Clouds
Dezeray's Hammer Lyrics
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Saturday I drank it so I wouldn't have to feel her
Sunday I breathed it so I wouldn't have to taste her
You would never take it so I'll never give you favors
You've got a lot to learn from me
You've got a lot to learn from me, oh
You've got a lot to learn
And now it's clouding up my head
And it's only getting clearer
And now it's clouding up my head
But it's only getting nearer
And it still feels good to me
And it still feels good to me
And it still feels good to me
Monday came I choked it so I wouldn't have to waver
Tuesday came I broke it so I wouldn't have to face her
Wednesday I'm coming back and strong enough to kill her
Thursday I've got hate and if it's all the same I'll tell her
You've got a lot to learn from him
The winter was long and summer short lived, oh
You've got a lot to learn
But you're half the way there
And now it's clouding up my head
And it's only getting clearer
But now it's clouding up my head
And it's only getting nearer
And it still feels good to me
And it still feels good to me
And it still feels good to me
The lyrics to Dezeray’s Hammer’s song “Clouds” speak to the pain of a broken relationship and how the singer copes with it. The first verse chronicles the days of the week and the actions the singer took to avoid the hurt of missing her ex-lover. She drank to numb the pain and tried not to think about him, but the memories still linger. The second verse reveals a more vengeful side of the singer as she faces her feelings head-on, choking and breaking them instead of trying to avoid them. By the end of the song, she has resolved to face her ex with hate on Thursday.
The chorus repeats the line “you’ve got a lot to learn from me” and then echoes “and it still feels good to me”. The second half of the chorus implies that even though she’s in pain and has been coping in unhealthy ways, it still feels good to be alive and feel something, anything, even if it’s sadness. She’s advising her ex to learn from these experiences and come out stronger on the other side.
Overall, the song speaks to the process of dealing with a break-up, going through various stages of grief and eventually finding resolve to move forward.
Line by Line Meaning
Friday came I took it so I wouldn't have to see her
I avoided her on Friday by taking something to numb my senses
Saturday I drank it so I wouldn't have to feel her
I tried to forget her on Saturday by drinking
Sunday I breathed it so I wouldn't have to taste her
On Sunday, I tried to avoid her presence by inhaling something
You would never take it so I'll never give you favors
You wouldn't understand what I'm going through, so I won't bother explaining or asking for help
You've got a lot to learn from me
I have more experience than you and can teach you many things
You've got a lot to learn from me, oh
I have knowledge that could benefit you
You've got a lot to learn
There is still a lot for you to understand
But you're half the way there
You've made progress, but there's still more to go
And now it's clouding up my head
My thoughts are becoming muddled
And it's only getting clearer
Despite the confusion, my situation is becoming more obvious
But it's only getting nearer
Despite knowing the truth, I am not heading in the right direction
And it still feels good to me
I am comfortable with my current state, even if it isn't healthy
Monday came I choked it so I wouldn't have to waver
I avoided indecisiveness on Monday by suffocating my emotions
Tuesday came I broke it so I wouldn't have to face her
I shattered something on Tuesday to avoid confronting her
Wednesday I'm coming back and strong enough to kill her
On Wednesday, I will return with enough strength to overcome her
Thursday I've got hate and if it's all the same I'll tell her
By Thursday, I will have so much anger that I will confront her, regardless of the consequences
You've got a lot to learn from him
He has teachings that you could benefit from
The winter was long and summer short lived, oh
The difficult times seem to drag on, while the good times pass by too quickly
And now it's clouding up my head
My thoughts have become even more unclear
And it's only getting clearer
Despite the confusion, I am beginning to understand the situation more fully
But now it's clouding up my head
My mind is becoming muddled once again
And it's only getting nearer
The inevitable confrontation is approaching
And it still feels good to me
Despite the danger, I am still comfortable in my current state
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