With their latest release "Tarassis", dEMOTIONAL has proven themselves as a solid six-man-army worthy that place. dEMOTIONAL has become notorious for their energetic live shows and their way of combining modern guitar riffs and the two singers vocals. "Tarassis" is recorded, mixed & produced at Studio PH" by Pontus Hjelm (Dead By April), and it is the product of a young metalband that are experimenting with different genres and tempos, though at the same time keeping their distinctive sound that made them so popular. Just like the album "State: In Denial", the new album "Tarassis" went straight in to the national album chart. After spending a big amount of their time in 2014 writing new material and recording the new album, 2015 dEMOTIONAL successfully headed out as main support to Dead By April on "The Stronger Tour all over Europe.
Nils-Petter Power – Vocals
Christopher Kristensen – Screams
Sebastian Fjordevik – Guitars
Johan Olofsson – Guitars
Kristoffer Lindh – Bass
Tommy Magnusson – Drums
My Own Enemy
Demotional Lyrics
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Someway somehow, it will go from bad to worse
My own enemy
I got mind pollution, something's messing with my head
It's like a god damn death wish
Can't believe that I'm not dead
My own enemy
Self-execution, I'm hanging by a thread
I barely can explain it, so I scream my thoughts instead
Just so you know
My fortune will be gone soon
Clear skies into a monsoon
After sun comes rain
But will it always be this way?
Will I be over myself one day?
Get on top of the world then making it burn
Then slowly I watch it fade away
No wonder I break down, make sense now
The circle's complete and now I can see I'm my own enemy
I destroy myself, too proud to scream for help
Try to convince myself I play the cards I've been dealt
But I know that I'm a product of my own stupid creation
Asking for forgiveness as I'm burning down the nation
I know that I'm the reason, the one who holds me back
The darkness in my mind paints my world black
But will it always be this way? Will I be over myself one day?
Get on top of the world then making it burn
Then slowly I watch it fade away
No wonder I break down, make sense now
The circle's complete and now I can see I'm my own enemy
My fortune will be gone soon. Clear skies into a monsoon
After sun comes rain
But will it always be this way? Will I be over myself one day?
Get on top of the world then making it burn
Then slowly I watch it fade away
No wonder I break down, make sense now
The circle's complete and now I can see I'm my own enemy
In Demotional's "My Own Enemy," the lyrics paint a vivid picture of an individual's psychological struggle with self-sabotage and inner turmoil. The opening lines introduce the central theme of the song: a relentless internal battle that feels as though it’s ingrained or “automatic” in the singer's being. This sense of inevitability sets the stage for a journey through emotions marked by despair and deterioration. The phrase "it is like a curse" suggests that the singer feels trapped in a cycle of negativity, where the struggle only intensifies over time. The phrase “my own enemy” underscores the core conflict — the realization that the hardest battles we fight can be within ourselves, making the journey towards self-acceptance and healing profoundly complex.
As the song progresses, the lyrics delve deeper into the mental state of the singer, illustrating a feeling of being overwhelmed by “mind pollution.” This metaphor introduces the concept of negative thoughts invading the mind, akin to a toxic substance that compromises mental health. The references to a “death wish” indicate a yearning for an escape from this pain, yet the singer expresses disbelief in their own survival, hinting at a struggle between hope and despair. The depiction of “self-execution” and painfully “hanging by a thread” emphasizes the precariousness of their mental state, while the act of screaming thoughts rather than articulating them suggests an inarticulate desperation. This part of the song exemplifies the confusion and chaos of a mind grappling with depression, where communication becomes a multifaceted challenge.
The chorus reflects a sense of cyclical futility, posing a poignant question: “But will it always be this way?” The singer is deeply aware of their pattern of rising to success (“get on top of the world”) only to self-destruct and watch everything they’ve built “fade away.” This cycle reveals a tragic paradox of human experience, where fleeting joy is often overshadowed by self-imposed ruin. The imagery of fluctuating fortunes, moving from “clear skies into a monsoon,” conveys the unpredictability of life and emotional states, suggesting that happiness can abruptly turn into chaos. This circular reasoning captures the essence of the struggle with mental health, illustrating how fleeting moments of positivity can be followed by periods of darkness as one grapples with an inescapable internal conflict.
In the final verses, the acknowledgment of personal responsibility for one's suffering marks a pivotal moment in the song. The singer admits, “I destroy myself, too proud to scream for help,” which highlights the stigma surrounding mental health and the challenges of vulnerability. The idea of playing the hand one’s been dealt reflects a coping mechanism — an attempt to rationalize self-destructive behavior while knowing all too well that they are the architect of their own turmoil. This realization feels like a double-edged sword; it brings clarity yet emphasizes the burden of accountability. The conclusion, with the repetition of the theme that they are their “own enemy,” ultimately reinforces the necessity for self-awareness and confrontation in the journey towards healing. The song captures the cyclical nature of despair, accentuating the importance of breaking free from the self-destructive patterns that define one’s existence.
Line by Line Meaning
Automatic, it is like a curse
This repetitive behavior feels involuntary and burdensome, as if it's fated to bring misfortune.
Someway somehow, it will go from bad to worse
No matter the hope for improvement, situations seem destined to deteriorate further.
My own enemy
I recognize that my greatest opposition comes from within myself.
I got mind pollution, something's messing with my head
Thoughts and emotions are contaminated by negative influences, leading to confusion and distress.
It's like a god damn death wish
This overwhelming mindset feels akin to a desire for self-destruction.
Can't believe that I'm not dead
Given the intensity of my struggles, it's astonishing that I still exist.
My own enemy
Once again, I reflect on how my struggles arise from my inner turmoil.
Self-execution, I'm hanging by a thread
I'm on the brink of emotional or mental collapse, as if I'm responsible for my own undoing.
I barely can explain it, so I scream my thoughts instead
My feelings are so incomprehensible that I resort to expressing them through loud frustration.
Just so you know
This is my way of ensuring that others understand the depths of my struggle.
My fortune will be gone soon
I anticipate that any good luck or positive circumstances in my life are fleeting.
Clear skies into a monsoon
What starts as a peaceful time can quickly shift into overwhelming chaos and trouble.
After sun comes rain
Following moments of happiness, sorrow and challenges tend to follow.
But will it always be this way?
I question whether this cycle of hardship is perpetual and unavoidable.
Will I be over myself one day?
I yearn for the day when I can heal and transcend my own self-imposed limitations.
Get on top of the world then making it burn
Even in moments of success, I often sabotage my achievements or joy.
Then slowly I watch it fade away
As quickly as I rise, I witness my victories diminish over time.
No wonder I break down, make sense now
This cycle of self-sabotage clarifies why I often feel overwhelmed or broken.
The circle's complete and now I can see I'm my own enemy
I now fully realize that my recurring struggles stem from my own actions and mindset.
I destroy myself, too proud to scream for help
In my arrogance, I refuse to seek assistance and inadvertently harm myself.
Try to convince myself I play the cards I've been dealt
I rationalize my choices as if I'm simply responding to unavoidable circumstances.
But I know that I'm a product of my own stupid creation
Deep down, I acknowledge that my circumstances result from my own misguided actions.
Asking for forgiveness as I'm burning down the nation
I seek redemption while simultaneously causing harm to myself and those around me.
I know that I'm the reason, the one who holds me back
I recognize that my self-imposed limitations are the primary barriers to my progress.
The darkness in my mind paints my world black
Negative thoughts overshadow my perspective, turning my view of the world grim.
But will it always be this way? Will I be over myself one day?
Again, I contemplate the permanence of my struggles and the possibility of liberation.
Get on top of the world then making it burn
Even in moments of perceived success, I am prone to self-destruction.
Then slowly I watch it fade away
I find that what I've built or achieved often slips from my grasp.
No wonder I break down, make sense now
The realization that I’m the cause of my distress aligns with my feelings of inadequacy.
The circle's complete and now I can see I'm my own enemy
My journey has come full circle, revealing that my greatest adversary is myself.
My fortune will be gone soon. Clear skies into a monsoon
I'm reminded that good fortune is temporary and can quickly lead to turmoil.
After sun comes rain
Further highlighting the inevitability of challenges following periods of joy.
But will it always be this way? Will I be over myself one day?
The overarching question remains if I will ever escape this cycle of defeating myself.
Get on top of the world then making it burn
Success feels ephemeral as I inadvertently set fire to my accomplishments.
Then slowly I watch it fade away
I resign to the reality that my achievements invariably diminish over time.
No wonder I break down, make sense now
Understanding that my self-sabotage explains my frequent emotional breakdowns.
The circle's complete and now I can see I'm my own enemy
In the end, I come to terms with the realization that my true foe lies within.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Sebastian Fjordevik, Nils-Petter Nilsson, Dino Medanhodzic
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@Stephen0
The bridge riff feels very inspired by Bullet Ride by In Flames; and that’s a huge compliment.
Also love the chorus, was instantly stuck in my head after the first listen!
@Gamzeevegeta
Very catchy and "bouncy" refrain on this one!
@danielastrebel2140
Cool😍🤘🤘🤘👍👍👍
@saloumasaleck3697
Let’s go 🔥
@louisg1290
WOW 🔥👍u guys really brought it this album!!! Love what I'm hearing
@santiagogarcia1819
Perfect!!!!!
@sherazali4528
sweet rhythms
@korassan556
Det här vill jag höra. Fortsätt med 1:37