Disciple was formed in 1992 by friends Kevin Young, Brad Noah, Tim Barrett, and Adrian DiTommasi (who would leave the band shortly after inception) in an attempt to spread the gospel while playing the loud, metallic music they loved. Over the years, their style evolved into one similar to many secular alternative metal groups, as they toured churches, high schools, colleges, and similar venues. Their self-released debut, What Was I Thinking, came out in 1995, followed by an EP, My Daddy Can Whip Your Daddy, on Warner Resound in 1997. Their sophomore full-length effort, This Might Sting a Little Bit, followed two years later on Rugged Records. By God followed in 2001 on the same label.
2003's Back Again found the band on a new label, their own independent Slain Records. That year, the trio became a quartet with the addition of bassist Joey Fife to their lineup. The group signed with INO Records the following year and released a self-titled LP in June of 2005. Scars Remain arrived on Integrity in late 2006. After years of nominations, the album won the band their first Dove Award for Rock Album of the Year.
In 2008, Noah and Fife stepped down from the band and their spots were filled by bassist Israel Beachy and guitarists Andrew Welch and Micah Sannan. Southern Hospitality arrived later that year. Before their next release, founding drummer Tim Barrett would also part ways with Disciple, replaced by Trent Reiff. Horseshoes & Hand Grenades, Disciple's eighth LP, came out in April 2010. It topped the Christian chart and entered the Billboard Top 50. As the band's popularity grew, they embarked on a handful of tours with other top Christian acts like Thousand Foot Krutch and Skillet.
2012 saw the release of O God Save Us All, as well as a flurry of lineup changes. After four years with Disciple, Welch left the band to join Thousand Foot Krutch, while Sannan and Beachy were replaced by Josiah Prince (Philmont) and Jason Wilkes (High Flight Society). By early 2013, Reiff exited and was replaced by Joey West. Andrew Stanton also joined the band, leaving Young as the only original member.
The refreshed quintet forged ahead with the crowdfunded release of 2014's Attack, which became their highest Billboard 200 entry to date, peaking at number 44. Produced by longtime Disciple producer Travis Wyrick, Attack also rose to the number two spots on the Hard Rock and Christian charts. It would be the first and last album with Wilkes on bass, who left the band the next year. Vultures, a six-song EP recorded during the Attack sessions, was released at the end of 2015. Another EP, Live in Denmark, arrived the following year, accompanied by a series of concert videos from Denmark's RiverFest.
The band -- now a quartet -- issued another crowdfunded effort in 2016. Their 11th album, Long Live the Rebels, debuted at number 125, making it the group's sixth Billboard 200 entry to date. After signing with the Tooth & Nail label at the end of 2018, Disciple released their 12th full-length, Love Letter Kill Shot, in September 2019.
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My Hell
Disciple Lyrics
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Or in the cursed bottom of a bottled plague
It wasn't in the torment that will never fade
But I see the truth now
This was my Hell living without You here
Even Heaven is Hell if somehow You were not there
If You were not there
It wasn't in the flames that won't stop burning
Or within a fire that is never quenched
It wasn't in the brokenness of all my failings
But I see the truth now
This was my Hell living without You here
Even Heaven is Hell if somehow You were not there
Lord, I need to breathe You
Drink You, dream You
Nothing ever will compare
Need to breathe You, drink You
Dream You, need You
This was my Hell living without You
(when You're so far away)
Even Heaven is Hell if Heaven's without You
(when You're so far away from me)
Everything's Hell if somehow You're not there
The lyrics of Disciple's "My Hell" express the belief that true suffering is not found in the physical realm, such as throwing roses on a grave or being tormented by a curse or flames. Rather, the true hell is living without God. The song acknowledges that even if one were to go to Heaven, it would still be hell if God was not present. The lyrics describe a deep need for God and an acknowledgement that He is the only thing that can truly bring peace and fulfillment.
The verses describe different scenarios that could be considered hell on earth, such as a bottled plague or an unquenchable fire, but ultimately conclude that these things are not true hell. The chorus repeats the idea that living without God is the true hell and that everything else pales in comparison. The bridge of the song expresses a desire to consume God, to dream of Him, and to need Him above all else.
Overall, "My Hell" is a powerful expression of the importance of a relationship with God and the emptiness that comes from living without Him. The song encourages listeners to seek out a deeper spiritual connection and acknowledges that everything else in life is meaningless without it.
Line by Line Meaning
It's not found in throwing roses on a grave
Hell is not found in traditional mourning practices
Or in the cursed bottom of a bottled plague
Nor is it found in the darkest parts of addiction
It wasn't in the torment that will never fade
Nor in suffering that seems endless
But I see the truth now
But now I understand where my personal Hell was
This was my Hell living without You here
My personal Hell was living without my spiritual guide or faith
Even Heaven is Hell if somehow You were not there
Even the idyllic afterlife would be dull without the presence of the divine
It wasn't in the flames that won't stop burning
It was not found in the eternal damnation symbolized by a never-ending fire
Or within a fire that is never quenched
Nor is it in the unquenchable thirst for material possessions
It wasn't in the brokenness of all my failings
Hell is not in the realization of one's mistakes or character flaws
Lord, I need to breathe You
I require spiritual connection with a higher power to sustain me
Drink You, dream You
I need to be in the presence of the divine to function, even in my sleep
Nothing ever will compare
No other source can provide me with the level of comfort and guidance that my faith can
Need to breathe You, drink You
I yearn for consistent spiritual replenishment through connecting to a higher power
Dream You, need You
I require the presence of a higher power in all aspects of my life
This was my Hell living without You
Living without a higher power was the worst experience of my life
(when You're so far away)
When I feel disconnected from my faith
Even Heaven is Hell if Heaven's without You
Without my faith being present, my afterlife is meaningless
(when You're so far away from me)
When I am disconnected from spirituality
Everything's Hell if somehow You're not there
Without a higher power, all experiences can be grueling.
Lyrics © CAPITOL CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROUP, Universal Music Publishing Group, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: BRADLEY MICHAEL NOAH, JOEY SETH FIFE, KEVIN DUANE YOUNG, TIMOTHY DWAYNE BARRETT, TRAVIS WYRICK
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