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i like to make music. Disgusting, sloppy, sickeningly pretty music that sounds like nintendo with very chaotic beats. only a handful of people like my music. i like to make 8 bit video games and visualizations. i like to add nonsense to the code to see what it will do. i like pretty girls more than anything else. there's something wrong with me. i have become so smart that i have gone backwards. i'm deeply religious in a way that no one else i've ever met is, and i was into theoretical physics and cosmology since before it was fashionable. i have a monoploy on something very rare which makes me valuable. i'm a star. i make things happen. i don't work very hard at anything therefore all that i have are things that i deserve. i have alot.
from http://www.drlight.org
i was borne in 1979 in a poor community in northwest ohio. i was raised there, brought up in the ways of the Baha'i Faith, a very beautiful religion. i'm greatful for having such wisdom and beauty as my foundation. in other words i had a good childhood. but i very much fell from grace after an unexpected move to wisconsin. i was also raised on a commodore 64 computer which i was allowed to use on my own for as long as i can remember. my grandfather, who was a german refugee, was an excellent programmer and showed me lots of things from basic commands to the potential of computing. for that i am very grateful as well. one other important thing is that my father was the singer of a popular rock band called the "midnight reign band". for 12 years that's how he put the food on the table. he had hundreds of records and a record player which i was also allowed to use on my own since early childhood despite the fact that i once blew out the sunn speakers (sorry). my brother and sister and i would play the records one by one and dance and play to the music. these are my fondest memories. we would play them at different speeds and manipulate the sounds in funny ways. i think being able to control music so much back then helped me to understand the malleability of music and give me the lack of respect for music that i have today, which is why i can make it my motherfucking bitch. bitch. (i don't mean any of that).
when i was 10 years old i got my first casio keyboard for christmas. i don't remember which model it was because i have since taken it apart and lost the shell. it had the ability to record a simple musical phrase and play it back in a loop so you could play over it. i recorded versions of heart and soul because that is the song that every human being on earth is born automatically knowing how to play. i sort of became obsessed with the format of that song and played only greater and greater versions of it for about 10 years. thats why i cant really make anything except pretty music (but i try). every year for my birthday or christmas i always asked for a better keyboard. anyway when i was 12 i moved to wisconsin and started doing drugs, becoming obsessed with girls and not giving a shit about anything. throughout my teenage years i spent alot of time in institutions, drug treatment and juvenile detention centers. in the 1990's i got into raves and electronic music especially jungle and gabber (yes i spell it "gabber" and i called it "hardcore gabber" so why don't you fucking off?). then in 1998 i got about 1300$ from a trust fund and bought a roland jx-305. that's when i was first able to start making music to my liking. one time my friend chris borrowed me the "on" single by aphex twin and the songs "on" and "73 yips" changed my life. since then i have been following IDM (yeah i said IDM, you snobs) and perfecting my style of experimental electronic music. around the turn of the century i started playing shows and releasing albums. i've also done the music for some short films for the Milwaukee Student Film Festival with my main man 13, most significantly, "With my Good Eye Closed" by Vince Ream. i hope you enjoy the music.
Memory
Dr.Light Lyrics
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Waiting for the next time I can get you close
I grew used to being back here
Like a chorus synth line soldier at his post
You call and I respond
The sparrow and the song
I miss you when you're gone
When I am alone, I
See you in the dark, I
Talk into the empty
Like you were with me
Started on a cold night
Felt you in the low light
Noticing the reflex
Taking over me
I see you when I reach
Muscle memory
Again, off into the next fall
I am on the back steps tryin' to let you in
See you standin' in the front hall
Maybe this is madness underneath my skin
Guess the misery spawns
Or the body it haunts
And we do what it wants
When I am alone, I
See you in the dark, I
Talk into the empty
Like you were with me
Started on a cold night
Felt you in the low light
Noticing the reflex
Taking over me
I see you when I reach
Muscle memory
I feel you when I sleep
Muscle memory
When you feel the chains
Of a thousand words
And I speak your name
Like I know you heard
I can feel you there
I can hear you move
And it moves me, too
When I'm playin' games
When I'm drinkin' wine
And I see your glass
Sittin' next to mine
I can feel you there
When you're not at home
Like I'm not alone
When I am alone, I
See you in the dark, I
Talk into the empty
Like you were with me
Started on a cold night
Felt you in the low light
Noticing the reflex
Taking over me
I see you when I reach
Muscle memory
I feel you when I sleep
Muscle memory
In "Memory," Dr. Light sings about longing for someone who isn't there. We hear the singer confess that they have grown accustomed to being without this person after a year apart. The comparison to a "chorus synth line soldier" reveals how essential they have become in their day-to-day. They have taken on a routine role, vigilant for their return. The metaphor is also a nod to the electronic influences in the song. The person in question calls and the singer responds, much like a sparrow to a song. However, despite the loved one's presence, they aren't always there, and a sense of longing permeates throughout the song. This ache is so visceral that the singer talks to the empty space where their lover should be as if they were there.
Line by Line Meaning
After having spent a fast year
After a year went by quickly
Waiting for the next time I can get you close
Looking forward to being near you again
I grew used to being back here
I became accustomed to my surroundings
Like a chorus synth line soldier at his post
Like a soldier on duty
You call and I respond
I answer your call
The sparrow and the song
Together, like the bird and its tune
I miss you when you're gone
I feel lonely when you're not here
When I am alone, I
When I'm by myself, I
See you in the dark, I
Imagine you with me in the darkness
Talk into the empty
Speak to an empty room
Like you were with me
As if you were here
Started on a cold night
It began on a chilly evening
Felt you in the low light
Sensing your presence in dim surroundings
Noticing the reflex
Noticing my reaction
Taking over me
Becoming overwhelming
I see you when I reach
I picture you when I extend my hand
Muscle memory
An automatic physical response
Again, off into the next fall
Moving forward, into autumn
I am on the back steps tryin' to let you in
I'm waiting for you to come in through the back door
See you standin' in the front hall
I see you waiting for me in the front hallway
Maybe this is madness underneath my skin
Perhaps this feeling is irrational, but intense
Guess the misery spawns
The pain comes from
Or the body it haunts
Or it lingers in my body
And we do what it wants
And we respond as it dictates
I feel you when I sleep
I sense your presence while I'm sleeping
When you feel the chains
When you feel trapped
Of a thousand words
Of countless thoughts and feelings
And I speak your name
And I call out your name
Like I know you heard
As if I think you're listening
I can feel you there
I can sense you nearby
I can hear you move
I can imagine you moving around
And it moves me, too
And it affects me as well
When I'm playin' games
When I'm distracting myself
When I'm drinkin' wine
When I'm drinking
And I see your glass
And I notice your empty glass
Sittin' next to mine
Next to my own glass
When you're not at home
When you're away
Like I'm not alone
As if you're still with me
Muscle memory
An unconscious physical response
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Andrew Pearson, Drew Pearson, Lights Valerie Poxleitner
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Lucas Crider
Love Raven. She's always gonna be the best Titan.
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MusingSprite
Raven: What's the matter? Afraid of the Dark? Me: I am now...
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Stephani Moss
i love that clip!the flashbak made it even better! RAVEN ROOLZ!
ShadeSlayer1911
They should just let Raven go 4 eyes on the entire city for one day, then nobody would mess with the Titans every again. I'd like to see even Slade get through that.
Panchonauta
jajaja, nice flashback, very funny
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"I'd like to go to jail now."
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Raven: what’s the matter afraid of the dark?! Me: * turns light on *
JosephDiEgidioIII
Serves him right.