Adrian Hates was originally a classically trained guitarist and pianist, and subsequently bassist of Garden of Delight. He initiated the Diary of Dreams project in the late 1980s, taking the name from one of his early classical guitar compositions, 'Tagebuch der Träume'. The first album, 'Cholymelan', appeared in 1994 on the Dion Fortune label.
Encouraged by this success, Adrian formed his own label Accession and released a string of albums over the following years, building a loyal fanbase each step of the way. The second album 'End of Flowers' was released in 1996, expanding on the darkwave sound of the debut. 'Bird Without Wings' followed a year later, whilst the more experimental work 'Psychoma?' arrived in 1998.
The first sign of consolidation came in 1999, when a compilation album 'Moments of Bloom' appeared, containing two reworked tracks from each album. The next two albums 'One of 18 Angels' and 'Freak Perfume' (plus its companion EP 'PaniK Manifesto') made greater use of electronic rhythms, resulting in greater club play and wider recognition for the band.
Their 2004 'Nigredo' (a concept album inspired by a mythology the band designed themselves) saw a move back towards the more subtle, sparse concepts of old, but still featuring bursts of their more recent, dance-oriented sound. Songs from the Nigredo tour were later released on the live CD 'aLive' and the companion DVD 'Nine In Numbers'. The next Diary of Dreams album 'Nekrolog 43' was released in 2007, offering a greater variety of moods and concepts than previous works. Adrian Hates claims to be influenced, both lyric wise and artwork wise, by the German 1909-1935 expressionism and the "beauty of ugliness" in the course of his work.
The ninth album entitled "(if)" was released on March 13, 2009.
Discography
Albums
* Cholymelan (1994) – re-released in 1999 with four bonus tracks
* End of Flowers (1996)
* Bird Without Wings (1997)
* Psychoma (1998)
* Moments of Bloom (1999)
* One of 18 Angels (2000)
* Freak perfume (2002)
* Dream Collector (2003) (originally a limited South African compilation - later given wider release)
* Nigredo (2004)
* Alive (2005) – live album
* Nekrolog 43 (2007)
* (if) (2009)
* Ego:X (2011)
* Dream Collector II (2012)
* the Anatomy of Silence (2012) - acoustic album
* Elegies in Darkness (2014)
* Grau im Licht (2015)
* reLive (2016)
* hell in Eden (2017)
Singles and EPs
* O' Brother Sleep (2001)
* AmoK (2002)
* PaniK Manifesto (2002) – EP/mini-album
* Giftraum (2004)
* Menschfeind (2005) – EP/mini-album
* The Plague (2007)
* King of Nowhere (2009)
DVDs
* Nine in Numbers (2006)
Mind Over Matter
Diary of Dreams Lyrics
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while dozens of others pretend to be free
Obscure limitations put the boundaries at stake
I know there is more than we can see
This is my aggravation
A simple cause I come here to flee from you
I come here to free my guilt
This is my alibi
My secret inferno
And this is the world I hide
My place to recover
I'd carry this burden on your behalf
Corrupted integrity
Inexistent identity
So hard to believe
what I had to witness
what I'm supposed to forget
to forgive and forget
This is my alibi - Underneath your ruins I'm buried
My secret inferno - My endless source of despair
And this is the world I hide - A shelter I cannot share
My place to recover - So i can return to your world with a cynical smile
I swear it is true
Invisible scars prove me right
I'd be your abettor
Please take me with you
The lyrics of Diary of Dreams' song "Mind Over Matter" speak of the search for meaning and freedom in a world that often limits and confines us. The first two lines allude to the idea that some people pretend to be free, when in reality they are shackled by societal norms and expectations. The torch in the darkness represents hope and guidance, illuminating the way for those seeking to break free from these limitations.
The next few lines highlight the frustration of feeling trapped and boxed in by these boundaries, and the desire to explore and discover the unknown. The singer acknowledges that there is much more to life than what meets the eye, and that he wants to break free from his current situation.
The chorus speaks of the singer's sanctuary, a secret world he hides in to escape the guilt and pain of his past. He carries a burden, perhaps someone else's, and it weighs heavily on him. He speaks of "invisible scars" that prove he is right in his search for meaning and freedom. He longs to be someone's "abettor," or accomplice, in their journey towards liberation.
Overall, the song expresses the universal feeling of being trapped and limited by our surroundings. It encourages the listener to keep searching for the torch in the darkness, the glimmer of hope that will lead to freedom.
Line by Line Meaning
A torch in your darkness will guide you the way
Even amidst confusion and despair, there is a guiding light that illuminates the way to salvation.
while dozens of others pretend to be free
So many people act as if they are liberated, yet they are still belittled or oppressed by society's norms.
Obscure limitations put the boundaries at stake
Ambiguous obstacles blur the line between possible and impossible, raising the risk of failure.
I know there is more than we can see
There exists a grander scheme that lies beyond our narrow, human perspectives.
This is my aggravation
I am acutely aware of my annoyance and frustration, and it consumes my thoughts.
A simple cause
This irritation is rooted in a single, uncomplicated origin.
I come here to flee from you
I seek refuge from another person's influence or presence, hoping to distance myself from them.
I come here to free my guilt
I visit this place to alleviate the burden of my shame and remorse, and to experience liberation.
This is my alibi
This is the reason for my actions, the explanation I would give in defense of them.
My secret inferno
The burning passion and emotion that resides inside of me, locked away from the outside world.
And this is the world I hide
This place is where I conceal my true self, where I feel most comfortable being myself.
My place to recover
I come here for healing and rejuvenation, to escape from the stresses of everyday life.
I'd carry this burden on your behalf
I am willing to shoulder the weight of your troubles, sharing your load so you don't have to suffer alone.
Corrupted integrity
My moral fiber and conscience have become compromised, leading me down a path of dishonesty and deceit.
Inexistent identity
I lack a clear sense of self or purpose, struggling to find meaning in my life and place in the world.
So hard to believe
It is difficult to accept or comprehend what I have seen or experienced.
what I had to witness
The traumatic event or discovery that left such a profound impact on me.
what I'm supposed to forget
Despite my desire to leave the past behind, some memories are too painful to erase entirely.
to forgive and forget
I must learn to let go of my anger and resentment, and embrace forgiveness and redemption.
Underneath your ruins I'm buried
Beneath the collapsed structures of your life, I am deeply entwined in the wreckage, perhaps bearing some responsibility for the destruction.
My endless source of despair
The sense of hopelessness and sadness that plagues me seems to never dissipate, lingering like a dark cloud over my life.
A shelter I cannot share
This sanctuary that has kept me safe and made me whole is too precious to risk exposing to others, so I keep it hidden and locked away.
So i can return to your world with a cynical smile
After retreating to my own world of self-protection, I can laugh wryly at the world's harshness and pain, knowing that I am somewhat shielded from it.
I swear it is true
I am promising you with all my sincerity that what I am saying is honest and accurate.
Invisible scars prove me right
The hidden wounds and scars that have yet to heal are evidence of my veracity.
I'd be your abettor
I would unhesitatingly support your decisions or actions, even if they are morally questionable or illegal.
Please take me with you
I am asking to come along with you, hoping to stay by your side and provide comfort and support when you need it most.
Contributed by Lila S. Suggest a correction in the comments below.