First
Disbelief Lyrics


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welcome my first love, welcome my first love

try to reach me when I'm blind - I am blind, try to reach me
you - have to learn, free in mind, you - touch me now - now

welcome my first love, welcome my first love

try to reach me when I'm blind - I am blind, try to reach me
you - have to learn, free in mind, you - touch me now - now

try - to walk alone, so realize it,
love - I don't know

touch your lips, touch your mouth,
I want to break you down

this is my trip

I'll kill you, I'll rape you, I'll rape you
I'll kill you, I'll kill you

welcome my first love, welcome my first love

I'll kill you





good bye

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Disbelief's song, First, are dark and intense, full of themes of blindness, love, and violence. The repetition of the phrase "welcome my first love" could be seen as ironic, as the singer goes on to describe wanting to "kill" and "rape" this love. The line "try to reach me when I'm blind - I am blind, try to reach me" conveys a sense of desperation and desire for help, while also implying a sense of futility in trying to reach out for assistance when one is lost in darkness.


The lines "touch your lips, touch your mouth, I want to break you down" are particularly disturbing, implying a power dynamic in which the singer desires to dominate and control their lover. The final line "good bye" is a chilling conclusion to the song, leaving the listener with a sense of unease and discomfort.


Overall, the lyrics to First are deeply disturbing and unsettling, with themes of violence, domination, and blindness.


Line by Line Meaning

try to reach me when I'm blind - I am blind, try to reach me
I'm in a state of confusion and need help to see clearly, please try to reach me even though I may not be able to see you


you - have to learn, free in mind, you - touch me now - now
You should learn how to free your mind and touch me right now


try - to walk alone, so realize it, love - I don't know
I'm trying to walk alone, but I'm starting to realize that I'm lost and not sure what love truly is


touch your lips, touch your mouth, I want to break you down
I want to kiss you and be intimate with you, and I want to break down any barriers between us


this is my trip
This is my journey and I'm in control of it


I'll kill you, I'll rape you, I'll rape you, I'll kill you, I'll kill you
There's anger and aggression inside me that I don't know how to deal with, and I want to hurt you because of it


good bye
I'm saying goodbye, possibly to the person I was just expressing these feelings to




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