Gross
Danny Denial Lyrics
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I can't get off the floor
I think I've beat oppression
I don't care anymore
I think I'm suicidal
I think my switch is stuck
I think I'm my own rival
I think I'm my worst fuck
I think therefore I fucking know
I'm too aware of what I know
Of who I could have might have been
Of who I never trusted in
The thesis of the rise and fall
The burning of the Trojan walls
I used to walk but now I crawl
I used to walk but now I crawl
Gross
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I think I'm losing brain cells
I think I'm going dumb
I think they think that sex sells
I think that's their problem
I think I think too damn much
Maybe I don't at all
I guess I've missed the point in
Chasing after a ball
I think therefore I fucking know
I'm too aware of what I know
Of who I could have might have been
Of who I never trusted in
The thesis of the rise and fallThe burning of the Trojan walls
I used to walk but now I crawl
I used to walk but now I crawl
Gross
Gross
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I'm hiding cause I'm paranoid
And running cause my will's destroyed
Still hiding cause I'm paranoid
And running to avoid the void
I'm writing down a list of all
The things I had before the fall
I used to walk but now I crawl
I used to walk but now I crawl
I'm gross
Gross
Gross
Danny Denial's song "Gross" delves into themes of mental health struggles, self-doubt, and the broader implications of societal expectations. The opening lines introduce a deeply personal battle with depression and oppression, capturing the sentiment of feeling trapped and defeated. The imagery of being stuck on the floor signifies both a physical and emotional paralysis, a place where it’s challenging to mobilize or find hope. The phrase "I think I’m my worst fuck" symbolizes a profound internal conflict, where the singer acknowledges that their greatest enemy is themselves—a reflection on self-sabotage and the harsh judgments that often accompany mental illness. This candid admission sets a raw tone for the rest of the song, emphasizing that these feelings are not just fleeting but deeply ingrained in the singer's psyche.
As the song progresses, the repetitive declaration "I think therefore I fucking know" reinforces the self-awareness that can become a burden. The juxtaposition between knowledge and awareness leads to a sense of paralysis, as being acutely conscious of failures and past choices can prevent one from truly moving forward. The references to historical and mythological events, such as "the thesis of the rise and fall" and "the burning of the Trojan walls," offer a metaphorical backdrop for the singer's personal struggles. The rise and fall can be seen as a cycle of hope and disillusionment, portraying the singer's journey as they grapple with their own potential and the decay of their mental state. The repetition of "I used to walk but now I crawl" serves as a powerful reflection on lost vitality; it evokes the stark realization of how far the singer feels they’ve fallen from a place of strength and confidence.
The chorus and verses later expand to critique societal norms, particularly with the line about sex selling. This suggests the singer's frustration not just with their own life but with external pressures that view worth and identity through a narrow lens. The notion of thinking "too damn much" speaks to the paralyzing nature of over-analysis, where self-reflection can spiral into a cycle of futility rather than clarity. It ultimately portrays a sense of lost purpose, as chasing societal validations feels increasingly meaningless—a metaphorical "ball" that eludes true fulfillment. It's a stark contrast to a time when the singer felt empowered, emphasizing the duality of ambition and ultimate collapse.
In the latter half of the song, themes of paranoia and avoidance emerge, indicating a deepening struggle with mental health. The repeated lines about hiding and running highlight a sense of fear and alienation, where the singer feels they must escape their own thoughts and the reality they face. The list of things "had before the fall" evokes nostalgia and loss, reflecting on what once was now overshadowed by despair. This encapsulates the human experience of longing for better days, while also serving as a painful reminder of the present. The insistence on crawling as opposed to walking acts as a continual lamentation on the debilitating nature of their mental state, making "Gross" a poignant portrayal of how internal battles manifest into tangible feelings of worthless existence and resignation. The constant repetition of "gross" becomes a powerful statement of self-loathing, embodying a sense of defeat that lingers throughout the narrative.
Line by Line Meaning
I think I caught depression
I believe I've developed a profound sadness that weighs heavily on me.
I can't get off the floor
I feel so overwhelmed that I am unable to rise from my current state of despair.
I think I've beat oppression
I feel as though I have overcome societal or personal forces that have constrained me.
I don't care anymore
I've reached a point of apathy where nothing seems to matter to me.
I think I'm suicidal
I am contemplating life-ending thoughts and feel a deep sense of hopelessness.
I think my switch is stuck
I feel trapped in a specific state of mind, unable to change or feel differently.
I think I'm my own rival
I perceive myself as my own worst enemy, struggling with my internal conflicts.
I think I'm my worst fuck
I believe that my biggest source of pain and disappointment arises from my own actions.
I think therefore I fucking know
My reflections on existence convince me of my understanding, albeit with frustration.
I'm too aware of what I know
I am painfully conscious of my thoughts and realizations to the point of distress.
Of who I could have might have been
I am haunted by the potential versions of myself that I never became.
Of who I never trusted in
I feel regret over the people or aspects of myself I didn't have faith in, resulting in missed connections.
The thesis of the rise and fall
I reflect on the cyclical nature of success and failure throughout life.
The burning of the Trojan walls
I am reminded of major destruction or betrayal, much like the fall of Troy, representing profound loss.
I used to walk but now I crawl
I once experienced movement and progress, but now I feel incapacitated and stagnant.
I used to walk but now I crawl
Reiterating my loss of momentum, emphasizing the drastic change in my state of being.
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I find my current state of existence distasteful and repugnant.
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Reaffirming my disgust with life's circumstances as I perceive them.
I think I'm losing brain cells
I feel as if my mental capacity is diminishing, struggling to think clearly.
I think I'm going dumb
I believe that my cognitive abilities are deteriorating, leading to ignorance.
I think they think that sex sells
I acknowledge a societal belief that sexual attraction is a key to commercial success.
I think that's their problem
I see that this superficial approach is ultimately a flawed mindset causing issues.
I think I think too damn much
I am consumed by my thoughts, to the extent that it becomes overwhelming and paralyzing.
Maybe I don't at all
I question whether my overthinking is just an illusion, perhaps I am simply numb.
I guess I've missed the point in
I recognize that I might have lost sight of what is truly important in life.
Chasing after a ball
I feel as though I have been pursuing trivial goals that lack real significance.
I think therefore I fucking know
Once again, I assert my belief that my consciousness and introspection lead to undeniable truths.
I'm too aware of what I know
My acute awareness of my own knowledge burdens me, leaving little room for peace.
Of who I could have might have been
The potential paths I could have taken weigh heavily on my mind.
Of who I never trusted in
I carried an absence of trust towards parts of myself or others, leading to regret.
The thesis of the rise and fall
Reflections on the ebb and flow of life's highs and lows continue to resonate with me.
The burning of the Trojan walls
The notion of destruction and betrayal lingers, as it represents my inner turmoil.
I used to walk but now I crawl
Reiterating my transition from movement and progress to immobility and despair.
I used to walk but now I crawl
Again conveying the significant shift in my ability to navigate life.
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Affirming the negative sentiment I hold about my personal circumstances.
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Restating my feelings of distaste for my current emotional and mental state.
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Amplifying my feelings of disgust and discomfort with an unrelenting emphasis.
I'm hiding cause I'm paranoid
I find myself withdrawing due to my intense feelings of insecurity and fear.
And running cause my will's destroyed
I feel compelled to escape because my motivation and drive have been shattered.
Still hiding cause I'm paranoid
Despite my efforts, the fear and paranoia continue to confine me.
And running to avoid the void
I desperately seek to escape an overwhelming emptiness that I dread confronting.
I'm writing down a list of all
I am meticulously documenting my past experiences and possessions, reflecting on what I've lost.
The things I had before the fall
I long for the aspects of my life that were fulfilling and meaningful before my decline.
I used to walk but now I crawl
Repeating the sentiment of loss and a drastic change in my ability to engage with life.
I used to walk but now I crawl
Reiterating my descent from a state of agency to one of helplessness.
I'm gross
I find my condition and emotional state deeply unappealing.
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Once again affirming the distaste I feel towards myself and my circumstances.
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Underscoring the overwhelming sensation that I am in a repugnant place in life.
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Written by: Danny Denial
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