History
The beginnings of Depswa came together in the mid-90's with vocalist Jeremy Penick and bassist Ryan Burchfield, under their original band name "Carcinogen". By the late 90's, Penick and Burchfield had moved to Los Angeles and added guitarist Dan Noonan. The band would then rename themselves as "Depswa".
The band released their debut EP in 2000 titled Faithless, and by October 2001, had added drummer Gordon Heckaman into the fold.
Depswa had generated some significant interest around a number of major record labels. Ultimately they decided to sign with Geffen Records.
The band went to work recording their debut album with renowned producer Howard Benson. A second guitarist in James Mills also joined the band at this point.
Depswa released their debut album titled Two Angels and a Dream on June 3, 2003. The band was part of Ozzfest 2003, as a second stage act. Also, Their song, "This Time", was featured in EA Sports' NASCAR Thunder 2004 in two forms, the original with lyrics, and an instrumental version. "This Time" was also sampled by Krayzie Bone on the track "Don't Know Why" from the album Gemini: Good vs. Evil.
As of August 13, 2003, Depswa had sold 9,060 copies of their debut album in the United States (according to Nielsen SoundScan). At this point, it was rumoured that the band had been dropped off the remaining part of the Ozzfest tour, due to Geffen withdrawing their tour support of the band.[1] This was not completely accurate. Geffen was not in communications with the band's management and had not sent the remainder of the tour support that was needed. The band told Geffen that if they did not receive the backend support they would pull themselves off the tour. Geffen responded saying that they were going to send the funds 2 days after the band started for home. Upon returning to L.A. Depswa's attorney requested that the label let the band go to pursue other labels that might be more supportive.
On December 6, 2003, guitarist James Mills left Depswa. The band was seeking a replacement guitarist, but nobody was ever hired, and have since continued as a four-piece with Penick playing second guitar and singing.
In January 2005, Depswa revealed via their MySpace blog that they were under way recording material for their second album. After working with a couple different producers, Depswa eventually decided to re-record much of the material along with several new songs. Currently, (May 2007) they are in the final stages of the recording process and are preparing to have the material mixed.
May 13, 2007 was Gordon's last show with Depswa as their drummer. They now have their good friend Steve White (formally of Turn Of The Screw) behind the kit. Steve can also do vocals so the live shows have the harmonies similar to the studio recordings. As of April 2008 they've been working hard on mixing the tracks for their next CD and hope to be wrapped up by the end of summer 2008.
On March 16, 2010 Depswa released their second studio album Distorted American Dream.
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Depswa Lyrics
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Mixed emotions they ramble on inside
For a false sense of reality
So I try to escape
From this place that brings me down
Cause I feel there's nothing else
Left inside me anymore
Here in my mind again
I thought I saw a face in the wake of you
But now I can't find you anymore
And I try to erase all these feelings that I have
Of that happy perfect life
There's just a cold and darkened memory
And i have to pretend that you're here for awhile
But I know that's just a wishful temporary remedy
And I want to
There's a need to
To believe in something
Something that won't leave me heartless
And I want to
There's a need to
Know that there's something
Something that won't pass me by
And I thought I saw a face in the wake you
Here in my mind again
I thought I saw a face in the wake of you
But now I can't find you anymore
I know that there's reasons to forget what was had
To leave all our past behind us
So I try to make myself forget
But it really hasn't happened yet
And I know that there must be a reason why
And I want to
There's a need to
To believe in something
Something that won't leave me heartless
And I want to
There's a need to
Know that there's something
Something that won't pass me by
I thought I saw a face in the wake you
Here in my mind again
I thought I saw a face in the wake of you
But now I can't find you anymore
I thought I saw a face in the wake of you
But now I can't find
I thought I saw a face in the wake of you
But now I can't find you anymore
I thought I saw a face in the wake of you
But now I can't find you anymore
Depswa's "Silhouette" is a track that perfectly captures the struggles of dealing with a broken heart. Mixed emotions are rampant, and the singer is trying to escape from the reality that's bringing him/her down. There is nothing left inside anymore, and the only thing that remains is a wishful temporary remedy of pretending that the other person is still around. However, the truth is that it's just a cold and dark memory that's left behind, and it's difficult to forget what was had.
The lyrics also express a strong desire to believe in something that won't leave the heart feeling heartless. The singer wants to know that there's something out there that won't pass him/her by. The repeated lines of "I thought I saw a face in the wake of you, but now I can't find you anymore" show that the singer is struggling to come to terms with the reality of the situation. Even though the other person is gone, their presence continues to linger in the singer's life.
Overall, "Silhouette" is a powerful track that perfectly captures the complicated emotions that come with a broken heart.
Line by Line Meaning
Sometimes
Occasionally
Mixed emotions they ramble on inside
My contradictory feelings are in constant turmoil
For a false sense of reality
To maintain an artificial perception of truth
So I try to escape
I attempt to flee
From this place that brings me down
From this location that depresses me
Cause I feel there's nothing else
Because I sense there is no alternative
Left inside me anymore
Remaining inside me any longer
And I thought I saw a face in the wake you
I pondered seeing a visage in your aftermath
Here in my mind again
Once again in my thoughts
But now I can't find you anymore
But now I cannot locate you
And I try to erase all these feelings that I have
I endeavor to eradicate these emotions of mine
Of that happy perfect life
Of that content and flawless existence
There's just a cold and darkened memory
There remains only a bleak and shaded recollection
And i have to pretend that you're here for awhile
And feign that you are present for a time
But I know that's just a wishful temporary remedy
Yet I understand that this is a mere fleeting solution
And I want to
I aspire to
There's a need to
There is a requirement for
To believe in something
To have faith in something
Something that won't leave me heartless
Something that won't leave me bereft of emotion
Know that there's something
Apprehend that there is something
Something that won't pass me by
Something that won't elude me
I know that there's reasons to forget what was had
I acknowledge there are reasons to abandon what was once shared
To leave all our past behind us
To abandon our past entirely
So I try to make myself forget
Thus, I attempt to force myself to forget
But it really hasn't happened yet
But it has not materialized as of yet
And I know that there must be a reason why
And I know that there must be a rationale for this
I thought I saw a face in the wake you
I believed I perceived a countenance in your trail
But now I can't find you anymore
However, I am currently unable to locate you
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: DANIEL S. NOONAN, GORDON CHARLES HECKAMAN, JEREMY BRIAN PENICK, RYAN BRADLEY BURCHFIELD
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