Dark Lotus made its debut with the single "Echo Side", which was later released on Insane Clown Posse's 1999 album The Amazing Jeckel Brothers. It was later announced that each member "would act as a 'petal' of the lotus," and that there would be six members. After speculation as to who the sixth member would be, including rumors that Esham would join the group, it was announced that Marz would be a member.
Dark Lotus released their first album, Tales from the Lotus Pod, in 2001. Mike E. Clark was brought in to produce the album, but left the project after producing four songs, and Fritz the Cat produced the rest of the album. The album peaked at #1 on the Billboard Heatseekers chart, #6 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and #158 on the Billboard 200. Marz left the group, and was replaced by James Lowery. In 2002, Tales from the Lotus Pod was reissued in a new version removing Marz' vocals. On April 6, 2004, Dark Lotus released their second studio album, Black Rain. It peaked at #3 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and at #71 on the Billboard 200.
Lowery left the group, and a third album, The Opaque Brotherhood, was released without him. It peaked at #4 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #23 on the Top R&B/Hip-Hop Albums chart, #45 on the Top Internet Albums chart, and #45 on the Billboard 200.[4] Allrovi reviewer Stewart Mason praised the album, writing "Nothing on The Opaque Brotherhood will convince anyone who isn't already a fan, but the tormented lyrics and matter-of-fact delivery remove a layer or two of distance and artifice from the band's familiar themes, and make them that much more disturbing as a result.".
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Dark Lotus Lyrics
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Backwards from point of destruction
The end is my introduction
Watch it unfold as I transcend
Transcends as I watch it unfold.
Smash head first into on coming traffic
Missed the red light cause' I was driving erratic.
Lights blurrin' by me makin' it hard for me to see straight
Eyes all glossy and my brain on tilt,
Got out the car man, fuck a seatbelt
Stumblin, lookin' for my keys to my car.
Mighty mighty drunk now, back at the bar.
Blood all over, now it's seeping back
And the bullet is returning to the gun under my chin
Sirens disappear from the front of my house
Weird 911 asking what the emergency about
I' m goin' crazy insane, tryin to maintain, everything I love is causing me all the pain.
My family's all gone, check the message on the phone.
Turn the lights on, cause' I just got home .
[Chorus: x2]
Backwards from point of destruction
The end is my introduction
Watch it unfold as I transcend
Transcends as I watch it unfold.
I kissed her lips, shut her eyes, and stepped away
I grabbed the knife out her throat and hear her say
"She doesn't love me" but she doesn't see the blade that I sunk into her house with through
The window in the rain.
Keeps pouring as I stand on her steps, before I walk up I pause and take a deep breath
Pull up in the drive and shut the lights off
I keep thinkin' man "I can't get caught"
I'm in a frantic-panic
I committed a sin
Shirt soaked in bloody shit down to my skin
Now the deed is done, the hole is sealed tight
This bitches' bones will never again see the light
I remember pickin' up the pole for the bludgeoning
And the mile of following that you might call stalking
It ain't my fault she next to me at the bar
That's the hoe that's been polluting my dreams
[Chorus: x2]
Backwards from point of destruction
The end is my introduction
Watch it unfold as I transcend
Transcends as I watch it unfold.
The bullet flew out his neck and up my gun barrel
My finger raised off the trigger, and stayed curled
I lifted up off my back, and now I'm standing
His fist pulled outta' my eye- he's demanding
My jacket and wallet, but I walk in reverse
Backup outta' the alley I shoulda' passed in the first place.
Now time and chance are on my side
The inevitable has been denied.
[Chorus:]
Backwards from point of destruction
The end is my introduction
Watch it unfold as I transcend
Transcends as I watch it unfold
The song "Backwards" by Dark Lotus is a dark and intense narrative that describes the singer's descent into chaos, violence, and ultimately, self-destruction. The chorus sets the tone of the song, with the idea that everything is happening in reverse, with destruction being the starting point and transcendence being the end. It suggests that the singer is trapped in a never-ending cycle of destruction and regeneration, unable to escape his own fate.
The first verse describes the singer's reckless behavior while driving, with the heavy imagery of driving backward at a hundred miles an hour, eyes all glossy, and brain on tilt. He crashes into oncoming traffic, gets out of the car, and stumbles out, looking for the keys to his car. The intensity of the situation is palpable, with blood all over, and the bullet returning to the gun under his chin, indicating a suicidal moment.
In the second verse, the singer commits a terrible crime, killing someone with a knife. He describes his actions in gruesome detail, and it's clear that he's not remorseful. The lyrics suggest that he's been obsessed with this person, and he's been stalking her for a while. The chorus comes back again, emphasizing the cyclical aspect of the narrative, suggesting that the singer is stuck in this pattern of violence and death.
Line by Line Meaning
Backwards from point of destruction
Starting from the point where everything falls apart
The end is my introduction
The end of one situation leads into a new beginning
Watch it unfold as I transcend
Observe as I rise above the chaos
Transcends as I watch it unfold.
I am elevated as I observe the events
Smash head first into oncoming traffic
Act recklessly and expect the worst
Missed the red light cause' I was driving erratic.
Disregard the rules and put yourself in danger
Backwards 100 miles an hour down the e-way
Travel at high speeds in the wrong direction of progress
Lights blurring by me making it hard for me to see straight
Being blinded by the distractions of life leading to confusion and disorientation
Eyes all glossy and my brain on tilt,
Being under the influence and losing mental control
Got out the car man, fuck a seatbelt
Acting recklessly without regard for safety
Stumbling, looking for my keys to my car.
Being lost and scattered without direction
Mighty mighty drunk now, back at the bar.
Returning to the source of destruction and continuing the cycle
Blood all over, now it's seeping back
The consequences of actions returning to the source
And the bullet is returning to the gun under my chin
The realization that one's own actions can lead to self-destruction
Sirens disappear from the front of my house
Losing hope for rescue and being alone in the chaos
Weird 911 asking what the emergency about
The feeling of being misunderstood and not being able to communicate the urgency of the situation
I' m goin' crazy insane, tryin to maintain, everything I love is causing me all the pain.
The feeling of being overwhelmed and unable to cope with the pain of life
My family's all gone, check the message on the phone.
The realization that one's own actions can have profound consequences on those around them
Turn the lights on, cause' I just got home .
Realizing the consequences of one's actions and returning to one's normal routine
I kissed her lips, shut her eyes, and stepped away
A cold and calculated act of violence
I grabbed the knife out her throat and hear her say
The final words of someone who was violently killed
"She doesn't love me" but she doesn't see the blade that I sunk into her house with through
The distorted thinking of a violent and disturbed person
The window in the rain.
The cold and detached nature of the murder happening in mundane circumstances
Keeps pouring as I stand on her steps, before I walk up I pause and take a deep breath
The realization and gravity of the situation starting to set in
Pull up in the drive and shut the lights off
Trying to avoid getting caught after committing a heinous act
I keep thinkin' man "I can't get caught"
The fear and paranoia after committing a crime
I'm in a frantic-panic
The anxiety and fear of getting caught
I committed a sin
Accepting the responsibility of one's actions
Shirt soaked in bloody shit down to my skin
The physical evidence of the heinous act committed
Now the deed is done, the hole is sealed tight
The realization that what has been done cannot be undone
This bitches' bones will never again see the light
The finality and brutality of the act committed
I remember pickin' up the pole for the bludgeoning
The calculated and premeditated nature of the violent act
And the mile of following that you might call stalking
The obsessive and disturbing behavior leading up to the act of violence
It ain't my fault she next to me at the bar
The feeling of entitlement and justification for violence
That's the hoe that's been polluting my dreams
The distorted and delusional thinking of a violent and disturbed person
The bullet flew out his neck and up my gun barrel
The realization that one's own violent actions can lead to self-destruction
My finger raised off the trigger, and stayed curled
The realization that it's not too late to prevent further destruction
I lifted up off my back, and now I'm standing
Feeling empowered and capable after the realization that destruction can be avoided
His fist pulled outta' my eye- he's demanding
The realization that violent actions can lead to retaliation
My jacket and wallet, but I walk in reverse
The need to undo the destructive actions and make amends
Backup outta' the alley I shoulda' passed in the first place.
The realization that some paths and decisions should not have been taken in the first place
Now time and chance are on my side
The recognition that there is a chance for redemption and change
The inevitable has been denied.
The realization that it's never too late for change and redemption
[Chorus: x2]
Reiterating the main message of the song
Backwards from point of destruction
Starting from the point where everything falls apart
The end is my introduction
The end of one situation leads into a new beginning
Watch it unfold as I transcend
Observe as I rise above the chaos
Transcends as I watch it unfold.
I am elevated as I observe the events
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