Adrian Hates was originally a classically trained guitarist and pianist, and subsequently bassist of Garden of Delight. He initiated the Diary of Dreams project in the late 1980s, taking the name from one of his early classical guitar compositions, 'Tagebuch der Träume'. The first album, 'Cholymelan', appeared in 1994 on the Dion Fortune label.
Encouraged by this success, Adrian formed his own label Accession and released a string of albums over the following years, building a loyal fanbase each step of the way. The second album 'End of Flowers' was released in 1996, expanding on the darkwave sound of the debut. 'Bird Without Wings' followed a year later, whilst the more experimental work 'Psychoma?' arrived in 1998.
The first sign of consolidation came in 1999, when a compilation album 'Moments of Bloom' appeared, containing two reworked tracks from each album. The next two albums 'One of 18 Angels' and 'Freak Perfume' (plus its companion EP 'PaniK Manifesto') made greater use of electronic rhythms, resulting in greater club play and wider recognition for the band.
Their 2004 'Nigredo' (a concept album inspired by a mythology the band designed themselves) saw a move back towards the more subtle, sparse concepts of old, but still featuring bursts of their more recent, dance-oriented sound. Songs from the Nigredo tour were later released on the live CD 'aLive' and the companion DVD 'Nine In Numbers'. The next Diary of Dreams album 'Nekrolog 43' was released in 2007, offering a greater variety of moods and concepts than previous works. Adrian Hates claims to be influenced, both lyric wise and artwork wise, by the German 1909-1935 expressionism and the "beauty of ugliness" in the course of his work.
The ninth album entitled "(if)" was released on March 13, 2009.
Discography
Albums
* Cholymelan (1994) – re-released in 1999 with four bonus tracks
* End of Flowers (1996)
* Bird Without Wings (1997)
* Psychoma (1998)
* Moments of Bloom (1999)
* One of 18 Angels (2000)
* Freak perfume (2002)
* Dream Collector (2003) (originally a limited South African compilation - later given wider release)
* Nigredo (2004)
* Alive (2005) – live album
* Nekrolog 43 (2007)
* (if) (2009)
* Ego:X (2011)
* Dream Collector II (2012)
* the Anatomy of Silence (2012) - acoustic album
* Elegies in Darkness (2014)
* Grau im Licht (2015)
* reLive (2016)
* hell in Eden (2017)
Singles and EPs
* O' Brother Sleep (2001)
* AmoK (2002)
* PaniK Manifesto (2002) – EP/mini-album
* Giftraum (2004)
* Menschfeind (2005) – EP/mini-album
* The Plague (2007)
* King of Nowhere (2009)
DVDs
* Nine in Numbers (2006)
Oblivion
Diary of Dreams Lyrics
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For what I've done to you
A shattered dream of greed
Confess of a faded bloom
Reminded day by day
The scars just cannot heal
Still unforgiven guilt
Tear my heart out, let me fall
Keep my faith enclosed in walls
Like a child within your hands
Close my eyes and let me fall
Into oblivion I urge
For you I dare to feel regret
A sacrifice I cannot fear
How can I cure what you protect?
Immortal hatred longing
For what I've done for you
A shattered dream of need
Moments without truth
A mournful sacrifice
The scars will never heal
The opening lines of Diary of Dreams's song, Oblivion, signify the remorseful sentiments of the singer towards the person they have hurt. The theme revolves around guilt, regret, and a longing for forgiveness. The singer feels immortal hatred longing, meaning he has a never-ending agony for what he has done to this person. The next line talks about a shattered dream of greed, reflecting that he must have committed a selfish act that has cost him dearly. The singer confesses to the act that has led to this guilt, and he is reminded daily of the mistake he made. The scars on his conscience cannot heal, and the person he has wronged refuses to forgive him.
The chorus of the song delves deeper into the singer's longing for oblivion. He wants to be completely forgotten, his pain erased forever. He feels that maybe falling into oblivion is his only hope for being free of the memories that haunt him. The song suggests that the pain of guilt can be unbearable and the feeling of regret can be overwhelming. The singer wants to be finally rid of this burden and let go of the constant reminder of his wrongdoing.
Line by Line Meaning
Immortal hatred longing
I can't shake off the hate I feel, it's with me forever
For what I've done to you
I regret the hurt I've caused you
A shattered dream of greed
My desire for something caused me to destroy something else
Confess of a faded bloom
I admit that what I did led to something beautiful fading away
Reminded day by day
I can't forget, it's always on my mind
The scars just cannot heal
You were hurt so badly that the pain is still there
Still unforgiven guilt
I haven't forgiven myself yet for what I've done to you
Am I a child within your hands?
Do you still have control over me?
Tear my heart out, let me fall
I'm willing to be hurt if it means releasing me from this pain
Keep my faith enclosed in walls
I'm hiding my hope away, maybe to protect it
Close my eyes and let me fall
I'm ready to face the unknown
Into oblivion I urge
I want to disappear, to forget and be forgotten
For you I dare to feel regret
I don't usually feel regret, but for you, I do
A sacrifice I cannot fear
I'm willing to give up something important to me, no matter the cost
How can I cure what you protect?
I can't heal what you won't let me help
A shattered dream of need
I lost out on something I thought I had to have
Moments without truth
I pretended everything was okay when it really wasn't
A mournful sacrifice
I mourn the loss of what I gave up
The scars will never heal
The damage I caused is permanent
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
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Daniel Dam
- Nosssa, essa música gótica é de mas, parece q ela entra dentro da minha alma -
Per Aspera Ad Astra
Love this song so much... ❤❤❤
вячеслав
КЛАСС!!!! СЛУШАТЬ ВСЕМ!!!!!!
Mistic 31 sasutachi
me encanta esta canción :)
eduardo varela
Es de una profunda tristeza insondable.
Mistic 31 sasutachi
+eduardo varela oh ok x)
Lucas Pinheiro
lindo
skv Camargo
Diario of dreamms lo maximo
Lilith Mendoza
Wow 😍😍😍😍👌🏻
kingcopy
Unfassbar gut...