Adrian Hates was originally a classically trained guitarist and pianist, and subsequently bassist of Garden of Delight. He initiated the Diary of Dreams project in the late 1980s, taking the name from one of his early classical guitar compositions, 'Tagebuch der Träume'. The first album, 'Cholymelan', appeared in 1994 on the Dion Fortune label.
Encouraged by this success, Adrian formed his own label Accession and released a string of albums over the following years, building a loyal fanbase each step of the way. The second album 'End of Flowers' was released in 1996, expanding on the darkwave sound of the debut. 'Bird Without Wings' followed a year later, whilst the more experimental work 'Psychoma?' arrived in 1998.
The first sign of consolidation came in 1999, when a compilation album 'Moments of Bloom' appeared, containing two reworked tracks from each album. The next two albums 'One of 18 Angels' and 'Freak Perfume' (plus its companion EP 'PaniK Manifesto') made greater use of electronic rhythms, resulting in greater club play and wider recognition for the band.
Their 2004 'Nigredo' (a concept album inspired by a mythology the band designed themselves) saw a move back towards the more subtle, sparse concepts of old, but still featuring bursts of their more recent, dance-oriented sound. Songs from the Nigredo tour were later released on the live CD 'aLive' and the companion DVD 'Nine In Numbers'. The next Diary of Dreams album 'Nekrolog 43' was released in 2007, offering a greater variety of moods and concepts than previous works. Adrian Hates claims to be influenced, both lyric wise and artwork wise, by the German 1909-1935 expressionism and the "beauty of ugliness" in the course of his work.
The ninth album entitled "(if)" was released on March 13, 2009.
Discography
Albums
* Cholymelan (1994) – re-released in 1999 with four bonus tracks
* End of Flowers (1996)
* Bird Without Wings (1997)
* Psychoma (1998)
* Moments of Bloom (1999)
* One of 18 Angels (2000)
* Freak perfume (2002)
* Dream Collector (2003) (originally a limited South African compilation - later given wider release)
* Nigredo (2004)
* Alive (2005) – live album
* Nekrolog 43 (2007)
* (if) (2009)
* Ego:X (2011)
* Dream Collector II (2012)
* the Anatomy of Silence (2012) - acoustic album
* Elegies in Darkness (2014)
* Grau im Licht (2015)
* reLive (2016)
* hell in Eden (2017)
Singles and EPs
* O' Brother Sleep (2001)
* AmoK (2002)
* PaniK Manifesto (2002) – EP/mini-album
* Giftraum (2004)
* Menschfeind (2005) – EP/mini-album
* The Plague (2007)
* King of Nowhere (2009)
DVDs
* Nine in Numbers (2006)
Tears of Joy
Diary of Dreams Lyrics
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but a master at this even lies under tears
I never felt home in a life of regret
Your embrace was so tight that I woke up at night
I feel my tears of joy
revealing my relief
Finally home
Finally here on my own!
I did speak out loud but my voice was too weak
So my whisper decayed in the silence you left
Inhaling the truth, digesting the past
If one thing's for sure then that nothing will last
Give back what you took, give our wounds time to heal
My eyes remain closed, as I'm counting the days
Now I'm paying the price for forsaking my strength
The last thing I said was a bitter good-bye
The lyrics of Diary of Dreams's song Tears Of Joy evoke a sense of reflection, realization, and acceptance. The first verse suggests that the singer of the song has longed for a feeling of belonging in a life filled with regret. However, the singer's sense of comfort is derived from the embrace of someone else who is equally plagued with their own set of difficulties. This individual's vulnerability is revealed when they lie under tears even when they are potentially lying about their words. The singer's dependence on this individual becomes evident in the line "Your embrace was so tight that I woke up at night." In the chorus, the singer expresses their relief and joy in finally finding a peaceful state after experiencing turmoil for so long.
The second verse, the singer talks about the struggle with communication and the weight of the past. They confront the truth of their situation and acknowledge the transience of life's joys. By giving themselves time and acknowledging the importance of healing, they hope to unravel the web of despair that had once clouded their existence. The verse ends with the singer bemoaning the effects of neglecting their own strength.
Overall, the lyrics of Tears Of Joy reflect on emotional exhaustion and the realization that the things we hold onto in life are ephemeral. However, the song also offers hope in the power of healing, releasing the past, and finding peace within oneself.
Line by Line Meaning
I dared to believe what you said in your sleep
I took a chance and trusted what you said unconsciously
but a master at this even lies under tears
Even someone skilled at hiding their emotions can cry
I never felt home in a life of regret
Regret prevented me from feeling comfortable at home
Your embrace was so tight that I woke up at night
Your hug was so comforting that it woke me up happily
I feel my tears of joy
My tears express my relief
revealing my relief
Showing the world how much better I feel now
Finally home
I have finally found where I belong
Finally home
Yes, finally home after a long journey of regret
Finally here on my own!
I am finally able to stand on my own - independent
I did speak out loud but my voice was too weak
I tried to speak, but my words were inaudible
So my whisper decayed in the silence you left
My soft spoken words faded away in the silent aftermath of your leaving
Inhaling the truth, digesting the past
I am absorbing and reflecting on my true feelings and my past
If one thing's for sure then that nothing will last
One truth of life is how nothing lasts forever
Give back what you took, give our wounds time to heal
Please return what was taken - allow time to heal our emotional wounds
My eyes remain closed, as I'm counting the days
Eyes still shut tight while I count down the days
Now I'm paying the price for forsaking my strength
I am struggling because I ignored my own strength in the past
The last thing I said was a bitter goodbye
The last words I spoke were unpleasant and final
Contributed by Leo E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Lolli Pops
I dared to believe what you said in your sleep
But a master at this even lies under tears
I never felt home in a life of regret
Your embrace was so tight that I woke up at night
I feel my tears of joy
Revealing my relief
Finally home
Finally home
Finally here on my own!
I did speak out loud but my voice was too weak
So my whisper decayed in the silence you left
Inhaling the truth, digesting the past
If one thing's for sure then that nothing will last
Give back what you took, give our wounds time to heal
My eyes remain closed, as I'm counting the days
Now I'm paying the price for forsaking my strength
The last thing I said was a bitter good-bye
Lolli Pops
I dared to believe what you said in your sleep
But a master at this even lies under tears
I never felt home in a life of regret
Your embrace was so tight that I woke up at night
I feel my tears of joy
Revealing my relief
Finally home
Finally home
Finally here on my own!
I did speak out loud but my voice was too weak
So my whisper decayed in the silence you left
Inhaling the truth, digesting the past
If one thing's for sure then that nothing will last
Give back what you took, give our wounds time to heal
My eyes remain closed, as I'm counting the days
Now I'm paying the price for forsaking my strength
The last thing I said was a bitter good-bye
Angel Mendez
DE MIS GRUPOS MAS GRANDES E IMPORTANTES 🖤🔥🖤
Roger Massey
Love this song and group.
jose villegas sanchez
fantastica musica gotica ,electronica ,sinfonica ,sentimental ,oscura y atmosferica ESPECTACULAR
Lionel THIERRY
Encore une merveilleuse musique du groupe.
py rielia
einfach nur ein wunderbarer song,der unter die haut geht.
death69ize
song brings tears to your eyes
BlackRoses1966
Stimmt geht mir genau so :-(
Для Себя
Огонь!
victoria williamson
wellcome me my love welcome to you in the sweetness of tomorrow the kisses that i missed my tears no longer cry they are trapped within my soul waiting for your sweet relief my love please bring me home we are caught between the lovers and the not the sadness deep within me love I fear will remain Please don't despair for this will pass away in the silence of dream that never goes away lightuntouched truly inspiring song they really bring out my dark side which I love wish I could see them live