Worlds Apart
David Wesley Lyrics

I am the only one to blame for this
I take full responsibility for my mistakes and their consequences.

Somehow it all ends up the same
No matter what I do or try, I always end up in the same place.

Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I am prideful and arrogant, constantly seeking self-gratification.

I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
I let my pride get the best of me and ultimately suffered the consequences.

With a world I try so hard to leave behind
I am trying to move on from my past and leave behind the problematic world I created.

To rid myself of all but love to give and die
I am aiming to get rid of all negative feelings and behaviors and instead lead a life filled with love, even if it means sacrificing everything.

To turn away and not become another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
I want to turn away from my past actions so as to not hurt people who care about me.

More deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tears of a world embracing every heartache
God's love and forgiveness is vast, deep and boundless and can heal all wounds.

Can I be the one to sacrifice or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow
I question whether I have the courage to sacrifice for someone else or watch them suffer.

All said and done I stand alone amongst remains of a life I should not own
After all is said and done, I feel lonely and burdened by the things I have done in my past.

It takes all I am to believe in the mercy that covers me
It's hard for me to accept that I am forgiven and deserving of mercy.

Did you really have to die for me? All I am for all you are
I question the magnitude of God's love and forgiveness and wonder why He would die for someone like me.

Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart
My wants and beliefs are in conflict with each other.

I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost and wipe away the crimson stains and dull the nails that still remain
I try to look past the pain and suffering I caused and focus on the forgiveness and redemption that God offers through his sacrifice.

More and more I need you now, I owe you more each passing hour. The battle between grace and pride I gave up not so long ago
I need God more and more every day; I am in a constant struggle between accepting grace and letting go of my pride.

So steal my heart and take the pain and wash the feet and cleanse my pride. Take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things I cannot hide
I ask God to cleanse me of all negative attributes and use me to do His work.

Take the beauty, take my tears, the sin-soaked heart and make it yours. Take my world all apart
I want to give everything I have to God, including my past and my present.

And serve the ones that I despise, speak the words I can't deny. Watch the world I used to love fall to dust and thrown away
I want to help and serve even those I dislike, and I want to speak truth even when it's hard. I am willing to watch my old life fade away and embrace the new.

I pray, I pray, I pray, take my world apart
I pray for God to take away everything that is holding me back from following Him wholeheartedly.