Dark Lotus made its debut with the single "Echo Side", which was later released on Insane Clown Posse's 1999 album The Amazing Jeckel Brothers. It was later announced that each member "would act as a 'petal' of the lotus," and that there would be six members. After speculation as to who the sixth member would be, including rumors that Esham would join the group, it was announced that Marz would be a member.
Dark Lotus released their first album, Tales from the Lotus Pod, in 2001. Mike E. Clark was brought in to produce the album, but left the project after producing four songs, and Fritz the Cat produced the rest of the album. The album peaked at #1 on the Billboard Heatseekers chart, #6 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and #158 on the Billboard 200. Marz left the group, and was replaced by James Lowery. In 2002, Tales from the Lotus Pod was reissued in a new version removing Marz' vocals. On April 6, 2004, Dark Lotus released their second studio album, Black Rain. It peaked at #3 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and at #71 on the Billboard 200.
Lowery left the group, and a third album, The Opaque Brotherhood, was released without him. It peaked at #4 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #23 on the Top R&B/Hip-Hop Albums chart, #45 on the Top Internet Albums chart, and #45 on the Billboard 200.[4] Allrovi reviewer Stewart Mason praised the album, writing "Nothing on The Opaque Brotherhood will convince anyone who isn't already a fan, but the tormented lyrics and matter-of-fact delivery remove a layer or two of distance and artifice from the band's familiar themes, and make them that much more disturbing as a result.".
Falling
Dark Lotus Lyrics
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Do not jump sir please whatever you do please do not jump.
Yea hi look uh, there's a guy and he's on a building, uh and he looks like he's gonna jump.
Yea I uh I'm on the... I am on uh, fuck, do you know where we are? JUMP!
Why the hell are you telling him to jump? JUMP! DON'T JUMP!
[Violent J:]
I don't get this
Never get to forget this
Not even on Christmas
No way to dismiss this
What the fuck is this
They tell me it's all in my head why can't I get a witness
Fuck it I was never meant to be and now my own hater
Up the elevator
On the rooftop seconds later
Lookin over the ledge about to plunge
Take a deep breath in my lungs
Here the street comes
[Blaze Ya Dead Homie:]
This is it, my last step, my last crawl
My last attempt to reach out and touch the one to call
My phone's been cut off and bills are pilin up so high
I'm on this ledge and fully prepared to die
Police lights litterin streets beneath my feet
Fifty stories below I can here them hollering, "Freeze
It's all okay, just give it another day."
They turn to screams as I step off and drift away
[Chorus:]
I'm fallin, drop to the bottom fast
Death on impact, about to crash
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
I'm fallin, drop to the bottom fast
Death on impact, about to crash
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
[Monoxide Child:]
You think I'm doin this shit for fun
The second time in a week, but the first was just a practice run
Don't need a gun to end all of my suffering
All I need to do is jump, get these evil voices outta me
You don't love the fact that every night
You hear whispers convincing you to end it all by daylight
I'm about to take flight and shut em all up
Just thought I'd let you know the real reason that Paul jumped
[Shaggy 2 Dope:]
I'm lookin over this ledge at these matchbox cars
Fifty-seven levels up and ya hit that concrete hard
Why my meds don't work no more
Why my doc quit on me
I rung his neck, his eyes popped, he don't wanna see me obviously
Now I'm waitin for my balls to grind this concrete and crumble
A gang of mother fuckers sayin, "Don't do it you won't see no trouble"
Next thing I know I heard loud screams holy fuck
The ground's comin my way mighty fast cause I just jumped
[Chorus:]
I'm fallin, drop to the bottom fast
Death on impact, about to crash
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
I'm fallin, drop to the bottom fast
Death on impact, about to crash
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
I'm fallin, ahhhhhhhhh, death on impact about to crash
Fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin, fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin
I'm fallin, ahhhhhhhhh, death on impact about to crash
Fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin, fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin
[Jamie Madrox:]
My fingers scratch into the building as I pull up and climb
Feel like I'm a spider inside of my mind
Passin windows up with every story up I go
Takin a look inside, people sittin in cubicles
While I'm out here losin it, scalin the bricks
The higher up that I crawl the more that I'm feelin sick
Once I get to the top I can let it all go
As I fall through the air to the sidewalk below
[Chorus:]
I'm fallin, drop to the bottom fast
Death on impact, about to crash
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
I'm fallin, drop to the bottom fast
Death on impact, about to crash
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
Fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin, fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
Fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin, fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
Fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin, fuck fuck dyin, fuck dyin
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
I've been given another chance to live, fuck dyin
The song "Falling" by Dark Lotus describes the horrifying and unsettling thoughts that can plague a person's mind, leading them to contemplate suicide. Throughout the song, each member of the group chronicles their own personal demons and how they inevitably lead to the decision to jump off a building. The sense of urgency and desperation is palpable, as each member conveys the profound sense of hopelessness that can beset someone who is struggling with suicidal ideation.
The song opens with a phone conversation between an emergency operator and a person who spots someone on a building that might be about to jump. From there, each rapper tells a different story of despair, culminating in the decision to jump off the building. However, as they fall towards their certain death, something miraculous happens: they begin to fly. This surreal and fantastical twist adds an element of hope to the otherwise bleak song, implying that even when things seem impossibly bleak, there is always a chance for redemption and a new lease on life.
Overall, "Falling" is a poignant and provocative exploration of the complex emotions underlying suicide. The sense of isolation and desperation that each rapper conveys is incredibly powerful, and the song serves as a stark reminder of the importance of mental health support and resources.
Line by Line Meaning
Do not jump sir please whatever you do please do not jump.
A plea to a person who is on the top of a building, to prevent them from jumping and ending their life.
I don't get this
The singer is confused and unable to comprehend the situation they find themselves in.
Fuck sickness and livin with this
The singer is cursing their own illness and the struggles of dealing with it on a daily basis.
Never get to forget this
The singer is plagued with a constant reminder of their difficulties and cannot escape it.
Not even on Christmas
The singer cannot escape their struggles, even on holidays that are supposed to be joyous and happy.
No way to dismiss this
The singer has no way to ignore or forget their struggles.
What the fuck is this
The singer is frustrated and confused by their struggles and cannot make sense of them.
They tell me it's all in my head why can't I get a witness
The singer's struggles are dismissed as being in their head, but they want others to understand and acknowledge their pain.
This is it, my last step, my last crawl
The singer is ready to take their own life and has climbed to the top of a building to jump off.
My last attempt to reach out and touch the one to call
The singer is reaching out to someone they love, but cannot connect with them and feels alone.
Police lights litterin streets beneath my feet
The singer can see the police and emergency services below, waiting to intervene if they jump.
I float up and around now I'm somehow flyin
After jumping off the building, the singer feels weightless and free, as if they are flying.
You think I'm doin this shit for fun
The singer is not taking their own life as a joke or for entertainment, but is driven to it by their own mental struggles.
The second time in a week, but the first was just a practice run
This is not the first time the singer has contemplated taking their own life, but they see it as a trial run for this final attempt.
Don't need a gun to end all of my suffering
The singer does not need a weapon to end their pain and is using jumping as a means to escape their mental struggles.
You don't love the fact that every night
The singer's struggles are not understood or acknowledged by those around them.
I'm about to take flight and shut em all up
By jumping off the building and surviving, the singer hopes to silence those who doubted their pain and struggle.
I'm lookin over this ledge at these matchbox cars
The singer is observing the city below and the smallness of human life and problems from a higher vantage point.
Why my meds don't work no more
The singer is frustrated that their medication is no longer effective in treating their mental illness.
Why my doc quit on me
The singer is abandoned by their therapist or mental health care provider and is left to struggle on their own.
Now I'm waitin for my balls to grind this concrete and crumble
The singer has made the decision to jump and is waiting for the impact of hitting the ground below.
My fingers scratch into the building as I pull up and climb
The singer is climbing up the building using their fingers to pull themselves up, like a spider crawling up a wall.
Passin windows up with every story up I go
As the singer climbs the building, they pass by windows of people working in their offices, separated from the singer's struggles.
Takin a look inside, people sittin in cubicles
The singer observes people working in their cubicles, seemingly unaware of the pain and struggles of others around them.
Once I get to the top I can let it all go
The singer believes that by jumping off the building, they can free themselves from their struggles and pain.
As I fall through the air to the sidewalk below
The singer has made the decision to jump off the building and is now falling to the ground below.
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