Who I Am
Dr. K. Lyrics
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Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics
'Cause I don't want you to know, where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am won't take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Dr. K.'s song "Who I Am" is a powerful reflection on the struggle to reconcile with one's past and become a better person in the present. The opening lines depict the beauty of a sunrise over the Pacific, but the singer's mind is preoccupied with thoughts of their own unhappy state. They do not want others to know where they are emotionally because that would reveal the sadness and regret they feel. The chorus reinforces this idea, with the singer lamenting that they hate who they have been but are ready to make a change.
The second verse delves deeper into the pressures that have been building up inside the singer. They have withdrawn from others, bottling up their emotions until reaching a breaking point. The "reverberating footsteps" seem to symbolize the singer's own heartbeat, and they are afraid that they will fall apart if they do not get a handle on their emotions. These feelings are revisited in the second half of the chorus, which repeats the idea that this is no way to live.
The song's bridge reiterates the central theme of regret and a desire to change. The repetitions of "Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it" and "I'm sorry for the person I became" suggest a turning point in the singer's life. They acknowledge the mistakes they have made and the harm they have caused themselves and others. These lines also convey a sense of urgency to never make the same mistakes again.
Overall, "Who I Am" is a song about self-forgiveness and redemption, about acknowledging the negative aspects of one's past and using that awareness to grow and improve in the present. It promotes the idea that no matter how far one has fallen, it is always possible to turn things around and become a better version of oneself.
Line by Line Meaning
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics
I saw the sunrise and you might think I'm crazy, but I don't want to give too many details.
'Cause I don't want you to know, where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
I don't want you to know where I am because I'm really sad and this is not a good place for me to be.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I messed up and I wish I could take it back. I crossed a line and I shouldn't have said what I did.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I'm sorry for who I was and it took a while for me to change. I'm trying not to be that person again because I hate who I was.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I don't talk to anyone and keep to myself a lot. I have so much bottled up that I feel like I'm going to explode soon.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
I hear footsteps and my heart is beating so hard. I know that if I don't get it together, I'm going to fall apart.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am won't take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me
I hate who I was and I won't waste the second chance I've been given. Who I was didn't make me happy.
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I'm really sorry for who I used to be and it took me a long time to change. I'm trying to never become that person again because I hate who I was.
Lyrics © CAPITOL CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROUP, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: Matthew Thiessen
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@FazzEgg
Rejection sensitivity syndrome - That sounds familiar. I guess I have it on some level. It spoils my game time, and I'm basically dropping off my controller and keyboard.
I still am not saying that gaming is the problem here, but it's over other parts of my life.
I have no friends, and social culture here is bs, so try to do anything without alcohol...
I'm confident with executing plans and going along, but not really being in front and first.
I can't start conversations really, at least couldn't in school, but I've always known that adult people follow some basic rules in conversations, and uphold basic levels of respect for others as part of the egoistic mask, for whatever reason.
If they see me really worthless or not worth of the time, they wouldn't do even that.
Usually I would see the points that would either point at either them being in hurry, or that they think they are big and buff.
I would like to find that confidence to stand before those people who carry inflated egos.
It has always been something I've never understood, and something I've been somewhat scared of.
I feel bit nasty for thinking about playing around with the size of my own ego, but that shouldn't matter right?
I was like seven or eight when I first time faced someone that had built up some sort of ego for themselves, who was same age, and they used it to just insult me, and to just reinforce their own ego.
I was ok with the insult, but I didn't understand why would someone do something like that to someone just to inflate their ego and started crying.
I have some level of dysmorphia, and I feel either fat, or something that has never changed, and my body has changed its size multiple times. Im not so worried about my body, but I can't really think it's any different. What I think it is that it is fat or lower mid.
@shanecar84
I've been trying to find a concise definition/explanation of ego for a long time. Here's what I've pieced together in that time. Just my understanding/interpretation/opinion here. I don't mean to imply or say anyone else is incorrect.
Ego is any labels, judgement or ideas we have of who or what we are that isn't factual. They can form in your mind as a response to any stimulus.
Maybe emotion too, I'm not sure about that. We can't control our emotions but a lot, if not all of them come from our labels, judgement and ideas of everything.
Our true self would be what's left after we strip all of that away.
If we're talking physical, that would be our physical body. Skin, muscle, fat, blood, organs, brain, electrical impulses, hormones and so on...
If we're talking about the mind, I struggle with that more. I'm not sure there's something in our mind that isn't ego, the true self.
I think, if anything, true self may be the observer of the thoughts and sensory input, consciousness and perception.
Maybe there's something more but I don't know.
Examples:
Ego says, "I'm good because I gave that homeless person money."
Reality says, "I gave that person money."
Ego, "I'm stupid because I failed the exam"
Reality, "I failed the exam."
Ego, "I'm bad or evil because I don't feel guilty after accidentally running over my neighbor's pet."
Reality, "I accidentally ran over my neighbor's pet."
Ego, "I'm successful because I reached my education/career/income/exercise goals."
Reality, "I set goals and reached them."
Ego, "I'm a teacher, athlete, gamer, artist, criminal etc..."
Reality, "I'm a human that shares information with other humans,"
"I do whatever sport,"
"I play video games,"
"I sculpt, paint, weld, sing, play piano, etc..."
"I broke whatever law,"
Ego, "I'm ugly or beautiful."
Reality, "Art, aesthetics and beauty are subjective. I am a human."
Ego, "I'm American, African, Asian, European, German, Australian, Russian, Chinese, English, etc...."
Reality, "I was born somewhere on Earth."
These are all just actions. No judgement or constructs.
If you accept my interpretation, then ego isn't good or bad, right or wrong.
It becomes more of a tool, kind of like a user interface between the true self and the rest of the world.
If our brain is a very complex, biological computer, then it's being programmed all of our lives. By external influences and internal interpretations. The result of that programming would be the ego in this case. Maybe it can be reprogrammed in some ways?
So, one of my goals for life is to learn and try to understand ego as much as I possibly can. Then use that information to try to identify when my ego is taking control and potentially harming myself or others around me. Not just physical harm but psychological/emotional harm as well. I definitely don't always catch it, if even most of the time. I'm far from enlightenment hahah. But it has helped me drastically when it comes to identifying the roots of where my emotions are coming from and in developing and maintaining my relationships with family, friends and other people in general.
Maybe confidence in communication comes from knowing that you definitely have accurate information when it comes to sharing information/teaching.
Maybe self-confidence comes from self-acceptance.
@NycroLP
Oh boy. I watched like 10 videos of him and so far every single one has been extremely informative and entertaining at the same time. Man, this channel is a goldmine.
@FlexyVids
Haha ive been binging his videos for like 8 hours now. Agreed.
@baconpenguin94
Hell yea
@J.Darwin
true
@bruisley709
Yeah same love this guy, would love to have a one on one conversation with him about my problems.
@iAMJaws
Indeed
@hansonel
"I'm not any better or worse than anyone else." This is such a critical and difficult thing for people learn.
@frds_skce
Exactly. Whenever i try to do something, my ego would always hijack my mind and affect my judgement. Like it sucks, i once thought that the world revolves around me and my opinion actually matter but guess what, i ain't worth shit. Sometime, words of discouragement works better for me to tone down my ego and come back to my sense. Cuz i'm a very self-aware person and that works for me, idk about others
@Lasar93
but some people have an opinion, which has more value for the upcoming challenge than others. Some are leaders
@jackbrian4929
@Lasar93 you van literally leanr how to be a good leader . Thats not even the point