

In the morning before I get fly
I needed to get high before I could even start my day.

Ate something a couple of forties made me hate something
Drinking too much made me miserable and resentful.

I did some coke now I'm ready to take something
My drug use had escalated to the point where I was willing to risk everything to get my fix.

Three years later showing signs of stress
My drug addiction was taking a severe toll on my physical and mental health.

Didn't keep my hair cut or give a fuck how I dressed
I had stopped taking care of myself and let my appearance go.

I'm possessed by the darker side living the cruddy life
My addiction had taken control of my life, leading me down a path of darkness and misery.

Shit like this kept a nigga with a bloody knife
My addiction and struggles were so intense that they could have driven me to violence.

Wanna make records but I'm fucking it up
I had aspirations of success in the music industry, but my addiction was ruining my chances.

I'm slippin', I'm falling, I can't get up
I have hit rock bottom and can't figure out how to get back on track.

Wasn't long before I hit rock bottom
Things went from bad to worse very quickly for me.

Niggas talking shit was like damn look how that rock got him
Others looked down on me and talked negatively about my addiction.

Open like a window
I was completely exposed and vulnerable.

No more endo
I had to give up smoking weed.

Look at a video
I would watch music videos and dream of my own success.

Sayin' to myself that could've been yo
I would imagine myself as the successful artist in the videos.

Ass on the TV
I wanted to see myself on TV, but not like this.

Believe me, it could be done
I knew that I was capable of success, if only I could get my life back on track.

Something's got to give
I knew that my current path was unsustainable and that I needed to change something.

Gots to change cause I've got a son
My love for my child was the primary motivation for changing my life.

I gots to do the right thing for shorty
I knew that I had to be a positive influence and example for my child.

And that means no more gettin' high, drinkin' 40s
I had to give up my destructive habits in order to be a better parent.

So I get back looking type slick again
I started taking care of myself and presenting myself in a more positive way.

Fake niggas jump back on my dick again
People who had previously abandoned me were suddenly interested in being around me again now that I was doing better.

Nothing but love for those that know how it feel
I have a deep sense of appreciation and empathy for others who have struggled and overcome obstacles.

And much respect to all my niggas that kept it real
I am grateful to the friends who stood by me and supported me throughout my struggles.

Kept a nigga strong, kept a nigga from doing wrong
My friends and loved ones gave me the strength and support I needed to stay on the right path.

Niggas know who they is and this is yo fucking song
My friends know who they are, and this song is dedicated to them.

And to my boo who stuck with a nigga through
I am grateful to my partner for being there for me through all my struggles.

All the bullshit you'll get yours because it's due
I know that my loved ones will be rewarded for their support and loyalty because they deserve it.