The self-proclaimed “Grady Baby”, Dontae has his own publishing company DP Music/SIGNED TO NEW LABEL ALGEBRA LLC, and has worked on projects such as Usher, Chris Brown, Cassie, Jahiem, Keke Wyatt, Raheem Devaughn, Baby "Birdman" Williams, J. Holiday, Ruben Studdard and Young Steph. His unique approach to harmony and melodies has made him one of the most in-demand up and coming songwriters.
Dontae was also blessed to work with artists like Usher, One Chance, Chris Brown, Jahiem and many others. He then journeyed to LA and worked the Underdogs and the legendary Dr. Dre. His name was becoming a staple as a go-to songwriter and amazing background vocalist (Dontae background for artists like Keith Sweat amongst others) He was also routinely asked to reference other writers songs.
Today, Dontae feels blessed to be doing what he feels he was born to do. "Music has been my life for as long as I can remember. There is no separation between me and my music."
Suicide
Dontae Lyrics
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I never meant for you to leave & go far away (no)
And I hate that I caused you so much pain
I'm hurting now
Everywhere I go, I'm facing dark clouds
Barely holding on, I'm fading out
I pushed love far away
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience & I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone (cold?)
I've committed suic
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whoow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suicide (whow)
Committed suicide (whooow)
I just jumped off a bridge
And lost the better half of me (whow, yeah)
Turned my back on love
And I feel like a bird without a wing (oohw)
Oh, I'm hurting now
Wish I could go back & slow time down
I would turn that frown into a smile
I wish I could show you how much I've changed
I'd do anything to get it back
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience & I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone (cold?)
I've committed suic
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whoow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suicide (whow)
Committed suicide
I regret the day she left me behind
Why did I waste our precious time
How can I betray the gift that God has given me (oh no)
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience & it feels like my guardian angel is gone
I've committed suic
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whoow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suicide (whow)
Committed suicide (whow)
I regret the day she left me behind
Why did I waste our precious time
How can I betray the gift that God has given me
The lyrics of "Suicide" by Dontae convey a sense of regret and remorse after the loss of a loved one. The song tells the story of the singer who pushed his love far away to the point where he lost her. He is now suffering and facing dark clouds everywhere he goes. The singer is hurting, and he wishes he could go back to show his loved one how much he changed. But it's too late. The singer feels like he's lost his guardian angel, and it feels like his life is reckless and out of control. He's cursed without a conscience, and he has committed suicide. The lyrics suggest that the singer either feels as though his life has ended with the loss of his loved one or that his emotional state has driven him to attempt suicide.
Line by Line Meaning
I never meant for you to leave & go far away (no)
I did not intend for you to leave me and go away from me.
And I hate that I caused you so much pain
I regret hurting you and causing you so much pain.
I'm hurting now
I am currently experiencing emotional pain and suffering.
Everywhere I go, I'm facing dark clouds
I am constantly surrounded by sadness and despair wherever I go.
Barely holding on, I'm fading out
I am struggling to cope with my emotions and feel like I am losing control.
I pushed love far away
I pushed away the possibility of love and connection in my life.
It has travelled further than I can go
Love has gone far away and beyond my reach.
I just jumped off a bridge
I metaphorically ended my life by giving up on love and connection.
And lost the better half of me (whow, yeah)
I lost the most important part of myself in the process of giving up on love.
Turned my back on love
I deliberately rejected love and the possibility of a meaningful relationship.
And I feel like a bird without a wing (oohw)
I feel incomplete and unable to move forward without love in my life.
Wish I could go back & slow time down
I regret my past decisions and wish I could change the course of events.
I would turn that frown into a smile
I would do anything to make things better and bring happiness back into my life.
I wish I could show you how much I've changed
I want to prove to you that I have changed for the better and regret my past actions.
I regret the day she left me behind
I feel deep sorrow and pain for the day you left me.
Why did I waste our precious time
I feel regret for wasting our time together and not cherishing the moments we had.
How can I betray the gift that God has given me (oh no)
I feel like I have betrayed the gift of love and relationships that God has blessed me with.
I'm cursed without a conscience & I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone (cold?)
I feel like I am living without purpose and guidance, and the person who was my guiding light is now gone.
I committed suicide
I am metaphorically ending my life by giving up on love and connection.
I don't know, I don't know
I am confused and lost about my current state of mind.
Committed suicide (whow)
I am metaphorically ending my life by giving up on love and connection.
Contributed by Christian M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.